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Thank You – 21st December 2001
Thank you for everything
You gave me 1000 reasons
To live my life to the full
All that is gone now
And I feel dead
But thank you anyway
18th Oct 2024 – By this time, TLJ has, unsurprisingly, stopped communicating with me in any form. I was sad about that, feeling sorry for myself and depressed. I’m sure that she wasn’t particularly happy either.
Out Of Reach – 16th December 2001
Just one more touch
Just one more taste
Can’t find a kiss
In so much space
In my dreams
You’re still real
Then when I wake
I can’t feel
*Fence – 12th December 2001
Sexual master with no partner
I make a stand from where I sit
In one mind about another
I don’t know how to say ‘What is it?’
Did I Make A Friend? – 10th December 2001
I choose to say hello
To try and make a friend
Now I question myself
And my motivation’s end
Do I really want this friend?
Is it something to pass time by?
I guess at the end of the day
I know I have to try
Tribal – 6th December 2001
I want to sit in a remote spot
For two thousand years, staring at the moon
So I can become a native
I want to be in a space full of kings
With respect for all life and people
Living tribal real-life
It seems I can’t find real life here
Perhaps that’s why so many search and find God
When we just need to find ourselves
Puzzled – 20th November 2001
I finished one piece by piece
An achievement of sorts
But the big one – puzzle of life
Is the one that really hurts
The big picture – a thousand-piece puzzle
Handed out in tiny clues
A big dark void to fill in
But all I get is confused
Closing Down Sale – 15th November 2001
Put up the signs
Bargains to be had
Body closing down
Mind going bad
Take everything I have
It means nothing
Take it away
And make it something
Nostalgia always hurts
Time’s so far away
Every new day doesn’t count
It’s just another day
Stepping closer to the end
Maybe it’s today
Close my eyes
And never wake again
18th Oct 2024 – I’m guessing I was frustrated at Lorraine’s indecision and occasional rejection around this time.
Should I Stay Away? – 5th November 2001
Such a fragile thing
Why do I want to break you?
Touch your delicate face
Afraid you’ll crumble to dust
I want to feel your warm breath
In night-time clenches
But afraid I’ll throw you away
When you become too familiar
Maybe I should stay away
But I feel a need to be saved
A continual desire for a companion
An ever-decreasing circle of self-fulfilling prophecy
18th Oct 2024 – Questioning myself about my pursuit of Lorraine as I was conscious of the deep love that I had felt for, firstly, Bronwyn and then for TLJ and what drama I had caused them. I had not been without a girlfriend for about ten years and TLJ noticed this as a weakness (particularly relevant to her, as I had transitioned my relationship from Bronwyn to her without a break). Although TLJ and I had broken up by this point I had been meeting Lorraine (outside of work) and we were figuring things out between us.
Nothing Much – 3rd November 2001
I’m pretty damn good at nothing
Much at all
Jack of all trades with no
Trades to ever call
Everything must be in the right place
Line it up, symmetrical and straight
The sequence is so important too
Each placement
Line it up, make it perfect
Symmetrical and straight
Dust it, dust it, dust it
Now do you feel great?
Took you all day
To make your muscles move
Counting each one in sequence
Got it wrong, start again
Start again from the beginning
18th Oct 2024 – Feeling sorry for myself after a wild year in 2001. The crossed-out attempt at poetry was about my then-new (or soon-to-be) girlfriend, Lorraine, who suffered from severe OCD.
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