We got that attitude! – 6th May 2021

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I am so happy and grateful to talk with Jochen for an hour and a half yesterday. It was great to catch up with him – someone who knows where I’m coming from. We talked about our lives since we last met which must be more than 3 years now (?). I should call some of my other friends sometimes too.

I just looked back to last year’s entries around this time and see that I am feeling much the same way now as I was then. I should be learning something form this!?

I’m looking forward to everything – once I get my head straight!

We got that attitude! – 5th May 2021

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I am so happy and grateful that I got another two days off school. Only found out in the morning, before leaving. Felt good.

My brain and body are fried. 3 or 4 weeks of constant weed brownies and binging on TV series. It was getting me down.

When I found out a couple of days ago that school starts again today, I got over the initial shock and started to prep myself mentally. Last night, I became very anxious and restless just thinking about it – especially as we would probably be at school for a whole month before any students return – meaning we would likely end up sitting around doing nothing the whole time. My negative brain was kicking in.

So it was with some delight that a message came through this morning that our return was delayed a couple more days until Friday. Now, I’m trying to straighten my brain out a little more and psyche myself up for things.

I remind myself that I was getting lots done when I was in a routine and even if I didn’t enjoy the actual routine of working, I did enjoy all the benefits of some regularity. I’m coming back together.

We got that attitude! – 3rd May 2021

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I am so happy and grateful for the long month off work. I have been enjoyably lazy and caught up on some TV watching. It has made me realise that I enjoy having a routine of going to work and that I build other habits around it. It has also made me curious about us being able to start our own business here – I think it would be enjoyable to do a restaurant/diner on our land.