Hot, So Hot and Wet – 30th April 2024

Once loving to hug and hold
Long ago days of rain and cold
But now, if the truth be told
The winters burn hot

In a switch, the summer scorch
Sees retreat from the porch
From the airconned room reports
Let’s siesta until twilight

Finally, the storms arrive
Life returns to bloom and thrive
Another year we survive
Thanks to the monsoon

Submitted to Ovi Poetry Challenge 45 – season


Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good again.  Got up and exercised and am now out for coffee.

A couple of days ago when I was moving the tree I got bitten by an ant on the inside of my little finger and now it is distractingly itchy.  Because of the location it’s not easy to get a nice satisfying scratch on it and it’s super annoying.

Today I’m grateful for:

Art lending me a backpack that I can use on Sunday to go to Bangkok.  I also found out that Monday is a national holiday so I don’t have to worry about not being back in time to start work!

Also, a sneaky little doze whilst listening to video discussions on YouTube whilst Amy did the watering and washed the car!

The best thing about today was:

Watching more of Three Body.  I’m loving the slow pace of it.  It seems each April holiday is marked by watching some TV series or other whilst avoiding the heat.  A couple of years back it was Narcos.

I think last year though I ended up playing Xbox more than watching TV and I actually had planned to do that this year but in the end just didn’t bother.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

I was on a roll and in the zone whilst sipping coffee this morning, first reading, then inspired, then writing.  But I started to feel a little dizzy and knew I needed to come home and eat.  Otherwise, I would have loved to have stayed longer and written more.

Tomorrow I won’t have so much free time as we will be running around most of the day doing things for Grandmum’s 100-day ritual.

Something I learned today?

Israel’s prime minister Netanyahu is likely to have an arrest warrant for war crimes issued by the International Criminal Court.  Whilst it is likely just a symbolic gesture and he would unlikely ever be arrested at least it shows the world stands against him.

Russian president Putin also has an arrest warrant issued by the ICC but that was instigated by USA propaganda and that is all falling apart.

The world is starting to rise against the genocide perpetuated by Israel on the Palestinians and supported by the USA war machine.

Also, last night I watched a video from Thai Talk with Paddy and he was presenting 12 things that he didn’t like about Thailand.  Whilst many other farangs agreed with some or all of his points there were others that I couldn’t believe just how self-righteous they were.

I don’t understand how you can say someone’s opinion is wrong.  You don’t have to agree but you must be smart enough to at least counter their opinion.  These days people don’t bother to do that just believing that they are right.

I don’t know why this particular video and comments stood out to me, maybe it’s been accumulating for a while.  I will cut out this view of negativity as much as I can because it is just a waste of time and energy.

Review your acts, and then for vile deeds chide yourself, for good be glad. — Discourses 3.10

Noey and Natalie were in Utopia whilst I was there this morning and they were preparing for a presentation.  I wished them luck.

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

I did as much of the exercises as I could this morning though I am weak in certain (most) areas.  3 sets of 60 lunges had to be cut down to 3 sets of 40 and 3 by one minute of static Superman I just held for as long as I could.  But I didn’t skip or give up.

I took this picture because I’m hoping this tree can survive the move from pot to ground.

Innocent Times – 29th April 2024

Dreams inspire as the sun descends
Holding hands in innocent times
Where we’re going all depends
On things decided in our primes

Memories inspire as winter ends
When once we had innocent lives
One by one we murdered our friends
And never caught for our crimes

Submitted to No Theme Thursday picture prompt and NaPoMo
24th Nov 2024 – Shared with Word of the Day Challenge – crime


Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good so far.  Setting my alarm for 15 minutes earlier each morning in preparation for my return to work next week.  I have a slight twinge in my left lower back from too much sitting around for the last couple of days and probably aggravated by the tree moving yesterday.  I got back to exercising today too.

Today I’m grateful for:

Our pumpkin!  The pumpkin that both Amy and I took care of to try and get it to a size and maturity that was edible, ended up in our spaghetti dish for lunch and it was great.  Well done everyone!

The best thing about today was:

Cleaning out my inbox.  It accumulates quickly and I don’t get a chance to follow up everything as I would like.  I will need to get on top of this when I start working again next week.  Get my priorities sorted again.

I’ve already started clearing out my YouTube Watch Later list by either watching in full or watching a little and deciding it’s not that important.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

I decided to sort out a hotel room for myself for this coming Sunday in Bangkok.  Nampan sent me a link to one near the venue and through Google Maps it linked to an Agoda booking where it said the cost was just 419 baht.  Nice.  It also said that if I downloaded the Agoda app I would get a 10% discount, so I did.

However, once downloading and going through the same process the total became something like 600 baht!  So I went back to the original Agoda page and went to the checkout and the actual total was about 550 baht in the end!

Well, it’s still cheap enough.  Never trust the price of anything you see online.  Everything is a subtle scam.

Something I learned today?

When I got home from Utopia at around lunchtime (I was there so long cleaning out my inbox) I was happy to find that Amy had ironed all my shirts!  I gave her a big kiss but it was already too hot to hug for long.

Review your acts, and then for vile deeds chide yourself, for good be glad. — Discourses 3.10

Baipad messaged me after a few days of quiet and she mentioned that she was expecting a delivery to her house in the next couple of days but is still stuck out at her grandma’s.

I suggested that she contact a neighbour or her friend Butter to pay and collect it if and when they call, or failing that she could call me and I could sort it out for her.

I’m starting to see that she has not been raised, or pursued herself, with a mind to think about how to get things done.  Perhaps she’s spoiled a bit and I think the issue between her and her mum is that her mum doesn’t see any maturity in Baipad’s behaviour and actions at home, so she continues to treat her as a child that needs taking care of.

I suggested that she show her mum who she is and what she wants in her life and her mum might start treating her differently.

It reminded me of the time I asked Hayden who he was and how much he struggled with that question.  Many of us do.

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

A couple of days ago I watched a video about a tongue exercise and I’ve been trying to do it once or twice a day.  It’s simply rubbing your tongue between your teeth and lips/cheek in a circular motion, first one way and then the other, 25 times.

It sounds easy, and it’s not really difficult but I soon started to notice how useless my muscles involved in this exercise are, particularly my neck.

I will keep practising and hope that it helps a little with my neck problems.

I took this picture because Tigger was chilling on the terrace in the late afternoon, perhaps waiting for a storm that never came.

Who Will Believe In Me? – 28th April 2024

Since the times of wild Gods
Searching across the cities
In need of a believer
Not influenced by pities

Acts of the ordinary
Songs of appreciation
Is your concern real
Or needing validation?

Each note truly matters
A genuine harmony
Watching for a moment
Or care for eternity

Submitted to Writer’s Workshop Prompts – genuine, NaPoMo and inspired by the Red Hand Files #279


Today I’m feeling:

Tired and a little dizzy. For some reason last night, I couldn’t get to sleep until about 5 am, not just usual tossing and turning but first with a headache and then a feeling of being wide awake. It was annoying and my thoughts were generally dull and nostalgic. I’m totally out of whack today but forced myself up at 9 though skipped exercise.

Today I’m grateful for:

Having a month off work and not having to spend much money on petrol meant that I had enough money left to be able to buy more cat food today.

The best thing about today was:

Getting into the garden at 6 pm and replanting the little tree that was in a pot but whose roots meant that it kept getting blown over.  I don’t know if it will make it where I’ve planted it but at least it standing upright again.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Definitely my sleep. It’s pretty unusual for me to not be able to fall asleep easily these days and I also need to get back into my working-week sleep pattern again soon.

Something I learned today?

It’s near the end of the League Championship football season and Ipswich are in third place with two games to play.  Leicester are in first place, also with two games left and Leeds are second with only one game to play.

Any of these three could finish first but I just want Ipswich to get promoted to the Premier League.  I doubt that they will fair well there but if they can hang around for a few years that would be good.

I’m still surprised that Bournemouth is in the EPL and Southampton in the Championship.

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

Not napping in the afternoon was a bit of a challenge but I managed it and fingers crossed I can sleep ok tonight.  As the day has gone on I have felt an improvement in my mood which is a good sign.

Little Art took this picture of Piti, which I’m spoiling.

On The Menu – 27th April 2024

Making happy when choosing
Easier said than done!
No kilograms losing
Until breakfast is gone

Mindful of lunch already
Even started snacking
Nervous and unsteady
Usual vitamins lacking

More dinners and dessert
Every dish a discovery
No longer feeling alert
Undergoing recovery

Shared with Weekly Prompts Wednesday Challenge – Menu and NaPoMo
16th Nov 2024 – Shared with Ragtag Daily Prompt – discovery


Today I’m feeling:

A bit weird after forcing myself out of bed at 8 am.  I kinda expected to get things done today but after coffee I ended up vegging on the sofa and wrote off the day.  

I think I felt like I had achieved my aim for the day by getting up that I didn’t bother with anything else.

Today I’m grateful for:

Amy coming up with the idea to go for a bike ride at around 5 pm.  It was good to get up and out.

The best thing about today was:

That bike ride was good but probably the best thing was tucking into coconut ice cream a couple of times.

Something I learned today?

In one day US cops arrested more protesters (protesting their country’s involvement in the genocide of Palestinians in Gaza) than China has in a year or even longer.  And that is with China having at least 500 protests around the country every day.  Different ways of dealing with things….

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

Getting up early was a little challenging considering my holiday-mode but I gotta start preparing myself for getting up at 6 am again.  Not much else has been difficult today hence no entries for good/bad deeds or things out of control.

I took this picture as we said goodbye to the sun until tomorrow.

Micro Misunderstanding – 26th April 2024

It’s an undisputed fact that we all consume and breathe lots of microplastics, and we have done for our whole lives. The average person probably takes in 100,000 particles of microplastic annually.

Microplastics are suspected of being dangerous in just about every way you can imagine, damaging our internal organs, poisoning us with leached chemicals, breaking down our cell walls, and causing countless diseases. A vast body of research has been published investigating these concerns.

There’s still no evidence that any of these happen. More data is always needed. More study. More investigation. And when there is evidence of microplastic interaction with living tissue — which there is, certain plastics can and do have detectable biological effects, there’s so far never been any evidence that it’s harmful.

Will you go without?
Though it makes no difference
To save the planet

Paragraph text, quoted/paraphrased from Brian Dunning’s Skeptoid article on microplastics.
Submitted to dVerse for Earth Day Haibun and NaPoMo


Today I’m feeling:

Late start again after very good sleep. Aided by canna oil. Exercised, which sucked and was good too.

Today I’m grateful for:

Noey sending me a message at 11.30 am wondering where I was!  It’s nice to feel missed sometimes, even if it is just by the baristas in your favourite coffee shop!

The best thing about today was:

Another storm blowing in this afternoon whilst I was in my room.  

Two days in a row now, I got to hear the big splats of rain falling on the tin roof above the ceiling and to hear the wind banging all sorts of things around just outside.  

Strangely, it hasn’t rained in the city at all whilst we’ve been lucky enough to not need to water these two days.

Something I learned today?

From a report issued by the US-based International Covenant on Civil and Political Rights:

“The breadth of the U.S. violations of the ICCPR is overwhelming. The committee found breaches of the treaty in nearly every aspect of life in the United States. We (the United States) should heed the committee’s recommendations and demand that our federal, state and local governments in the U.S. comply with our human rights obligations.”

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

In general, my exercise wasn’t too bad today, except for 3 by one-and-a-half minutes of bicycle kicks.  I could do thirty, take a break and then do 15 more but that was it.  I’m happy to adapt the exercises to my skill and strength level so that I don’t give up but can keep going.

How do I handle disagreements or conflicts?

Disagreements I am generally ok with, but when it comes to conflict I don’t deal very well.  I’d rather walk along and forget about it.

I’ve never really cared what other people think but in the past would try to argue my point.  These days I don’t feel the need.  People believe the things that they want to.

I’m open to a lot of different ideas but still obviously have my own beliefs about things.  Entering into conflict over these things seems a waste of time.  Most people don’t want to listen to something that they don’t believe. And for many things that applies to me too.

When was the last time I felt exceptionally strong or brave?

I’ve been looking at this one for a few days already and can’t think of anything.  Perhaps others looking from the outside might have considered some of my actions at one time or another as strong or brave but to me, they were just normal.

Even so, there’s no standout moment of bravery rescuing someone drowning or pulling people out of a car crash.  Nothing so exciting.

What’s an aspect of my culture that I love?

This is a weird one to answer because just what is my culture?  I carry traits from growing up in England, from the middle of my life in Australia and now with some influence from six years in Thailand.

Culture can be great when you are young, something to bond and identify with, but the more you experience and can take the opportunity to travel you begin to see that beyond culture we are all basically the same.

Is culture manipulated by us ourselves to keep us divided?

The aspects of my cultures that I love are that they have given me grit, taught me when to run and when to walk and taught me acceptance.  And when I write that all down I realise that my mum taught me all that.  Mums are culture.

I took this picture because when I arrived at Utopia, Noey told me that she had just sent me a message. I sat down and read it. It said “Where is Shaun?” and so I replied with this photo.

Shadow’s Whisper – 25th April 2024

Take my hand, I’ll walk you home
Stay with me forever
The sun don’t shine when all alone
Let’s do this together

I’ll still be there in your dark days
Whispering inspiration
Don’t listen to what the devil says
Despite his adulation

Along the way, through thick and thin
Even with bridges burning
Because even if we don’t win
At least we are still learning

Submitted to WDYS #235


Today I’m feeling:

Lazy to get up despite kinda waking up at around 7 am when I could’ve got myself going but instead dozed until around 10 am. My body is aching in a good way.

Today I’m grateful for:

An afternoon storm today!  Hooray!  It was a bit of a surprise.  

Unfortunately, it also highlighted that the builders that came to fix our gutters in the garage have actually made it worse than before. Sigh.  

It seems impossible to get anyone to do a ‘proper’ job of anything here sometimes.

The best thing about today was:

Amy being out in the evening with Paew leaving me happily at home with the cats, Youtube and comics for company.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

After getting up late and knowing Amy was going out I decided I would only have a light lunch and then get my favourite fish dish in the walking market in the evening.  I also figured I might buy another hash brownie to relax even further.  

Anticipating this had my mouth watering but sadly the fish stall wasn’t in the market today and the shop that usually sells the brownies was closed!  

Never mind.  There’s lots of time to enjoy everything.

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

I spent the last ten minutes before getting up this morning contemplating whether to skip exercise this morning as even laying in bed my thighs were still aching from working out two days ago. 

But I forced myself and even though the app keeps giving me push-ups to do I just figured to replace some of them with arm curls instead. I did some knee push-ups though. Maybe one day I’ll be comfortable doing push-ups. 

Maybe. One day.

I took this picture because this is what our new gutter is like and it’s only now I see that it is so shallow that in big rains here it’s going to force water into the roof. I don’t get why they’ve done it like this. It’s just fucking stupid.

Endless Teapot – 24th April 2024

The bright lights of obscurity
Are following me around
But I’m the one doing it
You’re nowhere to be found

The purpose or the point
Discovered in the doing
And when one thing is done
There’s always more brewing

Submitted to NaPoMo


Today I’m feeling:

Lazy to get up but I’m enjoying the ache in my body from exercise. I’m already reminiscing about the lost time of this holiday despite actually being more productive than last year. I’ve got into the groove of taking it easy and am now feeling anxious about getting busy again in the next couple of weeks. Though I know well that I can deal with it easily enough.

Today I’m grateful for:

A brief small storm at around 7pm that whilst not hanging around for long meant a drop in temperature that even allowed us to turn the aircon off for a while!

The best thing about today was:

Tigger coming for cuddles about 7 or 8 times.  He’s getting more affectionate with his age.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

I didn’t get a chance to read more of my book today as I ended up busy with other things.  I did get some comic reading in and a chapter from another book that I delve into every now and then.

Something I learned today?

A US senator was complaining that a bag of steel brackets needed for weaponry was costing 90,000 dollars.  A Chinese seller responded offering to sell the same thing for 8 dollars!  And the reality is that US Defence spending from Chinese sources has quadrupled over the last few years.  So the US military is becoming dependent on parts for war with China that are….made in China!

Review your acts, and then for vile deeds chide yourself, for good be glad. — Discourses 3.10

I sent Anchan a little more money so that she can get back to Chiang Rai as she is stuck in a village outside Chiang Mai at the moment.

I helped Amy moving around some furniture on the terrace as she wanted to change it up.  It looks good and change is good.

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

Despite the last two days of not enjoying playing guitar I picked it up again for about 20 minutes and was a little happier with my ability.

What are my thoughts on growing older?

In the last couple of years, I’ve enjoyed the wisdom that age has brought me but recently, with the feeling of time disappearing too quickly, I’m pining for the days of boredom I used to endure as a teenager.

Too much knowledge is a dangerous thing? I know it’s just the way of looking at it. Perhaps I am bored now but don’t really know it?

It can’t be helped to wonder about being able to live your life over again but now I have to take a positive attitude with me with what remains.

I took this picture yesterday and along with other garden pictures sent them to Sharon and Rob.

A Contender – 23rd April 2024

Breathing life into existence

To many, a home and hearth
How can I put up resistance

Grounded here in the earth?



I hold the rings of truth
Seen the men come and go
One hundred years of youth
And still with more to grow

Taking me in my prime
I could’ve been a contender
Spread wide this shade of mine
In a canopy of splendour

Chop away at my base

Until heard the split and crack

A pole to be in another place

I guess I’m coming back

Submitted to NaPoMo


Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good again though getting up was a struggle but I did it and made it to my room to exercise. Hopefully, the positive effects of that become apparent to my brain today, or I may just nap!

Today I’m grateful for:

The Mad Muscles app that I downloaded but cancelled because it really isn’t much better than the free app I use.  

As I had paid for a month though, I will keep using it and take that as motivation.  I’ve adapted the exercises to allow for my weaknesses and sore bits too.

The best thing about today was:

Watering the garden in the late afternoon.  The ground is so dry that it’s difficult to even see how just a little bit of water from our hose can make any difference to the bigger trees.

The many mangoes that budded are starting to suffer and shrivel up so I want to try and give that tree more attention. I’m jealous of a couple of small mango trees I saw last week that had loads of healthy fruit.  I want that too!

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

I sent a couple of tapes to a customer in Australia a couple of weeks back.  They contacted me today saying that they’d received the package but that it was open and empty.

As I had run out of tapes with that order, I asked the bands in Bangkok if they still had copies and asked them to send a replacement which I’m grateful for them doing immediately.  I transferred the cost straight away too.  Sorted.

I had another order to send to the USA and included a second tape as a freebie.  I took it to the post office expecting it to cost about 250 baht ($10AUD) but it was 463 baht!  It’s doubtful I’ll be able to sell much online anymore with shipping prices too expensive now.

Also, I guess what I wrote below applies here too.

Something I learned today?

Sadly, Anchan found out today that her mum will be in prison in six months.

Earlier in the afternoon she asked me to send her some money because she was desperate to contact her mum.  She said she needed 300 baht, along with 200 baht that she had, to be able to talk to her.  I didn’t question this but can imagine it being some kind of backhander needed to make the call.  If she had another use for the money then let it be.

Anchan is pretty sad about the whole situation and it isn’t one that a 14-year-old should be in.

Despite all that, earlier in the day she wanted to contact her program leader at school to make plans to welcome the new grade 7 students at the beginning of the semester.  I put them in contact.

Review your acts, and then for vile deeds chide yourself, for good be glad. — Discourses 3.10

Helping Anchan (see above).

Running Amy around in the stinking heat to get her food.  First to the bingsu shop which was closed (we ended up at a different, disappointing dessert shop).  Then later to get her noodles for dinner.

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

I can probably write this every day that I exercise but there was a point this morning where I wanted to give up. I made it through.

I got frustrated with guitar again today.  I did keep going for a little bit longer but not too much.  Never mind.  I did ten minutes I guess.  A little bit every day.

I took this picture because I wanted some photos from around the house to send to Sharon and also Rob.  The frangipani trees seem to revel in the dry heat.

Burning Man – 22nd April 2024

Some things are indefensible
We all make mistakes
The idea is to learn and grow
No matter what it takes

When genocide repeats itself
What was the fight for?
When the persecuted rain down
Their own hypocritical war

When destruction becomes immoral
What must a soldier do?
Take a big bite of courage
To get the message through

Propaganda no longer hides
The truth of all this killing
To turn a buck for a belief
In a society no longer willing


Today I’m feeling:

Good, after forcing myself up and to exercise. I really wanted to sleep more so I’m happy with myself and my motivation.

Today I’m grateful for:

The local hospital and Dr Poom, my medicine dispenser.  I was able to get straight in today with barely 5 minutes wait, despite it being very busy.  I also asked about information for my students who are struggling and what to recommend them if and when they go to the hospital.

It occurred to me today that after Baipad tried to overdose on paracetamol all the hospital were concerned about was her kidney health.  It seems like maybe no one even asked her why she did it!

Anyway, the info from Dr Poom was useful as they have a child psychiatrist there and psychotherapists too.

The best thing about today was:

My energy levels being great for most of the day due to that morning exercise.  I felt energetic and inspired through all of the day and though I wasn’t doing much strenuous work since the morning I just kept going from one thing to another.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

As mentioned a couple of weeks ago there has been a change to access the full replay of the AFL matches online and whilst I was able to access it with a VPN last time, today it didn’t work and I was getting wound up by it while trying to figure out a way around it.  Eventually I just had to resign myself to watching the 15 minute mini-match highlights.  Disappointing but all I can do is shout at the clouds.

Something I learned today?

I learned that it is costing the USA 200 million dollars an hour to keep the genocide rolling in Palestine.  Or as the USA likes to call it, defending Israel.

Review your acts, and then for vile deeds chide yourself, for good be glad. — Discourses 3.10

I sent pep messages to Anchan and Baipad this morning.  I also chatted a little with my other students, Freya, Winter and Wipping.

I beeped at the annoying BMW in front of me that failed to move at the traffic lights, meaning that we all missed it and couldn’t go anywhere.  I was frustrated for a minute.

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

I picked up the guitar again today and it sucked!  But I persevered even whilst continuing to suck.  I need to change the strings too.  They sound dull – much like my playing!  Never mind.  I won’t be deterred.

I took this picture because this was the view from our dinner table on Saturday, looking over the Mae Khong to Laos.

Overflow – 21st April 2024

I’m pouring rainbows down on you
Until your cup is filled
You’ll overflow with a love so true
It can never be killed
All your seeds will bear fruit
In fields never to be tilled
Joy spread deep from the root
A life spent fulfilled

Submitted to No Theme Thursday picture prompt, Weekly Prompts Weekend Challenge – Flow and NaPoMo.


Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good after a long sleep from the day of travelling yesterday. Should be a relaxing day ahead.

Today I’m grateful for:

Aircon.  I don’t know how many times I’ve said this but today was freaking unbearable outside between 10am (when I woke up) and around 6pm.  Even just going to the kitchen or bathroom was a chore. It’s going to be hotter this coming week too!

The best thing about today was:

I didn’t do much to speak of today though when the sun did finally relent I enjoyed watering the parched earth in the garden.

Something I learned today?

Charles Cunningham Boycott (12 March 1832 – 19 June 1897) was an English land agent whose ostracism by his local community in Ireland gave the English language the term boycott.

Review your acts, and then for vile deeds chide yourself, for good be glad. — Discourses 3.10

I gave Art and Noey some gifts of candy that I picked up at the market in Chiang Saen yesterday.

What’s a recent realization I’ve had about myself?

I’m starting to BE old.  I’m not in need of thrills or excitement so much these days.

I think I realised this when I think about travelling overseas. When I think about going somewhere with Amy I’m not so interested in planning things to do and where to go. 

When I see people in places on YouTube videos I think that might be nice to go and see but I’ve just seen it pretty well. I would be taking the same photos every other traveller has taken. I feel like I may not be able to savour it deep into my soul like I might have done before. I’m much more amenable to just getting on a tour bus and letting others deal with logistics.

Having said that I’m still interested in organising a tour for a band around Southeast Asia and dealing with the stress of that, perhaps because the shows would give me the drive and inspiration I’d need.

Perhaps this is not a great realisation but has crossed my mind more recently.

Amy took this picture because this princess was enjoying our (relatively) expensive prawns yesterday.