Tag: Big C

Through Confusion – 13th April 2024

~ shaun tenzenmen ~ 5 Comments

Sometimes I wonder what I’m looking for
Why there’s no handle for this door?
What glimmers from the forest floor?
Confused by all these questions

A calm demeanour to maintain
Despite the urge to not remain
Too tired and weary to explain
Confused by all the answers

But I own myself, I’m not for sale
Despite the loss, I cannot fail
Collecting thoughts to fairytale
Confused by all the stories

I went from green to red to green
Saw many things I’ve never seen
I’ve become what I’ve always been
Learning through all this confusion

Written for Ovi Poetry Challenge – maintenance, WDYS #233, Writer’s Workshop Prompts – sale and dVerse – green. Also submitted to NaPoMo.

Today I’m feeling:

A little bleary.  Coffee hasn’t done its magic.

A disappointing practice of guitar has got me down and now the blaring PA system of the neighbours celebrating Songkran is annoying me.  I just want quiet – to think, to read.  It was fun to see the children preparing to start splashing everyone this morning though.

The skies are clearer than the last few weeks, there’s some breeze and the temperature quite bearable.  Only one thing for us to do today – shopping.

Today I’m grateful for:

Art giving me a free cake for Songkran today.

Also, Amy wanting to go to Big C and allowing me to drop a couple of things in the trolley that I wanted.  

She also paid for Swenson’s ice cream for our dessert – which was great and all but nothing on LungChom’s ice cream.

Needless to say, I’m putting on weight this month.

The best thing about today was:

Finding a baby cow at the front door!

We both heard some mooing outside our living room window but it sounded to me as if it was in the field at the back.  A few minutes later we heard it at the front, though thought it was still coming from the field next door.

A second time though and we went to investigate to find the little cutie confused on how to get back to its mum that was calling from the field next door.

We were eventually able to usher it out and back where it immediately got to suckling and security.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Both Baipad and Anchan have been out of contact for a couple of days.  

There’s nothing to be done, I just hope that they are both doing ok for now.

Something I learned today?

I found a very funny comedian on YouTube called Dan Rath.  He’s from Sydney too.

What’s a question I’ve been pondering lately?

I have been thinking a little about what is next?  Am I just going to keep on documenting my life up until this point without really adding anything further to it?  Am I done?  

I am weirdly happy and satisfied though.  

Or am I just old, tired and lazy?  

Pondering questions raises more questions.

I took this picture because we take pictures of our visitors.

Happy Birthday, I Still Don’t Love You – 27th September 2023

~ shaun tenzenmen ~ Leave a comment

I hope your day is grand
Goes as you have planned
It’s the thing to do
But I still don’t love you

It’s a past we shared
When once we cared
But yesterday is through
And I still don’t love you

I wrote a broken ode
Broke the unspoken code
I’m thinking of you
But still don’t love you

inspired, but not connected, by part of this post at Spinning Visions

Today I’m feeling:

Happy again but a little tired now that I’m home and have eaten some food. I will try to sleep earlier tonight I think. I say that now but I often end up late again!

Today I’m grateful for:

The fruit-flavoured toffees that I can buy at Big C and no doubt fuck up my fillings. I will take a packet to Hayden so he can fuck up his fillings too.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Today I found out that one of my students, Feije, has been expelled from school. I could sense that something was up with her recently and tried to reach out to her but she said everything was fine. I saw her falling asleep in other classes and she would often skip mine with excuses that her friends said weren’t true.

Her friends were sad that she has gone. They told me that she had posted pictures on IG of herself drinking beer. I told them that she was stupid for doing that. Her friends wanted to protect her but they also knew that I was right.

Amongst all the kids in her class, there were plenty of others that I would’ve expected to have discipline issues first.

Something I learned today?

I read about Gregory Sadler who has 377 videos on YouTube about his reading of Hegel’s Phenomenology of Spirit. He started in 2015 and finished this week. He is also considering reading it again!

What do I remember about a recent dream I had?

Dreams are evasive when trying to force them back into memory. I know that I woke up last night needing to pee but whatever I was dreaming about had given me an erection that made it extremely difficult to point downwards into the bowl. It was still dark and I wanted to get back to sleep as soon as I could but had to wait and then bend it as much as possible. I’m not sure what the dream was but I seem to remember thinking that it was something affectionate rather than sexual. I didn’t have any trouble getting back to sleep but also don’t recall any new dreams that I might’ve had.

I took this picture because Miyor was excited to show me this new trick she had learned. She then proceeded to get other students to try it too. I’m trying now whilst writing this and my old bones just don’t bend that way.