I am so happy and grateful for the books I read and the things I can study and learn about.
Apparently, I’m not content to be happy.
Tim Krieder, We Learn Nothing
“Everything that needs to be said has already been said. But, since no one was listening, everything must be said again.” – Andre Gide
I am so happy and grateful for the books I read and the things I can study and learn about.
Apparently, I’m not content to be happy.
Tim Krieder, We Learn Nothing
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful that I grew up at the time that I did. Grateful for Punk and alternative comedy. Stewart Lee is a wonderful human being.
2nd Jun 2022 – I always was annoyed that I was just a little too young for the first wave of punk but in the end, it was probably better because many folks from, and inspired by, the first wave ended up leaving it all behind or kind of disowning it. From the second wave, post-punk, UK82, hardcore, anarcho-punk etc the DIY aesthetic became ingrained and influenced every part of life.
I suppose we all rationalise our formative years in one way or another.
Everything you learn turns out to be connected to a hundred other things.
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Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful for my computer. It enables me to do so many things. I wonder if I could live without it? Of course, I could but I don’t think I want to.
To-do list
Today is Tuesday. I haven’t been writing in here because I have gotten myself absorbed in some good TV and by the time I come to bed it’s too late to turn on the light and write.
I feel like things are coming together more in my room – nearly got all the CDs in their cases – after more than two years! Now I’m trying to get rid of the CDRs and thinking about all the DVDs I have and what to do with them.
I’m hoping to keep up with all the backlog of 1994ever and other bits and pieces of writing. It’s been enjoyable to go through all those, thinking about the past. It still feels like it happened to someone else. Even brief glimpses of mundane things pop into my head and it makes me think about what times and events that I’m part of now will pop into my mind in the future.
Life feels quite mundane and predictable though I also feel quite happy and content.
I am so happy and grateful for remote controls. I remember the times of having to get up and turn the knob on the TV to change the channel.
A man who follows his wishes changes his attitude with time. Very soon he is not satisfied any more with the things he does.
from Tolstoy’s Calendar of Wisdome
I am so happy and grateful to be able to idly stare out of my living room window and see the jungle mountains in the distance. It’s peaceful.
The underlying fantasy of love is that by getting close to this person, you can become a little like they are. They can help you grow to your full potential.
The School of Life
I am so happy and grateful that my hair hasn’t completely disappeared off my head yet! I can just about look like I have a full head of hair. I am grateful that I can cheaply dye my hair too so I don’t look like the old man I feel.
If beautiful art does not express moral ideas, ideas which unite people, then it is not art, but only entertainment. People need to be entertained in order to distance themselves from disappointment in their lives.
Immanuel Kant
To-do list
Friday (as of writing). Wednesday and today I didn’t bother to go to my room but on Thursday I got a bunch of things done.
I heard from TLC that I need to go to school on May 7th to work out how we are going to teach online. I’m guessing I will have to make a few adjustments to my plans, so I’m not too worried about writing more plans at the moment.
Amy and I went for a long bike ride again yesterday. I really enjoy just riding around and seeing how the land changes over time.
“A hundred billion people who came before us, over ten thousand generations and everything they did for us, to build up our world…if we were to go extinct, through our own actions, or lack of doing anything about it, we would be the worst of those ten thousand generations.”
Tony Ord from the Ezra Klien podcast
I’ve gotten into the habit of listening to podcasts before I go to sleep (after reading comics and books before I go to sleep….it seems like I just don’t want to sleep!). The quote above, right from the very beginning of the podcast, shook me awake.
The podcast goes on to talk about real existential threats to our world and when I say our world, I really only mean the human world. Outside threats such as asteroids are very unlikely to be the cause. Internal threats such as nuclear war and pandemics are the most likely. Humans are the pox on this earth but we can redeem ourselves.
Each morning I receive an email with a quote and a writing prompt and I attempt to put down a few words of thought. The prompts are sometimes too thought-provoking, requiring too much time for me to consider (though consider them I should). This morning I got this:
Don’t go on discussing what a good person should be. Just be one.
Marcus Aurelius
Prompt
You are but one animal among trillions. Let the trivial fall away. Focus on the important.
My response:
I was thinking about this yesterday after a collection of different and varying inputs – watching a documentary about prostitutes struggling with drugs and taking care of a pet, watching cat videos, listening to podcasts about human extinction and reading Sufi tales with talking animals.
Why do humans think they are more important than other animals?
We will destroy ourselves. So, focus on the important? Decide what is important.
And, in the face of everything, this is a big question. If nuclear wars and pandemics are the most likely causes of the end of human existence – this feels like it must be important then.
Some will shrug their shoulders and give up, often promoting their view as a good thing. Others will sincerely do their best to encourage action from everyone and anyone. The worst will be those taking advantage of the situation to enrich their own lives.
I’m still thinking about and searching for the answer.
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful for a big rain. No need to water our garden today!
To-do list
Fairly well motivated today – could still spend less time watching TV and get out to my room before lunchtime but that’s OK. Not really much of anything else to report today.
Oh, last night it rained (after a big storm in the afternoon) and Amy woke me up (out of a wonderful sleep) at about 2am because our power was off. I realised that it was probably because the connectore box outside was exposed and water got on the electricity cables. I covered it as best I could, stood there in my underpants, ants crawling for cover too.
We turned the power back on and it stayed and I fell back into bed. So, this afternoon I savoured a snooze in front of the TV listened to a talk about Ram Dass.
I am so happy and grateful for the small rain we had last night. Not enough to help our plants but enough to bring a cooler day today.
The right words help us to know ourselves.
The School of Life
I am so happy and grateful for our beautiful long grass on our driveway. It’s very beautiful and makes me feel at home.
The life which we received was given to us not that we might just admire it, but that we should ever look for new truth hidden from us.
John Milton
To-do list
I didn’t get to write last night as I was savouring watching The Night Of and wanted to finish it.
Anyway, over these two days, I did the 3 challenges and I’m slowly preparing myself for more. No real insights or deep thoughts – just soldiering on. I did do an entry for the Stoa Journal about what you would think if yesterday was the last day of your life – that was quite thought-provoking. I find doing the entries quite challenging and would to contemplate them more deeply. Maybe I will if I blog them sometime in the future.
I’m feeling like I’m more committed to completing the 1994ever writings and hoping to keep up with coinciding with the dates this year.
High in the North in a land called Svithjod there is a mountain. It is a hundred miles long and a hundred miles high and once every thousand years a little bird comes to this mountain to sharpen its beak. When the mountain has thus been worn away a single day of eternity will have passed
Hendrik Willem Van Loon, The Story of Mankind
That little bird is our lives. Dwarfed by the magnificence of time.
We are small and insignificant. Not individual, not a group, nor a race. Not a society, a species or a thought from God. We are nothing.
The dinosaurs, the mammoths, the pharaohs, the sultans and kings, the inventors, the thinkers and philosophers, the builders, the masters and slaves, the writers, the historians, the celebrities, the murderers, the saints and the despots. You and me. Nothing.
What will you do with this information?
Our floating houses on molten granite
‘Slowly Melting’ by Nomeansno
Our liquid planet, it is a home for us all
I’m firmly planted, my earth is solid
I feel a presence but there is nothing at all
I wanted something, down here is something
It’s really something but there is nothing at all
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Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful for the space we have in our house and garden. We can move furniture around and reinvent ourselves, change our views.
To-do list
Almost didn’t make it out to my room but somehow managed to motivate myself. I am slowly completing things, whether it is sorting out bits and pieces from my past, things I’d intended to do for a long time, reading books, watching movies and TV series, sorting out my CDs etc. So at least I have a sense of achievement.
I’m reminded of when I was about 10 or 11 years old and used to ‘race’ my Matchbox car collection and keep tables of which was fastest and kept all sorts of statistics about them. I was already organising my mind, putting things in order, sleeping everything straight.
I can pinpoint other instances of this at various times during my youth actually. Looking through old diaries has triggered some deep recollections which is interesting. I’m testing myself to see what else is hidden away in there.