No eagle, no lion, no predator
The playground of hope is dark
Clinging tightly to a rape whistle
At night to cross the park
From the last to the lowest
A place at the table is set
Fighting for a share of pie
When crumbs are all you’ll get
If the line is ever crossed
To rise beyond the station allowed
Conspirators will come to cut
The tall poppies from the crowd
How may a little girl push the boulder
Up the hill each day
Without joining together to make
Lighter work and play?
Bitter words spat out designed
To keep the weakest divided
Too late to change the rules of the game
With a winner already decided
Today I’m feeling:
Pretty positive. Winding down my brain a little bit as the term ends. I could feel the exercise this morning getting easier and happy to see the body changes going on. When I try to convince some of my students to get some exercise I’m sympathetic to their feeling of lethargy and apathy as I was exactly the same but now I think more about how much better I might have felt in my formative years if I had kept up some proper exercise or even sport.
Today I’m grateful for:
The distortion and overdrive pedal board I have that make it fun to try and play along to noise rock bands. It gets so noisy I can’t tell how badly I’m playing!
The best thing about today was:
My grade 8 class knuckling down and helping each other to complete a task that many of them weren’t prepared for. If they had their books with them and had done all I asked each week then they could easily answer all the questions. I knew many who always forget their books or write on pieces of paper that they lose.
Once those kids realised they were screwed they recruited their friends to help but then those kids were busy trying to complete the work.
The idea is for the kids to remember to bring their book every time and that will help them. Did it work? A little, perhaps.
The smart ones understood and they were free to go when they were done which put the pressure on the others. I enjoyed watching them and helping them when they needed it. For me, at least the class went well.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
Everything felt like it was in control today. Not necessarily in my control but nothing really got derailed.
Something I learned today?
Russell Brand has been accused of sexual assault. Whether the accusations are true or not, it is interesting that this is happening now, some 15-20 years after the events, now he is straight, sober, rolling in money and challenging dominant media narratives.
He admits to many bad behaviours in his past and some of the accusations are disturbing and he should at least be held accountable for anything proven.
The investigation into these accusations was done by journalists. Why not by the police?
If I could change anything from my past, what would it be?
With the benefit of hindsight, I want to answer that there’s nothing. In reality, I often answer this question with ‘I wish I had gained wisdom faster and listened to what I was being told instead of being so pig-headed.’
But perhaps if I want to get specific, and again this is with the benefit of hindsight, I would change my drinking habit and despite having many great drunken times, wish I hadn’t used it as a crutch and exacerbated my depression.
When people told me exercise was good for depression I could only exercise my drinking arm. It was impossible to motivate myself through my constant stupor. I’m careful not to tell others so bluntly that they should exercise but just say to go for a walk if you can or start very slowly and not all out to burnout in a week.
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