The little beast inside
Rising to do its harm
I push it back down again
Before succumbed to its charm
The little devil inside
Always looking to make its play
It takes all my willpower
To keep these demons at bay
So my life is lived
In this constant state of fight
When my time is done
I’ll know I’ve done what’s right
17th Mar 2023 – Self-control has been my battle and whilst I consider I may have mastered it to some degree now, I must be wary because there is very little challenging me at the moment. When the challenge comes again, I must be ready.
Because I have a little knowledge, some are filled with jealousy, others think me secretive and crazy.
Euripedes, from Medea
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful to chat with Jess yesterday. I thought it was just five minutes but was 30! I realise I haven’t really talked to her for over a year.
Same routine as yesterday morning. I am here at 22 Grams again after a first coffee at House and a few minutes showing my face at school.
The air is fresh this morning, though you can feel the humidity closing in. I’ll sit here outside, taking in the delicious scents, until I can’t bear it any longer, and I’m driven towards aircon. I’m also mentally prepared to go and get a massage, finally. But let’s see. I’m not there yet.
After talking with Amy for a while, Jess also called me, and we chatted for a swift thirty minutes. She said I’m a good husband for being ok for Amy to stay in Australia. It just feels normal to me. It would be very arrogant to make Amy stay in Thailand and be unhappy. We have to think that we have lots of time, and this is not forever. Even if we don’t have lots of time, and who knows, it could end up forever.
It was good to talk with her, and hear a different take on things, though we all (me, Jess, Amy) think quite similarly.
I did a bit of weeding before it got dark. Can’t help myself.
For dinner, I ate a bowl of strawberries, with ruamitr ice cream, chocolate, and crunchy muesli. It’s so delicious that I want a second bowl, but also about 30 minutes after eating, I felt a little sick in the stomach.
I had some sleep to catch up on too, and it was deep and long, with no nightmares, just a couple of interruptions of our cats coming and going. Feeling good after a shoulder mobility stretch workout this morning.
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