The enemies of fun Gather in dim-lit halls Conjuring up devils Eager to answer the calls
The enemies of fun Are sowing their demon seeds Of doubt and despair On which their evil feeds
The enemies of fun Are quick to infect Spread their disease Unable to detect
The enemies of fun Multiply within Mind twisting scared Unable to begin
Today I’m feeling:
Good so far, as I’m waiting for my first coffee. Getting up, exercising, and breakfast all part of the routine now. No cold shower this morning, though.
I remember in my dream complaining about a sore hip and then waking up uncomfortable with an aching hip! Is this what happens when we get old?
Aing was also in my dream and she needed to pee – am I having someone else’s pee dreams too now!?
Health:
Physical: 7 Mental: 7
Today I’m grateful for:
The different pairs of shows that I’ve found online recently. One of the pairs was causing me pain in my big toe again, so I switched to a different pair today and that has seemed to help.
I also came across the fact that there is a podiatrist at Bangkok Hospital and I will save up some money to go there and see if I can get some specific inserts made for me again.
22nd May 2026 – I still haven’t done this…
The best thing about today was:
Talking with Jet and Fah about a topic of debate that they had in a Thai language class about love and sex in school.
I was a little surprised to hear that they both thought that they should wait until they are 18 before having sex. I think it’s a good enough idea though, so long as they are all aware of protection and educated about it.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
I was annoyed to see George turn up 15 minutes late to class as I heard his students shout over the balcony, ‘Why are you late?’ and then after 45 minutes in class, he let them go an hour early!
I know that I shouldn’t get bothered by what other people do, but it’s hard for me not to get upset by it.
I hope your day is grand Goes as you have planned It’s the thing to do But I still don’t love you
It’s a past we shared When once we cared But yesterday is through And I still don’t love you
I wrote a broken ode Broke the unspoken code I’m thinking of you But still don’t love you
inspired, but not connected, by part of this post at Spinning Visions
Today I’m feeling:
Happy again but a little tired now that I’m home and have eaten some food. I will try to sleep earlier tonight I think. I say that now but I often end up late again!
Today I’m grateful for:
The fruit-flavoured toffees that I can buy at Big C and no doubt fuck up my fillings. I will take a packet to Hayden so he can fuck up his fillings too.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
Today I found out that one of my students, Feije, has been expelled from school. I could sense that something was up with her recently and tried to reach out to her but she said everything was fine. I saw her falling asleep in other classes and she would often skip mine with excuses that her friends said weren’t true.
Her friends were sad that she has gone. They told me that she had posted pictures on IG of herself drinking beer. I told them that she was stupid for doing that. Her friends wanted to protect her but they also knew that I was right.
Amongst all the kids in her class, there were plenty of others that I would’ve expected to have discipline issues first.
Something I learned today?
I read about Gregory Sadler who has 377 videos on YouTube about his reading of Hegel’s Phenomenology of Spirit. He started in 2015 and finished this week. He is also considering reading it again!
What do I remember about a recent dream I had?
Dreams are evasive when trying to force them back into memory. I know that I woke up last night needing to pee but whatever I was dreaming about had given me an erection that made it extremely difficult to point downwards into the bowl. It was still dark and I wanted to get back to sleep as soon as I could but had to wait and then bend it as much as possible. I’m not sure what the dream was but I seem to remember thinking that it was something affectionate rather than sexual. I didn’t have any trouble getting back to sleep but also don’t recall any new dreams that I might’ve had.
I took this picture because Miyor was excited to show me this new trick she had learned. She then proceeded to get other students to try it too. I’m trying now whilst writing this and my old bones just don’t bend that way.
A cautious step on an icy ledge Let slip the dogs of war The days of diplomacy are over And goons are knocking at the door
Never hold the gaze for more than a second The men in black are tweaking The files are closed on past misdemeanours Until they’re ready for leaking
Good job Gloria, that’s how you do Surviving all these years of top Surveilling from behind the screen Until the penny is about to drop
Baby’s got a blankie to hold A security against the fear The blinds are drawn, doors are locked So it will not happen here
A boy in a bubble, breathing hope He wants to be just like you Who decides on a normal life When they will surely die too?
Today I’m feeling:
Ok so far though getting up was difficult.
In the middle of the night, I was dreaming of Forest Cottage again and knew I needed to pee but, still in the dream, it felt like it was so close I had to run to the bathroom and when I got there I saw in my pants that I couldn’t contain it all in time but I enjoyed the feeling of relief as I wondered when I would ever stop peeing.
Finally, the dream woke me up realizing I needed to pee and thankfully I had managed to contain it so far. I fumbled out of bed still not quite with it and stumbled around the edge and head first into the wardrobe. With a loud crack, I dropped back onto the bed waking Amy and suddenly wide awake myself. I have a nice forehead bruise for my troubles this morning.
Today I’m grateful for:
My subconscious, telling me to wake up and go to the bathroom before wetting the bed. I hope these dreams don’t stop and I long have the ability to make it to the toilet in time.
The best thing about today was:
Hearing that our aircon component is here. However…. he’s here working on it right now and whilst it is working the air is not cold. One problem fixed and perhaps another created. Have to wait and see. It would be nice to be back in our familiar bedroom again although Amy is saying that my snoring is disturbing her sleep and wants to sleep in separate rooms!
About an hour later and we finally have it fixed again. Woohoo!
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
For my second class today I planned on using Quizizz online but as I sat to start it everything had disappeared from my account which was a bit of a worry as there are weeks of work of mine there, but I figured it must be some site-wide issue that will get fixed in time. But what to do for my class that was already ten minutes through the one hour allocated?
In my earlier class, I had played categories with them which went well enough but took about 20 minutes to get set up. During my break, I had taken five minutes to put together the table in a document so the kids didn’t have to draw it (which one student had struggled with!). So I quickly ran and printed off the sheets and divided the kids into groups, taking most of the phones off them, and allowing just one per group to use for searching answers.
Thankfully this group of kids are pretty obedient and even if they are not sure what I’m saying they quickly learn from each other. We were able to quickly have fun playing the game with 95% of the class taking part before I allocated 4 students to clean and kicked the rest out to their next class. Job done!
Also, with the aircon repair taking an hour or two I’ve run out of time to play guitar today which is a little annoying but I know that in the future there will also be days with lots of free time and I will be too lazy to play. Also, sometimes taking a break from something reminds you how much better you’ve become when you pick it up again.
Something I learned today?
Wow, I just finished a long chat with another student suffering depressive symptoms. Although I didn’t see it before their behaviour makes sense in hindsight.
Who has made a difference in my life lately?
I guess this one is pretty obvious for me right now as Amy has been back for three weeks and is about to leave again already. When I’m by myself I can get into a very familiar routine that becomes comfortable and though the acceptance of that change wasn’t that difficult it was still something to work through. When she is back again permanently things will change again and a new routine will reveal itself.
I took this picture last month because it was amazing to see so much fruit from this palm. No new picture today again! Maybe tomorrow I just give my phone to a random student and ask them to take pictures for me and see what they come up with!
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