It’s all you have, there’s nothing else All you held are old dusty dreams It’s the time you are alive, this one thing The only possession that is what it seems
Every moment wasted on the dramas of others subtracts from your strength.
Today I’m feeling: Happy and carefree despite still having to organise things for my students for tomorrow’s classes. Today I’m grateful for: The rental car company and for being able to drive around Phuket at leisure and without worry. The best thing about today was: Today has been steadily great. Right now we’re in the Hilton restaurant at the beach with free-flow alcohol. Good for Amy! This morning we had delicious brunch at another beach, along with Aing, after dropping Fern and Harper at the airport. Everything went super smoothly timing-wise and Amy and I drove back by the scenic beaches route with a quick circuit of Patong just as a reminder of being there 10 years ago. The lovely hotel we stayed at that time has been abandoned since, probably due to the pandemic, but there were lots of new ones and many foreign tourists around as expected. After dropping Amy back at Pim’s I went off book shopping and picked up one book I was looking for and another three by Studs Turkel, who I’ve never heard of, but was fascinated by the name and an approval from Kurt Vonnegot on the back cover of one. Awesome, even with the heavy rain. Something I learned today? According to surveys, Chiang Rai is the drunkest province in Thailand. Not sure how this was measured and it must be pretty serious as everywhere in Thailand loves a drink. What are some of the challenges you face? My biggest challenges at the moment probably revolve around health. I need to lose a little weight again and build up some stamina but seem to be suffering a little from what may be long covid. I get breathless and exhausted easily. I have aching hips and a painful neck, weak arms with painful elbows. I should focus a little bit of extra effort on maintenance in the next few months.
I’m made of plastic I will melt in the sun I’ll poison the grounds Where clean waters run I’m made of plastic For 5 minutes convenient Thanks to the dinosaurs Providing my ingredient I’m made of plastic I’ve no use to think Formed into containers For the water that you drink I’m made of plastic Providing a life of ease I may not live forever But longer than the trees I’m made of plastic Cancer waits its turn Coming to the ground near you Or to the air to burn
Not rarely will a person suffer from neurosis that results from the situation of a sane man living in an insane society, rather than that of the more conventional neurosis of a sick man trying to adapt himself to a sick society.
Today I’m feeling: Happy and chilled Today I’m grateful for: Being able to hop on my motorbike and pay my electricity bill at the shop when my app didn’t manage to work. The best thing about today was: Closing the gate this evening. In fact, for the last few evenings, the sky has been fairly clear and the temperature perfect to just stand and admire the moon, the stars and clouds as well watching multitudes of fireflies and storms gathering on the other side of the valley with great bright yellow flashes lighting the way.
Sweaty workout with the aircon. Poor Deep Turtle poster, how much longer can it live? – the shelf isn’t straight – the torn poster is straight but torn! Kneeling to write, sweaty workout for five mins, five mins is it enough? My muscles ache so don’t push it. Remember two things today – check Aing’s grammar and… What’s the other thing – my brain is forgetting more easily. Old or painkillers – it’s okay I’m okay. My toenails annoy me for some reason, I want them as short as possible – what are they for? Remnant monkey claws. Books I want to read. Read and read, get lost in those worlds. I think the other thing I want to remember is to do that introductory lesson for English revision. Sitting now, kneeling was uncomfortable, should do at a desk but desk is cluttered. Should write quicker in cursive but even less legible than this, doesn’t matter – tomorrow cursive, see if I remember – thumbs ache – When to study Thai Drops? This task is to empty brain and meditate – maybe should do before my five-minute workout – experiment with schedule. Coffee, sudden thought of coffee at Eat and Sleep. 80.8 kg today, it’s okay but want to stay permanently under 80 kg – exercise – no beer! Books, books, books – stomach okay today – situps – let’s do some. Okay so done empty brain?! Meditate.
I am so happy and grateful to have good friends like Aing and Gus around. They are smart kids and have good outlooks on life. They were very concerned about me recently when I wasn’t feeling well and helped to support me and help me get back on my feet.