“Everything that needs to be said has already been said. But, since no one was listening, everything must be said again.” – Andre Gide
Some thing goes wrong
Didn’t go to plan
Piss bugger arseholes
Piddle bugger damn
Oh well, you did the best you can
25th August 2023 – I think this phrase comes from Northern English comedian Mike Harding. My mum owned a live double LP of his which I would often listen to.
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
I’m not insane
Ho ho ho ho ho ho ho ho
I’m not bad
Hee hee hee hee hee hee hee hee
It’s not me brain
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
I’m just mad
Ha ho hee ha
The Week That Was 1984 diary
Photo: original import sticker from Black Flag’s Damaged album on Unicorn
31st December 1984
See next diary
Live groups of 1984
Confessions of Sin
Cult Maniax
Subhumans
Self Abuse
Conflict
Live songs of 1984
Self Abuse – Loose
Confessions of Sin – Loose (esp. at Capones)
National Insurance No.
NP 30 09 66 A
Phone numbers
Julie Roberts
Paul Chambers
Andy Anderson
Justin Butler
Simon Bradbury
Dave Brown
Amanda Brown
Jane Seabright
Kathryn Smith
Zoe
Liz Jennison
The Week That Was 1985 diary
Allergies: DEATH
Records of the week: Ruts – Staring at the Rude Boys, Subhumans – Rats
Last song of the year: Cult Maniax – Morphine Mary
31st December 1984
Built a new reception area. Mr. Grainger’s being a cunt but I went at 4. Went to Houldey’s. Dandy and Beki weren’t there
5
1st January 1985
Got up 12. Not much on TV. Not done anything in particular. Cat’s still scared to come in my room.
5
2nd January 1985
Cleaned out the Mezz floor. Fucking knackering day at work. Went to Youth Club. Stayed by myself most of the time. Getting better at darts.
4
3rd January 1985
Cleaned out the Mezz floor. Ringo Chubb are playing on the 11th in Poole. Could’ve fallen asleep at work. Went to Houldey’s. Dandy didn’t seem to notice that I’ve changed for her.
6
4th January 1985
Cleaned out the Mezz floor. Fucking knackered. Moved all shit from Mezz floor. No Youth Club. Went to Muz’s. He’s still being a shit.
5
5th January 1985
Went to town with Mum. Saw Burdett but didn’t say anything to the cunt. He’s still one of the lads. Track’s iced over slightly.
5
6th January 1985
Got up 12.30. Did this and that. Hoovered my room. Went out – no one about.
5
Children now children now
Biff bang pow biff bang pow
The now children look older than you think
At ten they smoke, take drugs and drink
The now children have the hate of the past
How now will future generations last?
The now children remember their fights
Running in gangs on the street at nights
The now children, the now children
Who will kill them? Who will kill them?
I see so much hate
I am always trying
To stop myself
From bursting out crying
Wake up in the mornings
Feeling really slow
Open up my eyes
I don’t want to know
Wake up in the mornings
Feeling really sour
Every single move
Thirteen miles an hour
Deny everything if you get caught
Don’t be fooled, don’t be bought
It wasn’t you, you weren’t there
They’ll give in, don’t despair
It wasn’t you, walk away tall
Deny everything, deny it all
24th August 2023 – Deny everything was Jez’s motto. I was too scared to lie about some things so tried to not get into a position of having to deny things, but you know what teenagers can be like. Trouble found us easily. I’m not sure how well it served Jez either. As he liked to point out when I last saw him a few years ago, ‘I’ve been to prison, me!’ Hmm – well done!
Woke up this morning
With a little smile
I knew I was on top
If only for a while
I felt so good
I just couldn’t stop
I knew I was ok
I knew I was on top
Someone at my door
Knock knock knock
I opened up the door
And gave him a shock
The copper came too late
I was screaming hate
I hit him in the head
I said ‘Get lost mate’
He finally went away
We were both screaming hate
I went upstairs to bed
I was very tired
Where did the hate come from
Which I had acquired?
I couldn’t stop thinking
This secret I must keep
I was very confused
But I was soon asleep
Looking up into the sky
I often think and wonder why
The moon looks tired and old
It looks so white and cold
Tired moon
In the afternoon
Tired moon
Smiling soon
1994ever 