Deathtrip (Excerpts from Michael Ryan’s Diary) – 12th September 1987
Watched the movie on the video
I wanna go out and down to skid row
Yeah baby, you bring out the Manson in me
I don’t need your psychiatry
I got sixteen rounds of ammunition
I’m set for my expedition
In my see-through world of pain
Someone’s gonna remember my name
Believe me, you don’t wanna live
You were born to die on my trip
How do I stop the buzzing sound
Maybe the answer lies in the town
I’m getting cold, I need a fire
I’m feeling like a crazy live wire
Let’s find the kids in school
Let them see my real world
Trapped at all directions
I want you in my collection
It’s time to die and I’m next
They’ll remember, and what I left
On August 19, 1987, Michael Ryan embarked on a shooting rampage through his hometown, known as the Hungerford massacre. It was, at the time, the deadliest mass shooting by a single individual in British history and led to major changes in UK firearm laws.
*Acid Daze Festival – Finsbury Park, London, UK – 23rd August 1987
(Hawkwind, Dr and the Medics, Pink Fairies, Naz Nomad, Gaye Bykers, Pop Will Eat Itself, Voodoo Child, Ozric Tentacles)
*Butthole Surfers, The Shamen, A.R.Kane – Hammersmith Clarendon, London, UK – 6th August 1987
Kill Your Kids – 6th July 1987
Hate your family, middle aged man
Wanna get out, yeah, family man
Can’t take the pressure, about to explode
Take your gun and start to load
Kill your kids, daughter and son
You wanted to live fast and die young
Now it’s too late, so take revenge
Can’t stand to hear them again
Take a pick axe to their heads
Tie them up in their beds
Cut their limbs off one by one
Now you’re starting to have some fun
Down the pub, have a few beers
In your pocket, your daughter’s ears
Leave your wife to clear the mess
But you know she’s the next
Kill your kids and your wife
You just want the happy life
Free from screams and bad dreams
Not falling apart at the seams
“Man convicted for killing his family
Judge has sympathy
Four kids of his own
Driving him crazy
Two years with good behaviour”
Next day
Thousands of dead children
Wheel In Motion – 27th June 1987
This fire’s burning – crazy inside me
Flames licking my very souls
Since I started running from it
Just can’t seem to keep control
Forever, ever spinning round and round
Can’t get my feet to touch the ground
Just waiting for a positive notion
To stop this wheel in motion
This cruel and heartless life I lead
Is shaking me in my boots
No possession and always temptation
Dividing my from my roots
A fall from grace, a raging wind
Blowing my curtains wide open
Look through the window of my mind
Take a ride, why don’t you come inside?
Wheel spinning forever and on again
Endless path of endless lies and no open gates
Can’t stand still for the reaper’s fear
I know for me that heaven waits
*Gaye Bykers On Acid, Bone Idle and the Layabouts, Ulterior Motive – Mr C’s, Poole, Dorset, UK – 18th June 1987
*Grandad – 13th June 1987
Grandad passed away today. R.I.P.
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