Author: shaun tenzenmen

Australasian DIY music specialist and practising poet, amongst other things

The Taste Of Words – 25th June 2024

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The taste of holy waters
No longer tainted with words
A story as old as time
Perspective, the rule of thirds

A violin sublime in the subway
Passersby pass on by
Soars serene in isolation
When the audience will try

Every failure, new success
Taking the necessary steps
Once rained on, weeping
Onwards, the beat of the blessed

Submitted to Wordle 660 and inspired by a David Elikwu newsletter

The taste of holy waters
No longer tainted with words
A story as old as time
Perspective, the rule of thirds

A violin sublime in the subway
Passersby pass on by
Soars serene in isolation
When the audience will try

Every failure, new success
Taking the necessary steps
Once rained on, weeping
Onwards, the beat of the blessed

The taste tainted with time
Perspective sublime
In serene isolation
When will failure step on the beat

Submitted to Friday Writings #135: Less is More at Poets and Storytellers United

Today I’m feeling:

A little tired and gloomy, due to the weather and grey skies.  Everything is fine, it just looks a little off.  I have heavy eyes, perhaps from staying up too late last night.

Today I’m grateful for:

My umbrella, or more specifically for thinking of taking my umbrella with me from the car before my second class.  It pissed down about twenty seconds later.

The best thing about today was:

Writing what felt like a pretty good poem in between my two classes today.  I struggled for any inspiration earlier in the morning.

Something I learned today?

Julian Assange is finally free.

A lot of the grade 8 girls got a cervical cancer vaccine today and I only found out when I saw Palm crying and when I grabbed her shoulders to comfort her she started crying more!

Review your acts, Good and bad.

This evening I messaged Palm to see if her arm is ok now.

Armed with my umbrella I offered to share it with Ploy and Kaem as they were stuck in the canteen until I came along.  We all still got pretty wet though!

I took this picture last week because Tangmo brought along a friend one morning. Very friendly but completely subservient to Tangmo. They love running, rolling and play fighting.

Hold Your Nerve – 24th June 2024

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Said with a smile, hand over fist
The beating you deserve said with a kiss
Hormones kicking in, take a licking
The beating you deserve, hand over fist

Given an inch, you’ll take a mile
Can you hold your nerve and smile?

Medication kicking in, it’s a kiss in
Given an inch, you’ll see what’s missing
The beating you deserve, hand over fist
Say it with a smile, said with a fist

Submitted to Three Things Challenge #M734 and a reworking of Drive Like Jehu’s Hand Over Fist and somewhat a part two to Get It Together

Today I’m feeling:

Like time is running away.  I got up and exercised as normal, sat down to eat breakfast and already could see that it was a few minutes later than I thought.

On the roads, it was already busy and took me longer than usual to get to school.  I tried my best to be patient in the traffic!

So now I’m sitting with my first coffee, aware that I don’t have too long until my first class, only a short break until my second and then I’ll be dashing off home again.  I could do with another day of just sitting around watching videos at home.

Today I’m grateful for:

The old ice cream in the freezer that I finished off.  I’d forgotten we had any left and I fancied something sweet after Amy’s amazing dinner, a delicious fake meat crispy pork.

The best thing about today was:

My grade 12 class telling me that they had to go off and do something for the last hour of my class with them, meaning that I could get an extra hour at House with another cup of unrushed coffee.

It was also convenient as the lesson I had for the class was a little too short.

Something I learned today?

I heard Fiery Furnaces and Between The Buried and Me for the first time today.  Pretty interesting, the two tracks that I heard though, I’m starting to think about how much time I take to listen to music and how much I already love and how much more I want to try and discover.

I can’t help myself searching for new music but I already have a stack of stuff available that I don’t spend time trying to enjoy.

I took this picture because another year goes by and the dragonfruit flowers again but will we get any fruit?

Your Brother – 23rd June 2024

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Can we grow? Help each other know
The best is ahead; let’s just start with better
It’s the knowing when to come and go
Through thick and thin together

Twenty years with no exchange
When we didn’t need each other
Resumes without feeling strange
Wherever you are, I’m your brother

Written for an AllPoetry assignment analysing friendship

Today I’m feeling:

Reasonable.  I reluctantly got up with my alarm as my neck was sore but opted out of any exercise and after a shower went out for coffee.  I wanted to be productive today so didn’t dilly-dally too much and when I got home I went to my room and caught up on some emails and a little bit of writing.

After lunch though I couldn’t help having a little nap but when I woke up I forced myself back out again to play some guitar.

The rest of the afternoon and evening have disappeared with some YT videos and helping some students with reading.

Today I’m grateful for:

Rain!  Finally.  Though it didn’t last much longer than 30 minutes and afterwards the humidity set right back in.

The best thing about today was:

Finishing my first erasure poem.  The words came out well but the overall look is a bit messy.  I need to study what others have done and get ideas from them.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

I wanted to read more of my book today but watching videos won out.

Something I learned today?

There was a cosplay event at Central today.  Baipad told me that she was going to check it out.  She was a little disappointed that it wasn’t bigger but Chiang Rai is still a small city compared with Chiang Mai or Bangkok.

Review your acts, Good and bad.

I took some of Amy’s cookies to Utopia for them to try.  I didn’t think much of it at the time but when I stepped back in home Amy had already received a message from Art wanting to order some!  Amy was convinced that I did it just to try and get her busy at home but I laughed and she was being good-humoured too.

Later in the afternoon, she started working out how much they cost to make and what she could sell them for.

I took this picture because our neighbours were chilling this morning.

Get It Together – 22nd June 2024

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Got a head barren of motivation
What’s said only delivers frustration
Not dead but denied inspiration
Get it together or you’re done!

Emo-driven tears an aberration
Forgotten fears sudden implication
Perspective clears internal narration
You got skills but the bills are due!

Each turmoil treads towards education
Lessons learned have no expiration
Third eyes open to the realisation
Time to shine because the rains will come!

Submitted to Ovi Poetry Challenge 53 and inspired by one of my students who is trying hard at school but is close to getting kicked out.

Today I’m feeling:

Woke up tired but got going with Utopia coffee. Game was there and commiserated with me when I told him and Art that I couldn’t hang around as Amy had me quickly home for us to go to meet Mei and Hagan for lunch. I still managed to get a little reading in though, starting Rip It Up And Start Again again.

Today I’m grateful for:

Mei and Hagan for shouting us lunch at Mo’s (near Mae Sai). Good food and good catch-up, probably the last before they head back to Australia.

The best thing about today was:

Whilst out in the village in the evening I went across to the 20 baht shop, which was closed in the morning, and picked up some batteries and a door closer. I saw that KhaoThang was sitting in her mum’s shop so I went in and chatted with her and her mum for a minute. 

Her English pronunciation is awesome now, though her vocabulary is still limited as she studies in a Science program rather than language.

They told me that they will close the shop in December and mum will go to a temple in Phan and KT will stay in a dorm near her school (Tessaban 6). She’s only 14 but its quite common here.  Good luck to them both.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Somehow it feels hotter than it did in summer. It still hasn’t rained, two weeks now, so our new gutter is still untested. 

After the first rain, a month or more ago, it felt cooler and refreshing and now the temperature has remained the same but the humidity seems to have skyrocketed. It’s pretty tiring but despite some huffing and puffing, I’m still trying not to complain out loud.

The heat did stop me from going to my room today though. I could’ve still gone but I couldn’t even really face getting up out of the air-conned living room to get a drink of water.

Something I learned today?

I came across a Roy and HG documentary and it made me reminisce a lot about my early years in Australia and then even more so when there were clips of The Dream which was the show they did during the Sydney Olympics. That was still a memorable prime time in my life.

I found a load of videos on YT which I stuck in the queue to watch at some point.

Review your acts, Good and bad.

Around 7pm Amy wanted to go to the market to get some soy milk, implying that I had to ride her there. I still didn’t want to get out but eventually, I did.

I took this picture at Mo’s because I finally remembered to take some pictures today. I knew this one was going to look good when I took it.

Spy On You – 21st June 2024

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My lizard eye spies surprise
Sideways sly spy in the skies
Explain a name, much the same
A play for fame explains the game

To beat the heat or face defeat
You gotta cheat the play complete
I did the do in watching you
So talk me through the dimmest view

Before there’s more along the floor
See what I see, saw what I saw
Split decision at the supervision
I got television with precision-vision
I got an eye on you

Submitted to Three Things Challenge #M729 and #M730
4th Dec 2024 – Shared with dVerse – TV shows

Today I’m feeling:

Not as tired as I usually am by Friday which is pleasing.  I’ve already done my morning classes again and they went pretty well.  Just my lively grade 8s to go and then off home again.

Today I’m grateful for:

The last drips and drops of my pay cheque that allow me to buy my yoghurt, that should tide me over until next month. 

I don’t have enough money to pay for Amy’s birthday dinner now and have to figure out a way to get the credit card out of her wallet on the night without her noticing!

The best thing about today was:

The many interactions with students again, mostly mine but also a few new ones that wanted to talk. 

Days like this make all the effort I put in feel worthwhile. I feel like any little small interaction is helping these kids in some way.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

I have a sore spot right on the end of my tailbone. I’ve had it before and maybe it was at the same time last year. It feels like dry skin that has maybe split. It could be from spending more time sitting on hard wooden chairs or from doing more exercise at this time of year. I’m not sure. It’s more annoying than painful.

After my first class, I walked past the classroom where George was with the grade 11s that I also teach. The kids were mostly sprawled out across the floor asleep and George sat at his desk engrossed in his phone. 

Well…. That’s not a great look in my book but whatever. It seems most of the Thai teachers don’t care either. But I feel at least a little bit responsible for giving these kids as much as I can, whether they would prefer to sleep or not!

Something I learned today?

China just found a cure for Type 2 diabetes and the USA wants to stop their citizens from getting access to treatment by blocking US scientists from working with Chinese Pharmaceuticals.

Review your acts, Good and bad.

Aida was looking a bit down again today and she said that she has a falling out with a couple of her friends in the class. I encouraged her to not overthink things and that it may already be ok again by next week. 

I can feel that she thinks quite deeply about things and maybe focuses too much on the negative.

I took this picture because these fruits (or nuts) caught my eye as I got out of my car after a quick lunch coffee.

More Ice Cream – 20th June 2024

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Can you be persuaded away
By the carrot on the stick?
Caught in the thought of ice cream
And eating until you’re sick
– Surely you need a jumbo serve
– To teach you what you deserve

Submitted to FOWC with Fandango – persuade and RDP Monday – jumbo

Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good again.  The morning has whizzed by thanks to all my students being incredibly well-behaved and attentive today.  I’m a little surprised!  I wish every day was like this.  I actually felt like I was teaching rather than attending.

Today I’m grateful for:

The kids I asked not to come and disrupt my afternoon class today.  I appreciated that though maybe my students didn’t understand so much but it got them more focused and we got enough done.

The best thing about today was:

Those early classes setting up the day for me so that I’m not so tired.  I’m perhaps also getting used to this schedule too.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Amy suddenly changed plans this morning as she didn’t sleep well but it was nothing that caused any real problem or made me change my plans too much.

Something I learned today?

It’s a possibility that Chad Warner could be lured from Sydney Swans to Freo, as he is from the West Coast originally.  He’s already touted as the best player in the competition.  He’s only 22 or 23 years old.  I hope he doesn’t leave though.

Review your acts, Good and bad.

I sent encouraging messages to KanomBang and BB after they paid more attention in class and asked me for help.

I’ve also been sending Anchan encouragement every now and then.  She went to a speaking competition last weekend and was disappointed to come ninth.

I found iPhone, Fahmai and another girl practising dancing and they told me that there will be a competition next week so I wished them luck and hope that I can see them.

Whisper In The Dark – 19th June 2024

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Stumble in darkness clear of you
A restful cave, I start to think
Repeat the mantras I wrote for you
To amuse, gather together what I have
To pass this quiet time

Thrust into light, away from you
A forgotten face is all I have
Understood by both, no means no
Repeat the mantras I have for time

“You think you have time, you have no time”

Ghosts by nomeansno

A golden shovel inspired by nomeansno and submitted to FOWC with Fandango – faceless and MLMM Wordle #377 – clear, restful, repeat, amuse, pass, thrust

Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good.  I was so tired last night that I couldn’t even read in bed.  My eyes were hurting, probably from too much screen time, and may get even worse today with my six-hour break before class!

Anyway, my alarm woke me up from a deep sleep but I felt good from it and exercised and got going.

Today I’m grateful for:

The folks at the post office who helped me get the parcel sorted to send it to Singapore. It was freaking expensive and meant getting credit at House again until I get paid but had to be done.

The best thing about today was:

I knocked up a good lesson plan in my spare time today and I enjoyed thinking about it and putting it together.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Man, this six-hour break is killing me!  It’s too long.  I think next week I will go and sit in with my old class.  Let Kru NumNim teach and help out some of the poorer students.

Something I learned today?

I got back in touch with Nevin and he wrote back today that he will be moving to HK to study in a couple of months. Hopefully I might be able to catch up with him there sometime. 

Review your acts, Good and bad.

In my one and only class of the day there were 4 or 5 female students who weren’t supposed to be there, come to hang out with the younger girls that they fancy. I let it go for today, as I actually didn’t spot them until later in the lesson!

I don’t usually mind if other students come but they seemed to be disturbing the kids that need to study the most.

Amy took this picture of the mum and dad. Happy family.

Over The Horizon – 18th June 2024

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What about the baby that pulled the trigger?
He just liked explosions
That made him happy
So many toys to play with
The mind is easily distracted
– It’s so very far away
– Death is so very far away

It can’t even be seen over the horizon

Bang, bang, they’re dead
They all fall down
Because bigger is better
On this side of town

Submitted to Reena’s Xploration Challenge #335

Today I’m feeling:

A little less enthusiastic but still have energy reserves somehow.  The first half of the week is pretty easy now and whilst the last couple of days are busy, they are pretty easy too.

Today I’m grateful for:

Our little birds that came and raised their family with us.  It was cool to watch them grow and then fly away.  Good luck to them.

The best thing about today was:

Spending some time in my room sorting out online music stuff with Parthiban, getting some money sorted to pay Johnny in HK for the Bennu LPs and chatting with Nampan and Team a bit.

And I was able to play some guitar which was fun too.

Something I learned today?

There was a big fire at Chatuchak Market a couple of days ago that killed thousands of animals. I don’t remember even seeing animals anywhere when I was there.

Amy took these pictures because today our little birdies flew the coop.

From The Tree To Me – 17th June 2024

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In the raw, you leave
A bitter tingle on the lips
A dusty drift in the air
Dry to the connoisseur’s nose

To grip the sweat of flesh
Where the cups of coffee sit
Hard knocks on wood
Built for many winters

All the ale spilled over
And never a complaint
Stoic and solid, ever-steady
Dampened with a cloth

How is it that your shade
Perfectly matches your function?
When your name is spoken
Your colour is revealed

Sealed with a scent
A low release of forest
Antique aching legs
Of stale cigars, whiskey and work

Write a poem about an object in five stanzas using sight, sound, smell, taste, and touch – in any order.
What is it?
This was a tough write and I don’t know if people can understand what the object is!

Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good despite almost swearing when my alarm went off.  I got up and at it though and now, about two hours later, I’m wondering if I can increase my exercise time a little in the morning.  Seems like I’ve already forgotten about how tired I am by Fridays and thinking of pushing it further now it’s Monday!

(10 pm) So tired now that I’m no longer contemplating pushing myself so much!

Today I’m grateful for:

The students in the sick room who bandaged up my fingers whilst taking pictures to show that they were working when required. Fixing the bleeding farang teacher is good optics.

The best thing about today was:

My first class, 3 hours with grade 12s was relaxing and fun. I didn’t push them too much and tried to keep everyone engaged as best as I could.  I was quite impressed with their English skills and with their confidence to at least try their best.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Tokyo finally got me today and it was my own fault. 

Usually, when I’m leaving House I don’t disturb her as she is sleeping, yet eyeing what is going on but today she was on her side and raised her paw for a belly rub. 

If I had come round to her side maybe everything would be ok but I tried leaning over the bench which left my hand hovering over her until I got my balance to sit down. I know that she feels threatened by this and sure enough, she snapped her jaw around my fingers and me trying to pull away left a big gash on the inside of my forefinger and knuckle of my ring finger. 

Weirdly, it didn’t hurt that much, though I knew I should be feeling pain. Due to the location of the wounds, they soon started dripping blood.  Gui’s mum got out the medicine kit that they have to keep handy for these situations and I quickly cleaned up before heading back to school. 

I got the cuts band-aided at the sick room and went off to class.

Something I learned today?

Praewa complained about her boyfriend, my grade 8 student Ten, smoking too much marijuana! I was not at all surprised to hear this. 

She has been very unhappy since she met him and I don’t understand what his appeal is. Bad boy appeal maybe? All her friends keep telling her to dump him and she keeps threatening to.

Ten is immature and doesn’t have any parental guidance at home, living with his grandmother and his younger sister. 

I’d be happy if I never heard his name again and I usually like the ‘bad’ kids.

What three words describe today? 

Interesting
Inspiring
Tiring

Amy took this picture just before fixing up the support for the nest with an old shirt. Things were getting precarious there.

Clare’s Hoped For Sleep – 16th June 2024

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A knot to untie the time
Tightened by weight
A sinking ship
Submits to fate

Empty bottle on the sill
A chemical reaction
Soothed into slumber
A sought-after satisfaction

A razor to the wrist
A red river runs
Across the dim-lit dusk
Of no more suns

An inch of water deep
To all the sorrows drowned
A cold ceramic bed
A final furlough found

Cold steel at the temple
One last prayer said
No more cookies to crumble
All the lemons put to bed

Submitted to Moonwashed Musings – hope for, Writer’s Workshop – sleep and Weekly Prompts Weekend Challenge – Sleep. Inspired by Australian fanzine writer Clare Lemon’s quest to commit suicide which she openly wrote about and eventually achieved her wish.

Fatman report

Today I’m feeling:

Good after yesterday though still tired. Woke up well before my alarm, with aching shoulders but spent a few minutes preparing my mind to do exercise, which I then went and did and also whilst in my room did some guitar strumming exercises. Let’s kick off the day well!

Today I’m grateful for:

Mei and Hagan offering to get Amy home from the city after I left them in a bar there to come home and finish up some work and write.

Predictably, Amy didn’t want to leave when they did as she wanted to go off dancing at Whiteline.  They called me to make sure I was ok with it and once I found out that Amy would probably go back to her Mum’s place, then that’s fine.  I wouldn’t anticipate her having any problem getting home to me but Mum’s is much closer.

The best thing about today was:

Hanging out with Mei and Hagan, chatting and catching up since we last met in October in Sydney.  We decided that instead of getting pizza at Singha Park we would try a Persian restaurant about ten minutes away and I’m glad we did.

The restaurant is just run by one guy so things were slow but as there was only us and one other table we all relaxed into the food and the afternoon.  After a while, we got talking to the guy, Woody, and learned all about his life and travels, and him only being 29 years old.  It was an interesting and pleasant few hours there.

Something I learned today?

After discussing China with another WordPress poet I worked out that the 37,000 Chinese that entered the USA across the Mexican border is 0.002% of the Chinese population.