Held together with string
These bones are grey
No more gifts to bring
And just empty words to say
Thrown onto the pile
Then deleted
A last goodbye smile
Broken and defeated
Whilst wheels are turning
They often roll on clear
And all the bridges burning
No longer bring the fear
Not meant to thrive
And natural to decay
Barely kept alive
Forever felt this way
inspired by this post at Spinning Visions about the changing relationships of friendship over time.
Today I’m feeling:
A bit more lively at first but after an hour or two there’s some aching eye muscles. Again, tired but not sleepy. I have things I want to get done this morning though so I’ll push on through.
Today I’m grateful for:
Aing to come from Bangkok and take care of our cats for a couple of weeks whilst I go to Australia. Amy and I both appreciate that a lot.
The best thing about today was:
Chatting with Boss and Noey over coffee this morning.
Playing guitar for an hour again.
Dinner at Mana Mala with Aing.
All equal and taking up a majority of the day.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
Time feels like it is flying out of control at the moment and I’m wondering what I will have to drop in the future as I don’t think I can keep going like this! Just stay flexible and ride the wave wherever it takes you.
Something I learned today?
Both Noey and Boss (at Utopia) broke up with their partners recently. Boss seemed a little down today so maybe he’s still dealing with it but Noey said she was over it a couple of days after the breakup. She also says she’s not that interested in finding another boyfriend and that most boys here are too short for her!
What is my deepest hope?
Ridiculous I know but I vote for the old-fashioned world peace. I mean that is my ‘deepest’ hope.
Other hopes are for personal health, happiness and satisfaction. Likewise for my friends and family and then outwards from there to the rest of the world.
I have a minor hope that Amy will be happy back here in Thailand for a while at least.
Hope both our cats can stay healthy for another ten years.
I can control some of these things to a small degree and won’t be disappointed if something out of my control sees these hopes dashed.
Did you have any bad ideas this year?
I reckon I have bad ideas every five minutes but now I’m smart enough not to act on them.
There’s not been anything that stands out on initial thought. I also haven’t really been attempting anything unusual or challenging that I might regret.
Maybe some ideas could have been executed better; I’m thinking about the record label mostly here. As I’m a little bit out of the loop with things going on around the Asian music scene it’s getting tougher for me to know who to promote to.
As I’m writing I’m getting a crazy idea to do a 7” for my friends in Stacked State as they are just about to release a new CD. That may be a bad idea financially but it’s not about the money.
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