“Everything that needs to be said has already been said. But, since no one was listening, everything must be said again.” – Andre Gide
I am so happy and grateful for my iPad – I can read comics and books and right now I’m watching Sydney v Richmond at the MCG. It’s a replay and I know Sydney won but it’s great to be able to watch us play so well.
I am so happy and grateful for a nice long refreshing sleep. So deep I don’t remember any dreams – still sleepy now with eyes unable to focus properly. Time to do a little exercise and shake the cobwebs loose.
Kim Chi was acting strangely last night, looking scared and hiding herself away. This morning she didn’t show up at breakfast time and by 11.30 Amy and I were both starting to worry as we leave tomorrow morning for 5 days.
Finally, Amy found he hiding behind our long grass outside our gate. I quickly saw that she had a big, clean hole as a wound in her side so we had to bundle her up and take her straight to the vet where she will have to stay until we get back. They said that the wound was not infected but just needed to be cleaned and checked daily.
In balance I think animals bring more joy than worry but as you get more the potential for problems seems to increase. I still like the idea of a dog but I’m not sure of the wisdom of having one.
I am so happy and grateful for this to be the last day of school and now I can enjoy 4 weeks away from there. I’ve enjoyed teaching this year and I’m grateful to everyone I have worked with there.
A nice way to end the school year. Reading, drinking coffee, visiting Matt, collecting marijuana which made my car smell fabulous, reading some more, taking Cap to the vet, teaching Maeve, playing guitar and now I’m going inside to watch YouTube and read some Mo Yan and comics. Tired and happy.
Weight: 78.0kg
Resting heart rate: 56
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful for the fan in our bedroom last night. Our aircon stopped working so all we had was the fan. Luckily it was enough and even I woke up feeling cold. Without it though would have been very uncomfortable. That fan will have more work to do as we don’t know when we can get the aircon fixed.
Today was a good day. I felt calm and enjoyed being at school even with not many other people around. Champ complimented me on my lesson plans today too – it’s nice to get some positive feedback on your work.
I also found out that next semester I will be teaching the same classes as this semester. That’s kind of nice though I may have to find new approaches to the two classes who are not so good. Anyway, it’s a good challenge.
Tomorrow is our last day for a month and I’m looking forward to this time off.
I am so happy and grateful that there is a local vet nearby where we can take our cats in the case of small emergencies. Last night we had to take Kim Chi to get some wounds cleaned up – looks like from fighting. She’s much better already
Just had another good class with Maeve in which she commented she feels much more fluent in her speech already. She did very well.
I then worked out my abs – which has made me feel good. And today at school I managed to work out a way to complete my 20 lessons plans, not just quickly and easily but also with a good method.
George is so off with me now that it is actually amusing. Dylan follows him around like a puppy but even he pushed back a little today too, light-heartedly commenting that George isn’t happy when Dylan doesn’t do what he wants.
Two days until a month’s break. Happy.
Yufu, Maeve, nonsense in my head, breakfast ready, ache in neck, birds chirping, lesson plans, write, read, coffee, holidays, alcohol.
Kim Chi, lazy Kim Chi, are you boy or girl and does it matter to a cat?
Work those abs.
What are you grateful for today?
Get nonsense out of your head.
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful for this awesome breakfast Amy has prepared for me. Set me up for the day. Gotta start eating before it goes cold.
The best thing about today was when I was asked to attend a meeting with all teachers and the presenter was an hour and a half late and I dealt with it by meditation and thinking about other things that I wished to do.
Previously I would have been upset by situations like this and thought of them as a waste of time but now I can occupy my mind instead and let any frustration ease away. This is a sign of my growth.
I am so happy and grateful for my weak abs. Now I’m really testing them with exercises. Hopefully, it’s not too late to build them up. When I’m in old age I hope my muscles can hold on to my excretions.
Best thing about today was keeping myself busy and occupied whilst boring things were occurring around me.
In the morning, we had to attend a meeting where the director talked in Thai for an hour. I used that time to meditate. Later, no one had given any instructions on what to do so I read some things online and caught up with emails.
Tomorrow, I will have to do more serious work now that I’ve been given some direction on those requirements. That will provide some focus for the next few days til the end of the semester on Friday.
I am so happy and grateful for the big rain a couple of nights ago which meant we didn’t need to water the garden yesterday. Today I will be grateful for the 41-degree temperature and sunlight that will inspire our plants and trees to shoot up. Balance of nature – power for a long time – longer than I will be alive.
Sometimes, days off start with many possibilities but then by the end of the day, you wonder what you did. My morning and afternoon were happy – watching Sydney play well in the AFL, winning the game, working out in the morning, reading and drinking coffee, eating a beautiful buffet lunch at Le Meridien.
But I can tell Amy is in a feisty mood – inspired by the elections that are happening today. With her grandmum not well and her brother being a typical uncommunicative and uncaring person – all this makes the words out of her mouth in the negative – and even if they may not be, I am reading them that way because it has become the norm.
Some days I can deal – usually just by shutting up, but today, this evening, I just wanted to lock myself away. I picked up my guitar and after a few days with no practice played worse than before – got myself frustrated and into a funk of my own.
I did a bit more exercise and that brought me up a bit but now I’m going back inside the house and out of hiding here in my room. Let’s try to be positive.
I am so happy and grateful for our big washing machine – big enough for our king size doonas. I am grateful for the AFL app so even though I don’t want to afford to pay to watch the games live at least I can watch the full replays for free.
The best thing about today was looking through old diaries and poems – seems like I was always writing. Excited to look through it more, though sometimes it gets me down, knowing that I’m getting older and can’t take my existing knowledge back to those times and dealt with them better – or worse still, is looking back and seeing that I’m dealing with the same things as then!
This is about acceptance – accepting who I am. Loving myself the way I am. Fuck those people who don’t get me – that’s what I would’ve said back then – can I say it now?
I am so happy and grateful I bought that second-hand printer from Nu after he finished his studies. It has saved us lots of time running to the print shop and I can also scan lots and lots of things for my blog.
Amy’s grandmum was in hospital yesterday – she was pooing blood – not a good thing at any age but she’s hoping to make 90 this year. The good news today is that it seems it was just an abscess that burst and she should be fine. Amy’s grandmum has the best skin I’ve ever felt. It doesn’t look that great but is so soft and smooth. Amy is hoping that she has inherited it.
We went to visit her in hospital both yesterday and today and when we got home I had totally forgotten about my online class. I feel really bad about that – not just for my student but also that I didn’t remember!
Today is a holiday so it wasn’t a normal working day which may have made me feel like it was a weekend. I also banged my head this morning – old man going senile. I hope I make 90.
Best thing about today was finishing the last of the drawings for our anniversary. What to draw next?
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