Whisper to scream, now take me out of the moonlight – 16th March 2021

Where’s my tribe?

I’ve been thinking about many diverse and exclusive things these past couple of weeks, such as difficulties I have with getting on with people, my personal social media use, with-us or against-us political environments and I have come to the conclusion that all these thought processes have been triggered by being away from my tribe. This has caused a lot of self refection, some not so good internal dialogs and finally, a mini revelation.

Reading back over old entries show that I had quite an outgoing self confidence in the past and despite feeling happier these days I think that that confidence is decreasing somehow. I see this as a good sign somewhat, in that I am not so old and stuck in my ways that I think everything I do is right or perfect or that I have a fallen into the stale patterns of comfort. But I do feel that I can be knocked down easily by the judgement of some who don’t understand me or my style.

I try my best to fit in wherever I am but I am just not built to think like other people. Now I need to re-learn that that is ok and I am still worthwhile and offer value in this world, in this space.

In the last 2 weeks (since starting to think about this topic) I have gained back some of my self-confidence and understood (or re-understood) that I am OK the way I am and I don’t have to live up to anyone else’s expectations except my own. If some people are rubbed the wrong way by my own manner then I can see the balance between it being my problem and being theirs. After all, these people are not part of my tribe. I still value their connection but ultimately these are not going to be people that I will, or want to, spend my free time with.

I am who I am, and I understand myself.

So – what is my tribe?

They must be connected to punk, music and the DIY ethos that I have worked with, on and off, over the last 30 years – the people and connections I have made within those spheres are my tribe. There is no punk or music scene here where I live though the DIY ethos is quite apparent in the way Thai people tend to do as much as they can by themselves, usually in order to save money.

The DIY ethos inspires me to do things under my own influence and to work hard for a common good, even if the result is personal and self-serving, the action is often the reward rather than the result.

In the past I partook in scenes as a show organizer or music producer but at this moment and place neither of these is feasible. Perhaps in an effort to discover something new to take part in I have cut myself off a little from those things from the past – particularly in an effort to remove myself from social media as much as possible. But I haven’t really discovered that something new that sparks my heart in the same way. So now I wish to reconnect – but how?

Must I soil my soul descending back into the hell of social media. Can I use it without it using me? I actually, really don’t want to do it at all but there seems to be no alternative. In the absence of anything local to be involved in, the easiest way to connect is via social media. I do miss message boards and forums of old and don’t feel the same connection with a Facebook group or even a Reddit thread.

The recent release of Senyawa’s Alkisah album, which was a worldwide cooperative release with 40 plus labels from all around the world, was an inspiring effort from everyone involved but I also feel a little reluctant to be taking part in the side of the music production cycle that I dislike the most and that is the promotion and marketing. I’ve never enjoyed it and I feel my influence is very minor compared with others who can muster the enthusiasm for these things.

The overall effort for the release though has triggered some further ideas to be more involved again and perhaps build on the catalogue of music that I have already been involved in over the last two to three decades.

Or perhaps I should just write about the music I discover in the future but even that feels like it has all been done before – much like the Gide quote at the top of this page. Can I make something new, that not only inspires me but also inspires others? Bring my tribe back together, rejoin my tribe, build my tribe again?

Pic: At the office, 2004, before re-discovering my tribe

  • When I had my original inspiration for writing this I had much more clarity about what I wanted to say. Unfortunately, I didn’t get a chance to write immediately and ended up with this rambling text, still searching for clues and answers.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful to wake up in the cool morning and push myself through my lethargy and do just a few minutes of exercise – enough to pump me up for the day. I can watch the sun come up and the mists evaporate. I’m not always able to do this but I’m thankful when I can because it makes me feel better.

Senyawa – Alkisah – 21st February 2021

Indonesia’s intense, vital experimental duo Senyawa release their newest album Alkisah via a decentralised worldwide co-operative effort. An explosive, exploratory trip through Senyawa’s unique sonics, Alkisah represents these masters of unpredictable experimental music pushing their own boundaries. 

Instrumentalist Wukir Suryadi performs on his homemade instruments, created from bamboo and other natural materials, offering a rarely explored link between the ancient, traditional, mystical music of South-East Asia and the contemporary avant-garde. 

Vocalist Rully Shabara (also of tenzenmen recording artists Zoo) mines the human voice for its strangest and most challenging sounds, chanting, yowling and throat-singing like a chorus of demons in one song and an arcane, chattering machine in the next. 

Rhythms skitter and crash around like gamelan, punctuated with trashcan drums or bulging plumbing percussion, while doomier moments (such as “Istana”) crush with seething waves of distortion and Rully’s mesmeric growls (a mix of Javanese, Bahasa, and other Indonesian languages). The record lurches from urgency to apocalypse, a twisting and twining story with animist mythology and hellish atmospherics. 

ALKISAH can be translated as ONCE UPON A TIME. 

This is that time.

Wukir Suryadi: Custom Instruments 
Rully Shabara: Lyrics, Vocals 

Recorded and Mixed by Iwan Karak 
At Eloprogo, September 2020 

Soundscape of Eloprogo recorded by tesaran 

Artworks by Sopeng 

Minang proverbs on “Kabau” compiled by Taufik Adam

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for my tooth guard. Without it, I would grind my teeth down to the gums. I think my neck problem comes from doing this too. Maybe it’s because I drink too much coffee but I sleep well most of the time.

Struggle Session – Sudamérica Ruido y Amor – 4th July 2019

Cat #: 198TZM

“33 shows in 37 days, the numbers seemed unreal as we set off screaming through 7 countries, crossing an entire continent. It was a tour we’d dreamed about, some of us for years others for just the past six months, excited about new places to explore and new people to meet, different languages and different cultures. An utterly DIY tour that we’d planned and booked ourselves; we slept on floors, played in houses, in squats, in burnt out buildings, anti-fascist boxing gyms, and on the street. We played with amazing bands in cities we’d never even heard of before. We shared food and philosophies of life. We got free tattoos, free CDs, and free beer. We didn’t sleep for days on end. We ran out of clean underwear. We got tired and worn down, we fought and got sick, yet had no choice except to continue. We met amazing people and fell in love, with new friends, and with life. We may have even learned something about the world, each other, and ourselves. As the days flew by, each felt like a lifetime, each city a whole world onto itself. The tour became too much to take in all at once, its totality became a blur, while each individual memory burnt itself into our minds and our hearts.

Sudámerica Ruido y Amor is about that trip. 33 songs speed by in under 10 minutes, one for every city we played. Each track recounts a unique moment, a shared joke, or a crystallized emotion inspired by the people we met, the bands we played with, and the cities we visited. Styles clash and collide as the days bleed together and cities come and go, yet through the chaos, a common theme appears, one of the kindnesses of strangers and the power of community. We hope that this EP will stand as a document, not only of what we’ve done but also of those who helped us along our way. We also hope that it serves as an inspiration for others to seek out all the vibrant scenes supporting DIY music both on and off the map, in South America or wherever the music takes you. Above all these are love songs to all those we met on our tour. Sudámerica ruido y amor!” 

What’s Cool and Unusual – 24th June 2014

Call out!

The Red Rattler’s Management Committee is on the hunt for some new Directors. This is your chance to get directly involved in the management of this community-run space – hands-on and fully intimate.

We are looking for individuals with skills or knowledge in at least one of the following areas:
Not-for-profit organisations
Governance and compliance
Event management
Risk assessment processes
Program and Project Development
Social Media
Contemporary arts and culture
A commitment to planning for the long-term viability of this non-profit venue
A commitment to implementation of The Red Rattler eco-sustainability plan
A passion for arts and politics
A commitment to build a space where racism, homophobia, transphobia and sexism are not welcome.
Find full details on submitting your Expression of Interest online or contact Director Kat Roma Greer on kat@redrattler.org.


Another call out!

Want to Smash Jura Books?
With a Hammer

Ever wanted to take a sledgehammer to Jura Books? Well, now’s your chance. We’re doing renovations to our library to make it a bigger, better space for talks and gigs. We need your help to destroy a wall (and rebuild the room). We also need a certified electrician to do about a day’s work on the wiring. We can afford to pay the sparky, although mates rates would be appreciated! Please get in touch if you are a friendly sparky or know of one.
• Working bee, 12-5pm, Sat 5 July
• Working bee, 12-5pm, Sat 12 July


Sat 28

Red Rattler, 6 Faversham St, Marrickville


The follow up single to last year’s well-received ‘Blood of the Grove’ LP from Melbourne based musician Sean Bailey under the moniker of LAKES. Post punk meets dark folk delivered with military-like precision, for fans of DEATH IN JUNE and THE MOB. Mixing bleak pop with an underlying aggression, delivering stark melodies with understated power.

17th Aug 2021 – As far as I can tell, after 7 or so years of weekly posts, this was the last newsletter sent out. As I had lost my job earlier in this year, I wasn’t going out too much so not so much in the loop of things. Also, Facebook had really taken over as the communication tool of choice, leaving this list feeling a little redundant. Jeremy Chunn valiantly helped out for the last 12 months or so but even his enthusiasm couldn’t motivate me to keep going. This was a special time in Sydney with a lot of motivated people trying to create things outside regular bar venues. Places like The Pitz, Maggotville, Dirty Shirlows and many many more became legendary for a while there.

What’s Cool and Unusual – 18th June 2014

Wed 18

Lamps, level 4, 342 Elizabeth St, Sydney
$5/$10 ALL AGES

Laura Altman
Evan Dorrian with Andrew Fedorovitch
Luiz Gabriel Gubeissi with Mel Herbert, Jim Denley and Bonnie Stewart

  • special guests


Fri 20

Birdrib, Tempe



Fri 20

Black Wire, 219 Parramatta Rd, Annandale



Sun 22

107 Projects, 107 Redfern St, Redfern
6pm $10/8 ALL AGES

Pretty Gritty #7
assault and bassery

Cat Hope
Knife Crimes

What’s Cool and Unusual – 11th June 2014

Fri 13

107 Projects, 107 Redfern St, Redfern

Matthew P. Hopkins – LP launch

with special guests:

Monica Brooks
Exotic Dog


Fri 13

Black Wire, 219 Parramatta Rd, Annandale
$10 ALL AGES 7pm



Sat 14

Edgeware Rd, Marrickville

DEQY & Daily Jam Present: Benefit for RISE (Pop-Up Cafe/Motherlands and Hometowns Zine Launch)

Proceeds raised from the cafe and zine will be sent to RISE (http://riserefugee.org/) and Cross Border Protection.

THE MENU (All vegan, all gluten-free):

Scrambled Tofu
Sauteed Balsamic Mushroom & Zucchini
Home Made Beans
Home Made Hashbrowns
Gluten Free Bread

Onion Bhaji
Cashew Butter & Pesto Pasta
Oven-Baked & Seasoned Vegetables
Garden Salad with Balsamic Dressing

$10 for a plate of food
$15 for a plate of food, a zine & a tea/coffee


Motherlands and Hometowns explores the way in which we move through the world, build metaphysical homes in physical spaces and disentangle our complex identities. Contributors: LM, Blossom Mckenzie-King, Ellie Rose, Cher T, Stono River Caves, Farnoush Parsiavashi, Alana West, Craig Lyons.



Line-Up TBA

DEQY is an initiative that advocates for people of all genders to enjoy and play live music, without being marginalised.

Daily Jam Recycled Furniture
Furniture designed and constructed by Michael Dukes and Blossom Mckenzie-King using recycled timbers, fabrics and whatever we find useful.

This event will be held upon the land of the Gadigal people of the Eora Nation. We acknowledge the Gadigal people as the traditional custodians of this land and that sovereignty was never ceded.

What’s Cool and Unusual – 4th June 2014

Call out!

Monster Mouse Studios will be hosting two days of interactive workshops. The workshops are a combination of all the activities undertaken at Monster Mouse from the last year. It will be a one-stop shop to learn every artistic skill under the sun.

Would you like to run a workshop?! Please contact us with your workshop idea. Don’t let a lack of skill stop you from running a workshop!



Thu 5

Red Rattler. 6 Faversham St, Marrickville
Doors 7pm $5

Chaos Syndicate’s Arcade

Freak out with the geeks and geek out with the freaks.

Back by popular demand!

Board Games and Video Games.

Small World, Pandemic, Settlers of Catan, Ticket to Ride (Europe), Risk 2210 A.D., Spartacus, Munchkin, Scrabble, Twister, Chess & more.

Feel free to bring your own games too. Many people playtest the games they’ve developed themselves. Consoles hooked up to projectors and TVs. Also Halo 4 Lan.


Sun 8

Black Wire, 219 Parramatta Rd, Annandale

TAPE/OFF (Bris/Album Launch) / NARROW LANDS / CULL

What’s Cool and Unusual – 28th May 2014

Call out!

Future event heads up!

NCWS Presents
LET’S GET STUPID – Outdoor Underground Party

Event Info: http://lgs.dancepartyhire.com.au/
Warm Up Party: https://www.facebook.com/events/1434316483468052
Tickets: $35 + b.f Presolds now on Sale (Please email ****@dancepartyhire.com.au for payment info)

  • Tickets only sold to all who love the music & the scene
  • This is a presold only event, all ticket sales end on the 5/08/2014 or once sold out


Call out!

Monster Mouse band room now taking bookings 2 weeks in advance! Support our user-friendly and affordable DIY rehearsal space. Only $30 for 3 hours plus $5 gear hire (drumkit/cabs/pa) Marrickville area, weeknight slots 4-7pm and 7-10pm. Weekends 1-4pm and 4-7pm. Write an email to: ****@gmail.com or text Hannah for bookings. Tell your friends 🙂


Wed 28

PACT 107 Railway Parade, Erskineville
7pm $15 ALL AGES

Room – Earthcrosser Company
Room is a new theatre work that explores the interaction between a performer’s physicality and unconventional light and sound sources.


Fri 30

Black Wire, 219 Parramatta Rd, Annandale
6pm $10 ALL AGES

Ether Rag
Alf Stewart
Bombs over Brunswick (Melbourne),
Scrotal Vice
Nobody’s Driving


Sat 31

Black Wire, 219 Parramatta Rd, Annandale

Ixodes, Kremlings [Geelong], Chinese Burns Unit, Moonsign and Grey Places


Sat 31

Monster Mouse Rehearsal Studio, Maud Lane, Marrickville
7pm $10 ALL AGES

Dark Horse
Hostile Objects
Bombs Over Brunswick (Melbourne)
Vile Ways


Sun 1

Young Henrys, 76 Wilford St, Newtown

Conspiritus Muppetus | Print Exhibition and Book Launch

Glenno Smith has drawn and written all about esoteric cults, conspiracies and weird history, shoved it all in the (72) pages of a book and is offering it up, like it’s some sort of… thing!

Individual prints, as well as signed copies, will be made available on the day, as well as frosty, cold beer… at the source of all beery goodness – Young Henry’s Institute of Awesome.

What’s Cool and Unusual – 21st May 2014

Wed 21

Lamps, Hibernian House, 342 Elizabeth Street

Peter Farrar – solo
Shota Matsumura


Thu 22

Black Wire, 219 Parramatta Rd, Annandale

Thee Nodes (Canada) / Gentlemen (Melb) / Nobody’s Driving / Mandate


Fri 23

Firstdraft, 13-17 Riley Street, Woolloomooloo

Video Ezy

Video Ezy is a collaboration between two Sydney based musicians and artists, Nina Buchanan and Del Lumanta. Using synths, keyboards and drum machine, the pair move between dystopian pop songs and loose, repetitive jams.


Fri 23

Red Rattler, 6 Faversham St, Marrickville
Entry is by Gold Coin Donation! Doors 7pm

Angharad Yeo – Spiderstring Album Launch.

Playing an exclusive set with full band, there will also be copies of the album for sale at the event.


Sat 24

PACT Centre for Emerging Arts 107 Railway Parade, Erskineville
12-2pm, $15 / $10 ALL AGES

This is a special event co presented by New Music Network and the NOW now. The Splinter Orchestra will be presenting an afternoon concert of new works. – We’ve been building up to this the last 5 months!


Sun 25

107 Projects, 107 Redfern St, Redfern
2pm $10 ALL AGES

Reykjavictim, Mannheim Rocket, The Seaport and the Airport, Wade M Gilmour


Sun 25

Alaska Projects Level 2, Kings Cross Car Park, 9A Elizabeth Bay Road

involuntary muscle
feat. Jane Sheldon | Michaela Davies


Sun 25

Level 3, Central 28 Broadway, Chippendale

Other Worlds Zine Fair – an alternative to the MCA’s zine fair.

The MCA is sponsored by Transfield, a corporation that operates contracts in the detention centres on Manus Island and Nauru. Transfield derives brand value through its association with the arts. By participating in events that are sponsored by Transfield we add value to their brand. This alternative fair will give zinesters an opportunity to show their protest while still enabling them to sell and swap their zines. An alternative to the MCA zine fair may seem like a small protest, but it’s a specific protest as zine makers, in solidarity with asylum seekers who protest against and resist mandatory detention from within the camps

What’s Cool and Unusual – 14th May 2014

Call out…

Call Out for Red Rattler:
Volunteer Live Music Coordinator!
We’re looking to fill the volunteer Live Music Coordinator position(s). Ideal for emerging music event managers or promoters that are able to be part of a programming group to develop festivals/events showcasing and promoting the Red Rattlers commitment to Sydney’s alternative arts and music culture.

You would play a massive part in continuing the Rattler’s success as a creative live music playground in Sydney’s inner-west.

What you need:
• Lots of contacts with skills to expand on The Rat’s music bookings
• Ability to develop your own events or bring tours to Sydney
• Strong desire to build relationships with local/interstate promoters & work with local community radio stations
• Excellent event management & tech knowledge
• Ability to help promoters & bands with music briefs; programs & setlists

You’ll bring a great attitude, diverse music knowledge and a desire to maintain the Rattler’s strong anti-racist, queer friendly, activist and feminist arts culture.

Email your expression of interest (max 1 page by Friday 24th May)


STIRR UP GALLERY Addison Road Community Centre
142 Addison Rd, Marrickville NSW 2294 Australia

“DESERT / FOREST” Ganbold Lundaa aka Gawaa and Hirofumi Uchino exhibtion
20 May -1 June 2014

opening party TUE 20 May at 6 pm
live: Defektro, Toydeath, Zedfemale with Shane Fahey, Codakrohm

closing party SUN 1 June at 2 pm
live: Bukhchuluun Ganburged, Lc Beats, Bright Murane, Forenzics, Axis


Sat 17

Red Rattler, 6 Faversham St, Marrickville
Doors 7.30pm, $22+bf

Broken Hive Records presents

Foundation (USA)
Twitching Tongues (USA)
I Exist (ACT)
Warbrain (VIC)


Sun 18

Red Rattler, 6 Faversham St, Marrickville

Celluloid Sessions is a collaborative indoor arts festival with local Djs, Bands, Street Artists, Projection Art, Short Film Screenings, Food & Art Stalls & the biggest clothing swap in Sydney.

We’re screening cult classic and awesome Aussie masterpiece Wake In Fright (1971).

In the Art Department we’ll be joined by talented Sydney based artists, The Dirt, Mulga The Artist as well as Lowri Best & Rudá Tillett. Each artist will be painting live artworks throughout the day.

Super Galaxies, The Spoon Collectors, Love Swagga, Spike the Punch, Mannheim Rocket, Zhe Nhir, Shart City, & many more talented musicians will be dishing out the funky tunes & freshest beats.

There will be Art stalls, Food stands and a fully licensed bar to keep you well watered!

Celluloid Sessions will be held at The Red Rattler Theatre in Marrickville on the 18th of May, right around the corner from Sydenham station!

The Clothing Swap will kick things off at 1pm with the event finishing around 11pm.

Get in early and grab tickets online for only $10-


or pick one up at the door for $15

The first 100 guests to buy their ticket online will be entered into a draw to win an original piece painted by one of our talented artists. So don’t miss out!