Racing to the rooftops
Why is it colder closer to the sun?
All around there’s silence
As if this day had never begun
Shattered constructions bleached
Ghosts tread lightly long forgotten
Every wheel that’s turned
Cycles from beautiful to rotten
All the dragons sleeping
And here the lady forever lies
Buried high on the earth
Reaching toward the skies
That something is difficult must be a reason the more for us to do it.
Rainer Maria Rilke
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful for today’s hangover. Reminding me not to waste any more time with alcohol. I didn’t drink a lot and it just put me to sleep and not a good sleep either.
I ended up going to Makro and Big C yesterday and felt in the mood to drink some beer but I just couldn’t decide what while I was there. Everything felt like a waste of money. So I actually just picked up a couple of Snowys at 7/11 on the way home.
I’d filled up at breakfast, so just ate some snacks while drinking the two beers with whiskey chasers and started playing Fallout 4. But the alcohol knocked me about so much that I fell asleep maybe at around 4.30 pm, only waking up when Amy talked to me through the camera and I was surrounded by the cats wanting to eat. This was at 7 pm.
I staggered to the kitchen, video-chatting with Amy and felt like shit, really dizzy and tired. I sat and ate some pomelo, but went to bed about 30 minutes later. I woke up at some point in the night and struggled to get back to sleep but eventually did, with the cats and my alarm waking me after 11 and a half hours of sleep. Kim got to stay out all night and was happily chasing Cap this morning.
My morning was a write-off, and even writing this down is an effort. What a stupid waste of time! I hope to be back on form tomorrow, when I hope to be out most of the day on a long bike ride.
Amy received my flowers today at her work to celebrate our 12-year anniversary tomorrow.
