Rebels are just another power getting ready to dictate the game by their own rules; Aliens are standing so far outside the realm of the foolers and the fools.
From a Shannon Shelberg (above) quote about there being two types of people – rebels and aliens.
Today’s Daily Stoic poem:
Don’t Let Your Attention Slide
Stretch to avoid error Never let attention slide This is the habit of the wearer Focused on the prize
With the brightest smiles and feined sincerity that serves you so well As the bee flits from candied purple to butterfly blue You’re on your way keeping all that honey as stored ammunition
It’s Me
The facade crumbled the honey on my lips enlightened by my taste Poison to my senses the comfort of your nest no longer warms I’m on my way I’ll make space for the next fool you find
Ok again. My throat seems a little clearer but I’m still croaky. Otherwise, I slept well, though only 7 hours.
It’s a cold, sunny Sunday and I will pick up Amy and Baew and we’ll go to In Am’s Kitchen for brunch.
It doesn’t look that special but getting into some sourdough after not having had it for a long while was great. There is a new bread shop that opened in the city too but sadly it was closed today.
Health:
Physical: 7 Mental: 7
Today I’m grateful for:
Baew and Mee for bringing Amy home this evening, as she decided to stay on and continue drinking and eating today!
Every day is a holiday for my little Amy!
The best thing about today was:
Listening to lots of music, though only brief listens to new bands that I wanted to check out. One day I have to stop this endless search for new music – there is so much good music being made. I need to enjoy what I already have! Same goes for comics too (and books!)
I’m also halfway through finishing the Barber Dead interview for Suspect Device and enjoyed listening to their EP again. Already good to begin with; it has really got its hooks into me.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
I haven’t been motivated to play guitar for a few days now and it is mostly due to the time factor, as I enjoy other things instead.
Something I learned today?
Don’t buy coffee at In Am’s kitchen. Whilst the food was great and reasonably priced, I’m fussy when it comes to coffee.
Review your acts, Good and bad.
I’ve been chatting with Baipad through TikTok where we seem to be sending each other videos of cute animals. I feel a little as if she is my part-time daughter.
I took this picture because mother and daughter have been reunited and both keep getting off their ties and coming to chill in our garden again.
Poetry is perfect for cliche It’s a better way To say what I want to say!
Sometimes a synonym will do It’s true! At least it’s been thought through
Rewriting what’s previously written I’m smitten With the hand already bitten!
No poems of autumn or spring So please bring Me less cliched words to sing!
Written for a task at AllPoetry.com in connection with cliche. Cliches are often useful, so long as they are not overused, and often express exactly what is required. For me though, I really don’t like cliched poetic topics like seasons or flowers, unless done really well and bringing a new dimension to the subject. I have a pet peeve with some words too but I can’t remember them now because as soon as I see them I click away from reading and forget about them immediately. Next time I see one, I want to try and understand why it is that I dislike it so much! I looked up synonyms of cliche to find bromide! Haha! Never used that word in my life.
Today I’m feeling:
Not sure yet! The cats woke me up well before I wanted and after feeding them I decided to get going. Still dizzy and feeling very hungry despite a big meal last night, or maybe because of it.
I’m not sure what time Amy and Nu got home last night but Amy was happily singing her favourite songs in bed before she finally fell asleep and I was able to get back to it too.
I felt pretty good after being out last night. Even though I wasn’t drinking and still felt tired, I wasn’t bored or grumpy.
Health:
Physical: 6 Mental: 7
Today I’m grateful for:
Being woken up at 5pm as I was enjoying a good sleep. I then got up and we went to the city for a really nice Chinese meal.
The best thing about today was:
Going to the optometrist and getting my eyes checked and ordering some cheap bifocal lenses for the spare frames I have. The lady there spoke little English but we managed to communicate everything eventually and I was happy not to spend as much as I was expecting.
My eyesight hasn’t changed so my old lenses are still ok but I was wondering if they were contributing to my dizziness. I guess not.
The lady was also the spitting image of my student iPhone and I asked her if she had a sister but she said she didn’t.
I was glad to do all this by myself instead of depending on Amy. Let’s see if the glasses I receive in the end are actually what I want!
I took this picture because this is the extent of the excitement of living where we do.
He’s a puzzle, perhaps a piece missing No joker himself, he’s just the joke And with his mouth engaged in dissing He’s the bear that you must not poke
She’s a puzzle, perhaps in too many pieces Scattered across the floor in such distress And as the pressure ever increases It was all a game, she must confess
Today I’m feeling:
Dizzy again. It’s more annoying than anything else. I don’t feel sick or anything but just like it takes extra effort to focus.
I went to school for about an hour, handing out the cookies Amy had made, which got a big thumbs-up from students.
I came home and got into bed, did some blog updates and reading before a nice one-hour nap.
Still a bit dizzy and disoriented. It’s like being drunk but without any fun feeling whatsoever. On the upside, Amy is feeling a little better each day.
Health:
Physical: 6 Mental: 7
Today I’m grateful for:
A combination of Makro and Amy. Between them, Amy put together an amazing dish of spaghetti with salmon mince balls.
The best thing about today was:
With little else happening today, Amy’s dinner really hit the spot. Both Nu and I were super hungry, especially after all the delicious smells coming from the kitchen.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
Still struggling to focus while talking to people was a bit frustrating. I wanted to be more eloquent and coherent.
I particularly noticed this whilst talking with Champ, who is back after two years in Melbourne. It was good to see him again, but I’m not sure how I came across. I didn’t tell him that I’m not feeling well, though.
Something I learned today?
Nu travelled up from Bangkok and will stay with us for a few days. He has no plan while here but just wanted to get away from the bustle of the city. We discovered that he is in partnership with a Thai sake brewery in Chiang Mai!
I took this picture because our skinny friend surprised us by standing in the driveway when we got back from the shops.
Can you name even one of the dead? Whilst dropping both bombs and bread You defend these actions instead And defiantly nodding your head
But killing kids is not self-defence Spreading peace through violence This is no place for indifference This is no time for your silence
Since when has questioning charred corpses Been more offensive than actual charred corpses?
Today I’m feeling:
Tired and dizzy, especially after exercise. I didn’t sleep well last night and woke up tired. At school now and feel a little out of it.
Amy woke up coughing and saying she is sick, so perhaps I have something coming on, too.
I felt a bit more with it by the afternoon but also with a blocked nose. I’m looking forward to getting home.
Health:
Physical: 7 Mental: 7
Today I’m grateful for:
Amy’s idea of getting mala for dinner in an effort to blow away any potential lurgy. Not sure if it will work but it was deliciously hot and spicy anyway.
The best thing about today was:
There’s a good feeling around school as next week is a holiday. Students are happy and playful and don’t seem to mind doing some work too.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
Watching George turn up an hour late to his class today. Most of his students had already disappeared by then anyway.
It is annoying to watch but I’m trying to put it out of my mind.
Amy took this picture because our bovine visitor came back again today.
Tired still, aching still but also with some inspiration to do something, though that may just end up being reading, playing guitar and watching videos as usual.
(Later) Indeed, that is how it turned out, with a little bit of chopping some of the Indian pencil tree down as it was getting out of control and sweeping the entertainment area.
Health:
Physical: 7 Mental: 7
Today I’m grateful for:
Not going on that bike ride today and getting another relaxing day in instead.
Also, to the kids next door who interrupted me when I was playing guitar and made me think not to be too serious. Random little interruptions are good to change pace sometimes.
The best thing about today was:
A big, sad skinny white cow came into our garden around lunch time and made itself at home under the shade of the trees and hung around for a few hours until the cowman came.
Whilst it was sat down, I gave it some rubs (not sure what gender it was), which hopefully transferred some goodness into its suffering body. My fingers were black afterwards.
Something I learned today?
Reading David Foster Wallace’s Consider The Lobster today told me way more than I needed to know about lobsters but also had me opening up Google Maps where I discovered that Rhode Island isn’t an island at all.
Review your acts, Good and bad.
One thing that I do is to fill up the toilet roll holder so that Amy doesn’t get caught out with it being empty.
I sent this picture to all my classes because I want to remind them that they will be bad at something before they become good at it.
A little brighter today and trying to fight laziness. Must push hard as I spend a lot of my free time lying down and reading. I love reading but need to move my body more. What to do?
(Later) I avoided the dreaded nap today by playing guitar badly for more than an hour in my room and messing around sorting files on my computer for music and comics. Both things get me so excited, along with reading books too.
And before I know it, it’s dark outside, early evening as the winter slowly creeps nearer, yet I feel full of energy.
Health:
Physical: 7 Mental: 7
Today I’m grateful for:
The lady who served me at Tanapiraya, who remained fairly calm as there were many customers at the time and then she had to figure out what the free items were that the store was giving away and deal with the technology of the till software, which wasn’t doing what she wanted.
The best thing about today was:
Playing guitar was enjoyable, though the cheap strings that I bought are making me appreciate the more expensive ones that I will buy again in the future. As I’m pretty much just bashing away, it doesn’t matter too much but even I can tell that it should sound better!
I also just finished writing a poem connected with Native American mythology and compassion. I really enjoyed composing it and testing my brain with ideas.
Something I learned today?
Psephology is the scientific study of elections. I learned this from a poem I read today! ‘Psephos’ means pebble in Greek and ‘psephomancy’ is divination by pebbles. Pebbles were used by ancient Greeks in voting.
I took this picture because I was surprised by his sudden appearance as I was working near the window this afternoon. He’s getting bigger. This evening he’s still around, having a little relax near our water tank where I gave him some chin-rubs and affection.
Good, though my neck is a bit creaky. As I looked into the bathroom mirror after getting up, I thought that I’m not doing too badly for my age. When I think about retirement approaching in the next decade, I can’t imagine it as I still feel fit and vital (at least this morning anyway!)
Last night Amy turned up the air conditioning, and I was freezing as I also had a fan on me. Once I woke up, I had to get going to warm myself up!
Two hours later, two coffees and two poems down and I’m feeling good. Today I must NOT nap! I have a plan!
Health:
Physical: 7 Mental: 8
Today I’m grateful for:
Amy always doing the washing up. It’s not that I don’t want to do it – I’m not allowed to do it! I’m not allowed in the kitchen in general and that suits me fine!
The best thing about today was:
Staying awake all day! Yay! Amy’s mum and dad came for lunch and stayed for a while afterwards, so I took the opportunity to get out to my room for a while, adding to the blog and playing a little guitar.
I came back in at around 3 pm and executed my plan to stay awake by bleaching my hair, which also meant that I couldn’t be in a lying position either, so I read a bit more of Bob Mortimer’s biography, which is thoroughly enjoyable.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
I’m down to my last 1000 baht with another two weeks left before getting paid! Actually, I have some of this month’s pay saved in another account that I was hoping to put towards getting some new glasses. Looks like I’m going to have to dip into that, though.
Something I learned today?
I watched an interesting video about a homeless guy in Bangkok called Pichai who leaves weird mind map-style graffiti around the city.
He has something going on in his head but was an interesting character and his ‘art’ is fascinating to look at.
I took this picture because they looked cute sitting together for most of the morning.
Is this matrix worthwhile? I miss her, I miss her so Broken hearts will mend in time I know, I know, yes, I know
Inside broken poetry Made a home from a dead heart We are creatures made to love And duty-bound, play our part
She has gone and I’m still here The cosmic universe chose She’s shown me that I’m worth it Back to the matrix she goes
Inspired, borrowed and paraphrased into seven-syllable lines from the question and answer at The Red Hand Files #293
The Decline and Fall of the British Empire, 1781-1997 by Piers Brendon (reviewed at Goodreads.com)
I love the language used in this book though it did make it a little bit of a slog but, as an Englishman myself, this was a fascinating journey. Somehow, in my youth, I was aware of the way things were going in Britain and got myself out just before the end of this book, the handover of Hong Kong.
I was appalled at the lies and deceit of the Empire and thoroughly enjoyed following its decline. I also noted how the USA was (hypocritically) critical of Britain’s colonialism before they stepped into the breach after WW2. And it fills me with warmth to see the USA making the same mistakes since then, and being able to watch their own empire’s decline in real time.
Today I’m feeling:
Sleepy and lazy. Knowing that I have the next six days at home isn’t helping either!
I want to get myself motivated but my body is holding back my brain.
(Later) Well, I did a bit of reading and finally finished my book. Onto some sci-fi next for something a little different.
I was able to motivate myself to get out to my room where I did some blogging, writing, listening and guitar playing, which I was glad of but didn’t feel was particularly inspiring.
Sometimes you just have to go through the motions to work towards that habit.
Health:
Physical: 6 Mental: 7
Today I’m grateful for:
Amy’s friend Fon, who dropped off a couple of small fish for us yesterday and Amy cooked them up for lunch today.
The best thing about today was:
Eating! I had breakfast, lunch and dinner today, as I’m wondering if my lack of energy is down to not eating enough. I’ll see how I feel tomorrow.
I’m a couple of kilos up on last week, too, so I need to make sure that if I do get energised, that I work out of again.
Something I learned today?
Art was really excited to tell me this morning that Oasis will play some concerts again and that he would fly to Singapore to see them if he had to!
I took this picture because our visitor came for a chill on the grass this afternoon.
Can we grow? Help each other know The best is ahead; let’s just start with better It’s the knowing when to come and go Through thick and thin together
Twenty years with no exchange When we didn’t need each other Resumes without feeling strange Wherever you are, I’m your brother
Written for an AllPoetry assignment analysing friendship
Today I’m feeling:
Reasonable. I reluctantly got up with my alarm as my neck was sore but opted out of any exercise and after a shower went out for coffee. I wanted to be productive today so didn’t dilly-dally too much and when I got home I went to my room and caught up on some emails and a little bit of writing.
After lunch though I couldn’t help having a little nap but when I woke up I forced myself back out again to play some guitar.
The rest of the afternoon and evening have disappeared with some YT videos and helping some students with reading.
Today I’m grateful for:
Rain! Finally. Though it didn’t last much longer than 30 minutes and afterwards the humidity set right back in.
The best thing about today was:
Finishing my first erasure poem. The words came out well but the overall look is a bit messy. I need to study what others have done and get ideas from them.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
I wanted to read more of my book today but watching videos won out.
Something I learned today?
There was a cosplay event at Central today. Baipad told me that she was going to check it out. She was a little disappointed that it wasn’t bigger but Chiang Rai is still a small city compared with Chiang Mai or Bangkok.
Review your acts, Good and bad.
I took some of Amy’s cookies to Utopia for them to try. I didn’t think much of it at the time but when I stepped back in home Amy had already received a message from Art wanting to order some! Amy was convinced that I did it just to try and get her busy at home but I laughed and she was being good-humoured too.
Later in the afternoon, she started working out how much they cost to make and what she could sell them for.
I took this picture because our neighbours were chilling this morning.