Destroy ownership Share and share alike As long as I can have mine You try to say without spite Why follow one fashion When you don’t know what it’s about? You hear one sheep bleating So you can raise your shout Hide your feelings under a shroud Tell me you agree with what I say You never wanted to follow a crowd But it’s what you do every day
18th May 2023 – Wishing for utopia and telling people that they are wrong.
My body is turning purple with torture – Set me free from this tortured womb – From the carnage of this untouched tomb
My head spins in crazy undiminishing circuits – Like the blood through my purple veins – Who can tell what it contains?
Push the red button in my profiled face – My bulging eyes will turn to grey – It seems that nothing will take the pain away
The gravestones of my memory are dull and black – The scented roses are screaming blue – The dirt in my stomach is screaming too
The uncertain moods of painful emotion – Make me sick with their tiring surprises – Cos they hide behind so many disguises
My imagination has been hurtfully disturbed – Been taken over by a rat with a disease – The pains are bringing me to my knees
Set me free from this tortured womb From the carnage of this untouched tomb The blood fed through my purple veins Who can tell what it contains? The scented roses are screaming blue The dirt in my stomach is screaming too Emotion makes me sick with tiring surprises Cos they hide behind so many disguises
The rats are in the battleground of my brains Picking and clawing at the plate of remains Destroying my soul in this tortured womb Destroying my brains in the untouched tomb
If we are a new breed Then we should stick together We should fight the system And not fight each other Annihilation of self Annihilation annihilation Annihilation of wealth Annihilation annihilation This is the end And I’ve heard it before And so have many of you And many many more
17th May 2023 – By this time punk rock was fracturing into factions and I was frustrated with that.
The Cult Maniax bass player was so drunk he had to play slumped in his chair, often also with his girlfriend on his lap. A dedication to alcohol, that was a key part of the UK punk scene at the time.
I found Butcher a little bit one-dimensional after a while but loved Self Abuse. Shock To The System were my favourites though. They just had something a little special that separated them from the rest. I was soon to make friends with them.
These flyer photos were posted by Rut to a concert website
Can’t wait for the end of the lesson Can’t wait to get it over and done with Can’t wait for the end of the day Can’t wait to get out and live Can’t wait for the end of the day Can’t wait for the end of the week Can’t wait til the end of term Can’t wait to go out and seek Can’t wait to leave school I can’t wait at all
15th May 2023 – Safe to say that I wasn’t a big fan of school.
No rest for the wicked No work for those who demand No help for the needy Not from those in command No house for the homeless No peace for the quiet Who is despised the most? Dare you call us wicked?
I got my new pair of red cacks on Which light up the area when I show them I don’t like red cacks, they look way out Red cacks everywhere and round about Red cacks – stripe down the middle Red cacks – up my bum Red cacks – down to my ankles Red cacks – are such fun
14th May 2023 – My new underwear certainly made an impression. Weirdly I can’t find any definitions for cacks or cecks which I thought was fairly common English slang for underpants and trousers.
You are poxy You are a poseur I don’t like you And I won’t, no You are poxy Everyone hates you You are poxy I can’t wait til Someone kills you You are poxy You are a show-off I don’t like you And I’ve had enough Of you are poxy You are poxy Poxy poxy
13th May 2023 – ‘You’ in this case was the world – fuck ’em! I was definitely in a bad mood. Maybe I still am.
Spraying on deodorant, splashing on Brut 33 You must be a man, you must be a man Not like me Never consider wearing makeup That’s for girls you know But it’s what you’ve been told, it makes you so bold You must be a man, you must be a man You must be normal, not like I am Suave and sophisticated, cool and dedicated Manly and handsome, holding girls to ransom Keep up your image and comb your hair You look so false but I don’t care Cos it’s your fault that I don’t like you And many people are going off you too The smell is overpowering Getting up my nose And the tumour gets bigger As the cancer grows
12th May 2023 – I found the advertising to the sexual archetypes nauseating. I couldn’t understand why what you wore, looked like, smelled like etc was more important than your behaviour and the way you treated people (not that I was any good at that either!).