Affirmative contact from Zu and Can Can Heads of availablity of recordings – 001TZM may be retitled ‘Eccentrics #1 : Europa’
Author: shaun tenzenmen
Australasian DIY music specialist and practising poet, amongst other things
NOWnow Festival – 12th January 2004
004TZM released as part of the NOWnow festival
Various Artists – The NOW now, excerpts & orchestra 2xCD – 1st January 2004
A snapshot of the 2nd annual NOW now festival in Sydney, 2003 – excerpts comprises 13 pieces featuring Australia’s most committed improvisers and electronic musicians.
Music by local uber stars, Martin Ng, Anthony Pateras, Oren Ambarchi, Jon Rose, Jim Denley, Peter Blamey, Scott Horscroft, Phil Slater and international travellers – the Ortez Funeral Directors (NZ), Cor Fuhler and Mike Cooper included.
Disk two features the Splinter Orchestra – over 30 musicians – comprising nearly every performer in the festival, playing an intensely subtle 30 minute composition by Adam Sussmann.
Improvising production – 12th December 2003
004TZM dispatched for production
Let’s start a record label – 21st November 2003
Hinterlandt tracks delivered for 001TZM
Could it be that I’m peeling? – 11th August 2003
I feel like I’m getting more and more insane! Everything means so much today – why so serious? Why can’t I relax? Feeling disconnected from my body – wonder if it’s something serious or just my stupid self hurting me?
Feel like getting everything completed – wrap it up. Where do I belong now? What am I running from? Where am I running to? What’s the big plan? Why has it missed me?
Am comforted by the thought that probably millions of others feel isolated in the same way. I want to live a simple life – how can I do it knowing all the comforts I have around me? I feel guilty for the world’s burden!
Hallelujah! A dab’ll do ya! – 27th July 2003
After a couple of days of feeling like I wanted (or was going) to die – today I actually feel great to be alive!
Hayden lost his first top front tooth today! I think it freaked him out a little! He was in a very good mood after that happened!
I hear voices that don’t make a sound – 14th July 2003
Freaking out in my head again – feel like my brain cells are disappearing – information is leaking away. I seem to spend my time wishing for better days, wasting the ones here and now. I find myself in conversations not knowing what is being talked about – my mind snapped to elsewhere. Everything feels fatigued or full of potential fatigue, stopping me from starting anything. Where is this coming from? Where is it going to end up?
Spoke to Mum on the phone – I didn’t have much to say. Felt like throwing up. Felt like crying. She keeps her life going along.
I feel like my major aim in life should be to try to ensure that Hayden doesn’t go through these feelings – help him overcome this despair – but I can’t even help myself!
Everything is fine – 7th July 2003
Things plod along. A million thoughts, feelings and ideas are born and then pass away and at the end of a day, there seems little to write. Practising smiling. Learning to talk. Want to get back into the world again.
Following around to see a life that’s never in – 30th June 2003
Chinese exam tomorrow – pretty much too exhausted to study much tonight though – it feels like information is flowing into my head and right back out again!
Called Echo in Beijing – I love to hear her voice when she speaks Chinese. It’s like music. Wish she could teach me more and be here – that would be an ideal way to learn! Anyway, hope to catch up with her in the next 12 months or so.
Wake up tomorrow and study hard just before the exam!
