Paranoia in the foyer
I said I’m sorry
I said I’m sorry
Please forgive me
No – don’t touch me
Paranoia – said my doctor to my lawyer
Is killing me
And filling me
With dead dread
In my red head
I see it
Tag: poem
Neighbours – 4th November 1987
If you’re bored just call next door
Well you know, that’s what neighbours are for
Welcome in with open arms
Possessing the sweetest charms
Welcome in with open ears
They just wanna hear the tears
Welcome in with open eyes
To gossip their fuckin’ lies
Welcome to the danger zone
Neighbourhood watch – you’re on your own
Deluxe – 3rd November 1987
I got a Velux in my ceiling
The idea seemed appealing
Letting all that sunshine in
But keeping out the frozen wind
But now I lay awake at night
Because of the bright moonlight
Six Condoms – 28th October 1987
I bought six condoms three months ago
But I haven’t used a single one
I’ve met lots of girls who’ve all said no
Maybe I’m doing something wrong
Sexual frustration is taking me over
I just want to find a good damn lover
When I do, I will thank her
But for now, I’m just a little wanker
Badhead – 24th October 1987
Badass motherfuckers
Skating on the sidewalk
Rad thru the precinct
Smashing up the billboards
Ride til you die
And skate for your life
Crashed out
Wheels split either side
Badhead, motherfucker
Badhead, shoot that sucker
Badhead, riding high
Badhead, watch you fly
17th Oct 2025 – I wasn’t really a part of skate culture and no one in our village had a skateboard, preferring BMXs and then motorbikes. Skateboards didn’t make much sense for fun or for transport. I did learn of its connection to punk through The Stupids and some other US bands. I seemed to understand that it was cool and rebellious without particularly knowing why. At least, until a little later when ‘the man’ tried to stop kids skating everywhere.
Screaming Ab-Dabs – 20th October 1987
Walking down the lonely street
Afraid of all the people you’ll meet
Telephone’s ring in an upstairs room
Grey clouds mist over your open wound
The streets are full of foreigners
Faces you don’t understand
Their evil sneers look down on you
You’re on computer scan
Graffiti Pop Art Heroes – 6th October 1987
Pop art pictures graffitied on the wall
Spray paint politics always on the ball
Now sold out to the popular cause
Plenty of money in painting the walls
Alleykat – 4th October 1987
Fighting for freedom in alleys of tin pan
Dodge or destroy everything you can
Cat amongst pigeons or a boy amongst men?
It’s time to start the shooting again
22nd Oct 2021 – Fatty and I would play this game for hours on end on my old Commodore 64, stoned, drunk or sober.
Deathtrip (Excerpts from Michael Ryan’s Diary) – 12th September 1987
Watched the movie on the video
I wanna go out and down to skid row
Yeah baby, you bring out the Manson in me
I don’t need your psychiatry
I got sixteen rounds of ammunition
I’m set for my expedition
In my see-through world of pain
Someone’s gonna remember my name
Believe me, you don’t wanna live
You were born to die on my trip
How do I stop the buzzing sound
Maybe the answer lies in the town
I’m getting cold, I need a fire
I’m feeling like a crazy live wire
Let’s find the kids in school
Let them see my real world
Trapped at all directions
I want you in my collection
It’s time to die and I’m next
They’ll remember, and what I left
On August 19, 1987, Michael Ryan embarked on a shooting rampage through his hometown, known as the Hungerford massacre. It was, at the time, the deadliest mass shooting by a single individual in British history and led to major changes in UK firearm laws.
