“Everything that needs to be said has already been said. But, since no one was listening, everything must be said again.” – Andre Gide
Have you ever felt like you don’t know what’s going on?
Do people ever look at you like you’re doing something wrong?
Do people ever look at you and don’t like your face?
Have you ever felt really out of place?
Will some people not accept you for the things you do?
Will some people not understand cos you are simply you?
Do you ever feel like crying cos of what other people do?
If you’ve ever felt like this then I’m just like you
25th July 2023 – Questions, questions, so many questions.
25th Nov 2024 – Shared with Living Poetry Prompt – appreciation
I feel rejected
I must be obsessed
Must be you
I want the best
I feel heartbroken
I must be annoyed
Must be you
I’m feeling paranoid
I feel in my head
I must be true
In my arms
I feel you
23rd July 2023 – Love seems to be a theme around this time. I had no idea what was going on or what I was doing.
Give me a kiss, give me a kiss
Chance to good to miss
Give me a kiss, give me a kiss
Chance to good to miss
Open up, open up
Out of luck, out of luck
Open up, open up
Out of luck, out of luck
You wouldn’t open up to me
I was so disappointed you see
Show me love, show me love
Open up, open up
Biting tongue, caressing tongue
Something wrong? Something wrong?
23rd July 2023 – Trying to figure out girls, before trying to figure out myself.
At last, it finally happened
It was too good to be true
I’ll never forget that moment
When I whispered ‘I love you’
And I had to stand back
To see the look on your face
And I was so relieved
That it wasn’t out of place
22nd Jan 1998 – Well, interesting to read that one back. Not sure I had fallen in love at this stage or was just getting ideas off TV! It sure was hard to say goodbye to you this afternoon at Town Hall. I’m glad we have so much fun together even if sometimes we don’t have anything to say or just crap on about nothing. Everything feels so comfortable with you – like you say comfortable silences. Of course, we have a lot of deep stuff to talk about too and I know what you mean when you say you want to tell everything – that’s how I feel too. I am completely open to you – will tell you anything, everything etc etc blah blah. Crapping on now. My heart is with you – enjoy yr weekend in the mountains – I’m wishing I was there sweetheart.
23rd July 2023 – I was projecting and dreaming somewhat. Not somewhat but absolutely!
Government health inspector got a disease
It brought him to his knees
He went off to die in shame
But I hope he died in great pain
Government inspector checking trains
Until one ran right over his brains
He went off to die in shame
I hope he died in great pain
Government inspector in the sewage pits
But he fell right in with all the shits
He went off to die in shame
But I hope he died in great pain
Government inspector checking me
I poked his eyes out so he couldn’t see
Government inspectors asked how and why
I told them to fuck off and die
23rd July 2023 – My generic anti-government rant
Record of the week: Cult Maniax – American Dream
5th November 1984
Work’s OK. Working with Piwi.
10th November 1984
Bought Beating The Meat, Something To Believe In, Bullshit Detector 3
11th November 1984
Russell Budden was killed last night in a motorcycle accident R.I.P.
Some people think I’m strange
But I don’t think I am
Some people treat me
Like a stranger in a strange land
Some people think I’m strange
But I don’t think I am
They say I cut myself off
I don’t think they understand
But I’m also looking and thinking
They’re strange
21st Jan 1998 – Really clicked when you said your sisters thought you were strange. I think it is an endearing quality (I like to find strange people) and really we are not that strange at all.
15th Aug 2023 – 4th line was definitely borrowed from Robert Heinlein’s book which my mum was reading at the time. I didn’t read it until 2022 but what a great book!
Those two-litre girls
Fighting men of the real world
Coax them back to bed
And slap them in the head
They’ll go all around the world
Those two-litre girls
Boasting how loose they are
Snogging in the back of the car
Get back to your flat
She’ll show you where she’s at
‘You’re not touching that!’
Freeze
Two-litre virgins standing at the pump
Telling you when to jump
Boasting they’re as wide as a bucket
You know what to do – if it moves
Fuck it
21st Jan 1998 – I guess I must’ve got teased a lot in school! Didn’t like the way girls could lead you on and then drop you. I remember having a huge crush on a girl when I was about 12 or 13 and couldn’t believe it when she asked me out – only to find next day her and her friends laughing at me for believing it could’ve happened. Hmmm – deep emotional scars. I still love girls though, better than boys if you know what I mean – I got more shit from boys in the end.
Tuesday the fourth
What week, what year, who cares?
The news today
Shows how the population of Ethiopia fairs
It’s a cruel world
Wednesday the fifth
What time? Just another day
The news today
Shows the US election, happy and gay
It’s still a cruel world
With its priorities wrong
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