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*Make up – 18th August 1998

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T: with a cherry on top – I love you – truly, madly, deeply – you seen that movie? it’s pretty good.

S: Not sure – don’t think so…

T: Just finished typing in everybody’s timesheet details into a spreadsheet only i don’t know how i should set it up.
Anyway, finally remembered what i was gonna say to you after you got the milk at the corner store but forgot when you came back – i was just gonna say that when Notorious BIT (topdeq, ice-D, Futang et al) have their meeting, Sue-pergroove and hammerDogg (jeff) sit at the front because they’re the project leaders. I was just gonna say how i’d absolutely hate the project leaders actually displaying their leadership, but remembered that our project leaders do that as well (but not as obviously).

S: Power always goes to the head and initiates the search for more power and so on…

T: oh well, we’ll never make it to the top will we.

S: It depends on how you look at it. we could already be at the top (of what we want) other people just want more and go further than we have – but happiness is more important – wherever you are. Us, together, we are at the top, sweety.

T: we just have to work harder and give them all the glory.

S: Yes, this is the thing that shits us below – where we were happy the people above seek to make us unhappy to make themselves feel better – arseholes!

T: i hate project leaders as a rule. don’t become a project leader babe, cause then i’ll want a divorce.

S: There are good leaders too I’m sure. (Ok, I haven’t met one either…)

T: saw Sandie’s snow photos the other day, and all her friends. they all got on really well (except for Jackie’s friend and her boyfriend who were real tight-arse)

S: What’s the goss?

T: and are planning a summer getaway. i really want to get away with friends as well. my school friends (laura and michelle etc) wanted to go to the Hunter Valley this winter, but i guess none of us really had the time. also wanted to go to the central coast for the summer – but I forgot i might be going to Taiwan. also, everyone seems to be going their
separate ways for the summer hols

S: I think that is kinda what happens after leaving school and those close relationships kinda disperse. I hope you keep close with your friends – they are very important – I realised this myself, after losing most of my friends. I’m still kinda jealous of you you know! I wish we could go away. We have to one day all right?

T: like Thailand and stuff. actually, i’m not so sure i would want to go to Thailand anyway – not yet, cause I wouldn’t want to go with Laura and Gerard’s friends – don’t think that much of them – they’re very elitist – Laura doesn’t think much of them either. we refer to them as the ASM – Asian Supremacist Movement. ok, so it’s very immature i hear you say.

S: She must like Gerard a lot…

T: Mich rang last night. she’s going to return my Jeff Buckley video this afternoon cause i’m meeting her at markets.

S: I don’t think you ever told me about a Jeff Buckley video did you (but then you know what my memory is like)

T: only prob – i haven’t got her the rest of her b’day present yet. there’s also a free BBQ as part of union week here at the uni. so i don’t think it’ll be hard convincing the fellas doing SDD to take a lunch break (you should see the size of some of
them). Dan was saying how much Yuri likes crackling (so do i) and how Trent just eats hot dogs). anyway, it beats Bar Broadway for lunch. told Mich if she wanted Jeff Buckley dubbed, i would try. do you think you could set up your video to dub, or would that require another power socket that you don’t have?

S: Call me Chief Dubber MC Hemsley. Course I can. Just gotta find the leads and set it up.

T: had great fun with you and Hayden yesterday – he’s a real groovy babe.

S: Hey, what about me???? We both had fun with you too. Thanks for taking the time to hang out.

T: was good to see you parenting as well – that’s another side of you I haven’t seen before

S: What did you think? Am I too slack or too overbearing. I like to let him explore things and figure out for himself what is good and bad. I think it’s cool to let him run around looking at things where other folks like to keep their kids on a tight leash. Let’s face it they really can’t do much harm and it’s fun to watch them open up cupboards in Grace Brothers or pull things off shelves. Wasn’t he cute when I would say Let’s Go and he would say it too!

T: except when you father me!

S: Sorry if I was bossy with you yesterday. It’s pretty important that HJ has his routine of an afternoon sleep – you saw how tired he was.

T: are you seeing him tonight?

S: No, but I saw him asleep last night – he was cuddling Winnie the Pooh as he didn’t have pillow and snuggler. Can’t wait for him to come back.

T: send him my love.

S: I think he felt it yesterday – thanks again.

T: anyway, if you have reached the end of this email, i’m very sorry it was so long.

S: At last a long email from you…

T: i just had plenty of time to kill and nothing much to say.

S: You’re fun, you’re the best…

T: anyway, i hope this makes up for all the mails i haven’t sent and for the rest of the week.

S: Er, no it doesn’t!!

T: love to you baby, tlj

S: And to you too sweet angel

*Oh baby baby – 15th August 1998

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Hey – just dropping ya this note to cheer up yr day (if it’s bad in any way). Please accept my humble apologies at the lack of content in this note but be aware that it is sent with great love and thoughts for you.

Directions to the physio:

Walk from the station down Victoria Road. At the crossroads with Archer Street go straight across on the Chatswood Chase side. Just after the sushi bar and just before the entrance to Chatswood Chase there’s a small kind of mall. Downstairs is an Asian grocery, and up the ramp is some food and clothing shops (amongst other things). Go up the ramp and then up the escalator. the physio is around on the right. It’s only a small mall so you’ll find it easy. Love to you, angel baby. I had the best time last night and today’s tiredness is worth every second!

*My stuff – 7th August 1998

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My stuff came this morning. Oh my God, there’s loads of it I don’t know what to do with it!!! Gotta sort out space first…..you should see it all. The movers dropped one box with a mixer in – damn – hope it still works. Still made it in to work close to on time!

How are you, angel? I miss you dearly – think about you all the time. Wish to write you huge long poems about my love for you and how much you mean to me – will probably start when I’m retired (you will still be with me then won’t you? – looking after our seventeen children?). You are the best.

From me to you – all my love.

*This next morning – 10th July 1998

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T: honey, i hope you’re feeling better than you were this morning – hope your neck is feeling better, and if not, i’ll rub it for you. don’t be falling asleep in meetings and at your desk now – cause that would be rude and inconsiderate, and just plain lazy!!!!!!! sql is really hard to learn and revise, so i thought i’d take a break and email you. but this connection is very slow and i’ve already been disconnected once. so i’d better say goodbye before i get kicked off again.
love you heaps sweety. take care my english boy, love tlj

S: A little better this morning thanks. I forced myself to fall asleep on my side (but woke up on my front). Finally went to bed about 12.45. Will stay awake a long time tonight with you if you make it over – I hope so. Come rub me and my poor sore neck. Hope sql goes well today and you get everything finished the way you want to. Thanks for the mail, mail me again and tell me you love me ssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Take care my aussie oriental dream

T: yo, ‘sup? i’m using sandie’s laptop to dial in to uni and it’s working much better.

S: One day I’ll fix yr computer – or maybe Sandie doesn’t think I’m smart enough (or sexy enough – or rich enough – or English enough)

T: anyway mutha, hope the day finds you well.

S: Not bad at all my dear considering the lack of sleep

T: got bored of accounting – so went to check email. mummy’s going through this big clean up phase which is always inevitable after we’ve had something in the house fixed up. on the 4th july, josh has planned some big walk around manly (must be to the spit bridge methinks). also that day of the big end of exam party that ren told us all about.

S: Wish I could go with ya – would like to catch up with yr friends like Ren and Tom – I’m sure some of the others are cool too – is Laura going – when do I get to meet her – then she’d really have something to bitch about

T: so i’ll have to choose between the two. also mum says i can go on this cultural exchange thing to taiwan at the end of the year just before i start industrial training. i’m not sure, but may go if deb goes (she’s this old skool frien’ o mine). i don’t think sue or di or tu would be that interested.

S: You kow I’d miss you badly but what an opportunity – get going baby but bring yr booty back to me – maybe you can put me on to di and sue while yr away!

T: it’s like an asian thing – so i’m sure you’d like to go and meet all those sexy asian chicks,

S: Oh god yes – I’m creaming myself just thinking about it

T: but you’ll look out of place and i’m sure they’re only there to meet yello boys.

S: I can be yellow too (try hard Chinese too!)

T: cause you english boys just don’t cut it yo, and there’s no way you play ball or know enough about r&b to be a cool asian.

S: Yeah well fuck R&B. Asians are just in it for the hipness – they really wanna just go and pick rice and live in mud huts – not really interested in Tamagotchi and CK are they? All a big pose. Are you gonna fight me now??

T: oh yeah, and they always look 15 years younger than they really are,

S: Does that mean yr only 4?

T: and i don’t think yo r 15 fuck this shit don’t work ?no more. lost half my mesage mutha, get back to you later mutha fuckea man fuck – where’d all my writing shit go?

S: Well, such a pleasant way to end an email – thank you darling I’m sure your shit has gone down the toilet. Good luck with yr exams and HAVE A GREAT DAY. Call me maaan. Let me know how you went. I love you boogaloo

*This morning – 9th July 1998

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S: My princess, this morning, this cold morning I pulled out of the driveway and onto the road to prison, my personal prison but my day would not be clouded by these dark thoughts. In the dullish light of the day, a beautiful silver-leaved tree shone out to me and spoke in a way I hadn’t seen in a long time. It spoke the whispered words of love and light and life. Without doing anything at all the tree made my day. Within that thought was a vision of you. Thank you.

T: thank you sweety.
S: Anytime (when I get the time – that’s a song by the Descendents – ‘When I get the time, I write a little rhyme – for you’)
T: i was just thinking the other day “how come shaun never writes me any poetry any more?” i suppose it’s because the wooing is over……..hmmmm?
S: Are you wooed? The poetry isn’t over – it’s being written every day.
T: i haven’t seen anything you’ve written lately, which is a shame, cause i was hoping you’d never stop writing.
S: I promise to never stop.

T: i remember when you started writing poetry when i first got to know you. you wrote this poem because hayden
had fallen while on some play equipment and about how worried you were – you told me about it.
S: Hmm..I don’t remember that – but a lot has happened since then.

T: i’m really sorry about what you and your wife and hayden have had to go through over the past week.
S: It’s been rough but I’m really glad Bronwyn and I have been able to still be parents for HJ despite us being separate.
T: thank you so much for your support too – it has been much appreciated. i really hope your wife gets to england and hope hayden’s 200% better by then.
S: I do too – it would be excellent for them both and everyone in England.

T: it’d be great for her to catch up with everyone. it’s only a shame you can’t see your friends and show hayden
off together.
S: We’ll take him when we go shall we?
T: and you really need to see your mother – she’ll sort you out!
S: She got me into this mess in the first place!!
T: missing you,
S: Not as much as I’m missing you sweety
T: i really hope hayden gets better soon,
S: Me too
T: and that you get to england soon,
S: we..we get to England.
T: love you, tlj
S: LoveUtoo sh

ummmmmm….. – 20th June 1998

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T: BABY, I’m SORRY FOR WAKING YOU UP THIS MORNING….. try not to do it again
only you should have been working!!!!!!!!
love ya heaps, no joke, tlj

S: I’m not sorry – I’m never sorry of the opportunity to talk to you. So here I am back at work – yippee! My love is likewise – fret not sweet angel – everything happens for a reason.

*I want……… – 15th June 1998

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T: ………… a big bowl of gelato!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
smeared all over you and let me lick it off!!!!!!!
how are you sweety

S: Not bad at all thank you very much dearest!

T: what time will you be home?

S: About 6-6.30 – I have to buy some vegetables and figure out what ahm gonna cook tonight – you want dinner?

T: still got those unix tests so i can go to your place and mark unix after SM?????

S: No, you’ll have to go straight home to bed young lady….

T: what time you going home???

S: Dint you just ask me that

T: or are you working hard!!!!!

S: Working hard! Oh yeah! Kinda…. Sorta….!

T: See you in the batcave Robin
DJ Freaky Fuckhead
tlj

S: TLJ
Did you go YumCha? What do you mean you did nothing? I’m real proud of your marks in SS+N you know – one day I’ll ask you to marry me – but not if you get SMARTER than me (and don’t say you already are!)
Catch me soon I hope sweety – what’re yr plans?
Shaun

T: YOU CHEER ME UP SOO MUCH – don’t ask why i’m emailing you at this time – since i came home, i’ve had a shit time. I

T: hey, i wrote this last night when i was having a really bad time with SM. i’ll tell you about it later. anyhow, what time are you going to be home tonight? my connection to uni keeps fucking up – i had to reconnect about 5 times in half an hour last night!
anyhow, done nothing today – hope today’s been more productive for you.
catch you later, will ring, love tlj

S: TLJ
Hey gorgeous! Did u know I love u?
Shaun

T: i love you!!!!!! thank you for my most excellent prompt – only now I don’t know how people will react.

S: Does it matter! You jest tell em someone who loves you changed yr prompt!

T: love tlj
ps – i love you

S: Me too!!!

*Where you be? – 12th June 1998

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S: TLJ
I offer you my unending affection and undying love – so where you be? Why you no call? Why you no mail?
I be missing you muchly. I want to talk to you (always). Can you visit tonight? Tomorrow night, sat morn, mon pm?
How are your new sunnies?
Come wash my dishes again so I can pull yr pants down.
Thank you for your cleaning last night – I had a great time in your company. Let’s read a play.
Shaun

T: don’t you read email. i just sent you two (make that three).
tlj

S: As the Del-Emmas say – ‘Yeah-yeah’!

*Have a good sleep? – 10th June 1998

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T: hey, i’m soo tired

S: Don’t fall asleep! You can sleep at my place tonight…

T: everything is shit.

S: Everything? Hopefully not.

T: can’t wait to see you

S: Me too sweetlips

T: i’m so fuckin shitty man – how about you

S: Not too bad, pretty tired too but I got a Pentium 100 chip for nothing today – just need a motherboard now. I burnt my fingers this morning…

T: your emails will cheer me up though.

S: Why did the turtle cross the road?
To go to the Shell garage.

T: come see me!!!

S: When? Where? I’ll do anything for you!!!

T: i’m gonna miss you when you’re gone.

S: Me too, but it won’t be for long I promise.

T: love you honey!!!!!!!!

S: Love you too sweety – see you later alligator

*Edumacation – 2nd June 1998

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S: TLJ
Hey, thanks for the education last night in Dial-Up Networking and Telnet – you’re a Unix Queen! I did some more mucking around last night changing the prompt and setting up aliases. They only keep the setting for that session though. I want them as default – I know they’ll be a setting somewhere – do you know where it is – could be in the /usr/passwd file maybe. Anyway, enough of that techo talk. thanks for a wonderful night last night and I’m glad you din’t get too upset at yr thrashings at gin rummy! i was very sporting in my loss at Spit I thought.
I had a dream last night that I had a big toenail – just on the left foot.

catch ya honey. hope you’re having a great day, Shaun went all the way, with tlj!!!!!!!!!

I like this – can we do it again?
Again?
Again?
Again….
Shaun

T: alright sweety, here’s how i think you can do it. vi or pico your .cshrc file and set up aliases in there – for example, an entry could be
alias dir ‘ls-la’, or
alias exit ‘bye’ or something like that. if this doesn’t work, i don’t know what will – is this what you wanted to know?

i hope this email has been informative and helpful. now i gotta print some stuff off.

speak to you later, love tlj

S: TLJ
Another quick Q then. What is your .cshrc file? Also how do I do a list of .cshrc files from the root searching all subdirectories (so I can find where this file is stored?) Yes, what you wrote below is what I want to do
you are a legend – very informative and helpful – thank you baby
Yes, please speak to me later.
Shaun

T: the file is stored in my /student/tl** directory. it is a hidden file, thus you have to do a dir or ls-la on it as ‘-a’ shows all hidden files. does this answer part of your question? oh – you mean on your machine????? umm try ls-al anyway, and i’ll get back to you if this doesn’t work ok?
glad to be able to help in any way.
love tlj

T: sorry i mean alias bye exit as is the one in my .cshrc file.

S: Does this mean you can type bye at the command prompt and it will execute exit?

T: if you want you can pico my .cshrc file but don’t fuck with anything ok? punk…….

S: Only with you sweety – I don’t wanna pico yr files anyway – not after my telling off last night!

T: was pretty jovial this morning and wanted to jump up and down and see you

S: Ahh, wish you coulda…

T: but just feeling very sleepy now.

S: Me too….zzzzzz

T: have a great time tonight, TLJ

S: I’m debating whether to go or not….maybe find out how much it costs first…YOU have a great time tonight too – whatever you are doing
Shauny

T: YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you’re getting the hang of it – so am I actually. i thought i’d only learnt to email at uni…
tlj

S: TLJ
Decided not to go tonight – I’m too tired and should save some cash (I can watch DC instead!). I want to go next Tuesday to the Iron Duke (perhaps you can go to that one?). Hope yr having a good day and hope you get yr SM finished today.
Shaun

T: i think tonight sounds even better – aren’t all those noise bands you love so much playing??? i think you’d really have fun. anyway, i’m sorry you’re not going…….i wish i could go.
love tlj
ps – any more luck with .cshrc thing????

T: wanted to come see you, but was busy printing

S: What kind of piss-poor excuse is this???? So you’d rather be printing than coming to see me. I hope it was double-sided colour and not some cheap B+W you picked up on the corner.

T: and now it’s 1:30 and I’ve got to get home to do sm before josh comes.

S: Read that last sentence back (with a perverted mind)….I really don’t wanna think about it.

T: hope i can see you tomorrow

S: YOU BETTER

T: love ya sweety, tlj – ring ya from home (and bed)

S: You did – thank you!