“Everything that needs to be said has already been said. But, since no one was listening, everything must be said again.” – Andre Gide
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Babe
Can you take me to the Moonlight Cinema one day please please pretty please! Are you on a plane now or what I wonder? It must be fairly exciting to be in HK for NYE. I bet it’s completely fuckin mad! Don’t get lost in the crush and crowds will ya! Wish I could be there with you. I bet you’ve become great friends with a few people on this trip? Can’t wait to hear all about it.
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Are you on your way to HK now? I probably won’t be doing anything on NYE. I want to stay sober too. Anyway – you may be interested to know that Iota is playing at Martin Place Amphitheatre on Monday 18th so if you’re working there you could pop down and see him! Jeez, I hope you call soon – I really would appreciate being able to talk to you. I wish I could get your number so I could call you – we would talk for ages and blow the cost. Thanks for being there for me when I need you.
My love to you
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Hey babes!
Man, it was hot last night and I was thinking about you and couldn’t get to sleep and then when I did I was dreaming about you. Have you had any dreams about me? Do you remember who I am? Anyway, after not much sleep where I am back at work -thank god! I’d have gone nuts if I’d have been home any longer. I looked at my tummy today and it’s not getting smaller! Though I do have to do my belt up an extra notch so something is happening – it’s just that it still looks a bit flabby – and I’m not too happy about that. I want to buy a mountain bike – soon I hope. I really look forward to your return and you can tell me all about your adventures – I’m sorry I won’t have much to tell in return. I hope you remember it all – did you write stuff down – I bet you didn’t.
“The hardest thing I’ll never do/is to let go of you
One day you will go free/when you say goodbye to me”
This is something that has gone around in my head. I hope it’s not prophetic.
Love ya angel kidster
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Why you sign your card from Txxxxx instead of TLJ? Are you getting serious with me? Anyway went home early yesterday cos I was dog tired – fell asleep til six-cooked, ate etc, decided not to go to Sponge House – was too tired – watched some TV, waited for you to call (you didn’t by the way!), went to bed about 12 but couldn’t sleep – read some comics til 2, fell asleep about 3 – so I’m real tired again today! Thinking about you lots sweety – I really wish I could speak to you. I want to know what fun you’re having – I want to know everything about you. My desire for you does not lessen with time away from you – it only grows. I really REALLY hope it is the same for you. I hope you remember who I am when you get back – or even now. By that I mean I hope you remember all about us. OK babes – I’m a bit down cos I’m on my lonesome this Christmas – it seems strange that you’re not here and that when you get back I will be back to normal work routine and everything – I feel like we have missed some opportunities to have fun over the holidays – I mean have fun together of course. I have some ideas for one day on a weekend after you get back. Love ya honey
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Hey honey
Was overjoyed to get a postcard from you yesterday – I didn’t get home from babysitting til after midnight but read your card over and over. Man, I miss you. You know I had a dream last night and you’d come back from Taiwan and you know in your card you said you’d been thinking about me heaps well, in the dream you said you’d been thinking about me and you’d decided that we should see MORE of each other! I wonder if that will come true (or the exact opposite). I wonder about your comment on possible matches there too – is everyone playing matchmaker – well I hope you realise you have a great match all ready and he’s waiting right here for you. Anyway sounds like you’re having a real swell time and seeing lots of cool things – oh yeah you’ll have to show me the Taiwanese chicken dance. I decided I’ll go home after work and then into the city later so hopefully if you call at the right time I’ll be around. I’ll be in all day Christmas Day and I hope you call then cos that would be the greatest gift I could ask for. And your safe return into my waiting arms of course. God, I want to smell your hair and the sweet scent of your delicate skin. I love you baby. Love you like crazy. Dream about you nightly (and then I go to sleep….)
See you soon
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I just realised I’ll be out the next three nights running so if you try and call I won’t be home! Damn! I really wanna talk to ya – really really wanna talk to ya. I miss you honey! Anyways, tonight I’m babysitting and Wed and Thurs I’m going to Sponge House – on Thurs Merzbow a big Jap noise dude is playing – down the phoneline from Japan! They have a thing on Christmas Day too at Sponge House – it’s something about the history of Chess! Lots of talks about chess! Weird! Fuck – did you try and call last night? I was hoping to talk to you. Hope you’re well and hope to hear from you soon, one way or the other.
Your ancient friend
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Oh man – I wish you would call! I miss you badly sweety – and then I realise you’ve only been gone less than two weeks! I had a bad dream on Friday night. Me and your Dad were comparing the sizes of our bellies and both saying how we should get some exercise (this wasn’t the bad part of the dream by the way!). You’d also just come back from Taiwan and were happy to see me but then didn’t want to talk about anything and you half joking, half meant it when you told me to go away. So I went away…You didn’t come talk to me until later and then you were shitty with me for going before! Anyway, this all made me feel down when I woke up and I wanted to speak to you – make sure you’re all right and everything. I hope you’re still having fun there – sure wish I could get some contact with you though – if I had yr number I’d be calling.
The gigs on the weekend were pretty cool. Gerling were good and Not From There were good too – didn’t stay til the end of their set though – I’d had a few drinks (wasn’t driving) and needed to go home and sleep. I walked all the way from Annandale to Central – stopping off to pick up a veggie kebab on the way – which was the best food I’d ever eaten considering how hungry and tired I was. By this time I’d sobered up considerably too!
Next gig was Vicious Hairy Mary at the Globe – didn’t stay for VHM but saw Testicle Candy who were fuckin awesome. Oren and Robbie from Phlegm, Lucas and two Japanese dudes. They just made a racket then ran round the back out the side through the audience and round back on stage round and round – hitting things when they got back on stage! Lucas had had a major operation on his arm a couple of days before and was in a sling and cast! The audience was pretty nonplussed! Zenryoko Onanies were great! Funny, fun punk rock n roll. Absolutely Japanese. I met an old friend called Troy too and got his number which was cool.
Hayden had a fantastic weekend with lots of toys and lots of fun! He had a bit of a temperature on Sunday but we still had fun. I had him in no nappy most of the day trying to get him to go on the potty. He did some wee in there which was cool – but left a trail of sweetcorn poo up the hall! He was quite proud of that too! Well, no rest for the wicked – back to work….Come home safely my angel – I can’t wait to hold you again.
Your pal, your friend
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Well, was a bit busy yesterday, and really there are no excuses but I failed to write you a mail so here I am!
Watched a great movie on Wed night – 6 Days 6 Nights – you have to watch it with me – it was awesome! Has Beatrice Dalle in. I’ve seen it in the video stores before but never got it out – it was on SBS so I taped it. You will love it I reckon!
Went to the city after work yesterday to do some Christmas shopping – was looking for a present for Bronwyn but I still didn’t know what to get her. I went to Market City to get some dinner – got lemon bean curd with crispy noodles – you’re supposed to have it with rice and they gave me a funny look when I asked for it with crispy noodles – like, why would you want it with that! Also had a sago dessert as usual. Was packed out for dinnertime – mostly by white people. I looked around the shops but there isn’t really that much there I reckon – I thought it was bigger.
Anyway was walking back up Pitt St and popped into Red Eye’s secondhand shop just on the off chance. Found some goddamn bargains – including a 29-track CD by Rob Crow – the singer/songwriter from Heavy Vegetable – and for 5 bucks! I walked up to the mall but couldn’t find anything suitable as a present and was getting pretty pissed off with it all. So walked back down George Street to Sponge House where Oren was playing that night. Met Oren’s girlfriend (or should I say fiance) outside with one of her friends and went for a coffee (Christain hadn’t(and didn’t) turned up).
So I asked these two ladies what I should get and they came up with a good idea of a free beauty treatment thing of some sort – like a facial etc so I was pretty pleased with that – now i just have to find somewhere that will do vouchers – and today!
Anyway, this other girl (also called Bronwyn) was a video editor so I told her about the equipment I have and may get in touch with her to come and have a look at it sometime. Went into Sponge House – you have to see it babe – it’s mad – just a little room with equipment in one corner and a bench in the other!
This girl the others there (all 9 or 10 of us) knew came and sat down and babbled on about some records she’d bought and then said she’d been around all the sex shops and around Chinatown giving out flyers. I looked a little puzzled – she said “Yeah and I’ve already got one call from some guy who wants to be tied up and walked all over – fine with me!”. I was like, right-io! She was a bit barmy but quite funny and completely unpretentious – I did wonder if she was cracking on to me for some business though.
Anyways, if you’d have come you wouldn’t have been the only Asian there – one guy and one girl – not sure if they were together or not. Anyway, the music was great – Oren on guitar and Pheebee on other things – she played in Alternahunk and is quite well known (apparently!) – and it was cool to hear the traffic on George Street just outside. I was really inspired! I will try to go back there soon.
Tomorrow night is Not From There and Gerling and Sunday is Vicious Hairy Mary, a Jap band and Testicle Candy (another band Oren is involved in). I’m sure I’m gonna run out of money before Christmas!
All right babes – I keep looking forward to hearing from you – and really looking forward to seeing you again and having a big damn cuddle!
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Wow! Was SOOOOO good to talk to you last night! I couldn’t believe it! I didn’t think you’d call – it was so nice of you. Thanks babe! You must be missing everyone very much. I’m glad you’re having a good time though. Can’t wait to see the photos. Can’t wait to see YOU! I called Christian last night and we should be meeting tomorrow night at Sponge House where Oren is playing. Also Vicious Hairy Mary on Sat and Not From There/Gerling on Sunday. Man, I think I’m gonna run out of money real soon! Wow – I’m still buzzing from talking to you – I hope to speak to you again soon babes. I’m here – waiting for ya!
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Well, it was bound to happen – I’d been sweating and waiting for a storm to come and it did. But at the wrong time! Just as I was walking from Wynyard to Pier 4. I got drenched! And I only got a couple of blocks. Pissed off and dejected I decided it would be a better idea to go home or back to work rather than turn up to this function completely soaked. However, due to the storm the trains stopped running for 45 minutes! So I was really shitty by now. I came back to work got my stuff and went to my car and drove home – only to be stuck in traffic cos the lights were out on Epping Road. By the time I got home at 6 the sun was out again! I wonder if this is indicative of how my Christmas will be!
I was thinking last night when I might get a card or mail or email from you. I really wish I knew what you were doing and we could chat everyday as usual and keep each other updated on all our news – I’m sure you’ll forget a lot of exciting things by the time you get back.
I hate Christmas shopping. I’ve been looking for something for Bronwyn and I just don’t know what to get her. The other thing that’s getting me shitty is I don’t have any cash til Thursday – so I’ll have to shop on Thursday, wrap on Friday and deliver on Saturday! Saturday pm we are having our Christmas with HJ. I hope I have enough money to get HJ some more bits and pieces too.
All right baby angel cakes. Hope you’re not missing me too much and are having a great time. See you in three weeks or so!
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