“Everything that needs to be said has already been said. But, since no one was listening, everything must be said again.” – Andre Gide
Even without kerosene around
The house is on fire
Sparking cinders across the ground
The street is on fire
There’s nothing to do in this town
Because it’s all on fire
Now the world is burning down
Because it’s all on fire
The only real monsters might be the type of liar where there’s simply no way to tell. The ones who give nothing away.
Hal, The Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace
This one is not a morning scribble but at night and I want to get some thoughts out before I try to meditate which I didn’t do for a few weeks and I can feel my head whirling, whirling.
Step out, step out! Nothing lasts forever. Step out, step out – demolition – look at it fall down.
Distraction. Music is a distraction and I love it. I love my room – my room from youth and now I return – here in my room. No window, ceiling or floor!
Music, music, music. People in and out. Relationships, people – why do I find it so difficult?
Never mind, I think I’m okay. I’m fine I don’t need to find excuses. Inside my head is okay – when I’m feeling okay – I don’t need anything or anyone – except my one true friend. I love Amy very deeply I’m a little scared if anything happens between us but I know I’ll be okay. Everything is always okay. The world spins. And all those cliches. But anyway – it’s not something I think about really – not something likely to happen as far as I know. Out, out, out, you fleeting thoughts – settle down and breathe deep.
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful to each of my students for the different ways they make me think. It’s a nice challenge to everything.
Imagine a world where children are not sexually harassed by their teachers…
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Intro and background music by Utotem, Phantom Tollbooth, Daniel Striped Tiger and someone else I forgot.
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Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful for the cooler weather and the bottle of Kavalan that Lekky bought for me a couple of years ago. I finished it last night and felt very good. I don’t feel too bad this morning either.
I am so happy and grateful for this first coffee this morning. It’s mixing really well with the leftover taste of whiskey from last night and reminding me of the good time I had last night listening to music
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Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful that my class is cancelled today! But I should still do my homework. I’m actually enjoying learning. It’s slow progress, just like the guitar, but I can feel the progress slowly working.
If you got nothing to talk about then there’s always the weather. Over the last couple of years though, the weather has become a major conversation for most people. Extremes are getting hit everywhere. And now having said that……
It’s not just a surprise to me that it’s so cold here in North Thailand at the moment, even the locals say they’ve never felt anything like it. We all probably forgot what it was like last year. It’s a bit of a shock to the system though and apparently, this ‘winter’ cold will be over within the week. It’s actually a nice temperature but I can’t enjoy it because everyone got sick and thought it best to share it with me, so I’ve been rugged up and sleeping it off for what feels way too long. Hanging out daily with hundreds of sick kids doesn’t help much either.
Another annoying thing is that the temperature had just become appropriate to crack open the bottle of Malt Whiskey I’d been sitting on since last year. After a couple of nights of enjoyment, the sickness took hold. Maybe it’s related? When it’s not school holidays I’ve pretty much stopped drinking now, so I’m a bit out of practice. This has had some positive health effects in that I’ve lost a little bit of weight without having to do any exercise. I would like to do some exercise though but……I’m fucking sick.
Anyway, in between working and coughing I’m also in the middle of planning a ten-day or so South East Asia tour for Worlds Dirtiest Sport from France, which is basically Kevin from Trumans Water and his one-man band. I’m very excited about this. It’s a great excuse for me to get to see some other parts of Southeast Asia that I haven’t visited yet, to enjoy watching Kevin play each night and to discover the local scenes and bands there. As well as catching up with some old (and newer) friends.
Whilst doing this I also have to arrange myself a new UK passport, as that is what my Thai visa is attached to. I got this Australian passport that I’ve never used and not sure when I’ll be able to! This will mean having to make two quick trips to the British Embassy in Chiang Mai on working weekdays. This is my opportunity to use the word palaver.
Dealing with the moving targets of Thai bureaucracy has hardened me somewhat to the bullshit bureaucracy I had to deal with in Australia and the UK with all the visas, passports and information requirements. This time should be a cinch. Famous last words.
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful to be around the kids at school. Even if they are shitbags they never fail to make me smile many times a day. I can go home with those smiles and forget about how little they actually learned.
Did it lists
“You may not wake up tomorrow”
What did I do well today?
Where were my discipline and self-control tested? Where did I do good?
What did I do bad and why did this occur? Furthermore, how can I improve?
In 2001 I set myself on fire – now I’ll smoulder. I’ve got to learn to control it – direct my thoughts.
9th Jan 2022 – The calm after the storm. I knew what I had to do but it would be a long while before I actually could. Sometimes I’m a slow learner. More storms on the horizon.
Not my picture included but I have memories of seeing approaching storms at Bondi Beach, just like this.
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