Tan Your Testicles – 14th May 2022

The white man is a dying breed
Losing out on culture and status
Big balls are what we need
It’s the testosterone that makes us
Show your balls to sun and sky
It’s sure to be the latest fad
Anal bleaching, widening the eye
It’s the best time to be had
The sperm count is getting lower
Perhaps from rubbing too many out
No matter a shower or grower
Your manliness is in doubt
We’ll shoot up all the clinics
Start to remove a woman’s right
Protect each other from the cynics
Rape our way out of this plight
Best to arrange another war
To kill exotics far away
Our manhood is what we’re fighting for
And, by God, we’ll make them pay


The person who says he knows what he thinks but cannot express it usually does not know what he thinks.

from How To Read a Book

The Week That Was – 8th July 1979

My war, you’re one of them – 31st January 2020

“Keep this thought handy when you feel a fit of rage coming on—it isn’t manly to be enraged. Rather, gentleness and civility are more human, and therefore manlier. A real man doesn’t give way to anger and discontent, and such a person has strength, courage, and endurance—unlike the angry and complaining. The nearer a man comes to a calm mind, the closer he is to strength.”
—MARCUS AURELIUS, MEDITATIONS, 11.18.5b

I’ve never been a manly man. Well, I say that, though I can remember trying to be one from about ages 11-14. Then I started getting bullied a bit at school and realised I wasn’t ever going to be a strong boy physically.

Not me but you get the idea…

I retreated into my mind but taking resentment and bitterness there. I filled myself with seething hatred for everything around me, confusing what I considered personal injustice with larger injustices of the world. Everything was against us. It was us and them, whoever us was and whoever they were.

I dove head first into the moshpits of punk rock. Besides my mother, punk really was a rock for me to hold on to. Sometimes I clung too tight but eventually I found my way.

Justice and fairness are still amongst my top character strengths, thankfully along with curiousity and gratitude – those two came later.

These days I’m trying to calm my mind to bring some inner peace but the tunes of yesterday still rattle around from dawn to dusk. This inner noise is it’s own sort of peace, it’s familiarity calming, the anger gone.

Man is spelt big M.A.N. it’s the letters of the law,
Man is spelt big M.A.N. that’s who the law is for.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for the supportive teachers around me. They have helped me cover a lesson today and it was easy to stand once I found the right person to talk with.