Your Brother – 23rd June 2024

Can we grow? Help each other know
The best is ahead; let’s just start with better
It’s the knowing when to come and go
Through thick and thin together

Twenty years with no exchange
When we didn’t need each other
Resumes without feeling strange
Wherever you are, I’m your brother

Written for an AllPoetry assignment analysing friendship


Today I’m feeling:

Reasonable.  I reluctantly got up with my alarm as my neck was sore but opted out of any exercise and after a shower went out for coffee.  I wanted to be productive today so didn’t dilly-dally too much and when I got home I went to my room and caught up on some emails and a little bit of writing.

After lunch though I couldn’t help having a little nap but when I woke up I forced myself back out again to play some guitar.

The rest of the afternoon and evening have disappeared with some YT videos and helping some students with reading.

Today I’m grateful for:

Rain!  Finally.  Though it didn’t last much longer than 30 minutes and afterwards the humidity set right back in.

The best thing about today was:

Finishing my first erasure poem.  The words came out well but the overall look is a bit messy.  I need to study what others have done and get ideas from them.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

I wanted to read more of my book today but watching videos won out.

Something I learned today?

There was a cosplay event at Central today.  Baipad told me that she was going to check it out.  She was a little disappointed that it wasn’t bigger but Chiang Rai is still a small city compared with Chiang Mai or Bangkok.

Review your acts, Good and bad.

I took some of Amy’s cookies to Utopia for them to try.  I didn’t think much of it at the time but when I stepped back in home Amy had already received a message from Art wanting to order some!  Amy was convinced that I did it just to try and get her busy at home but I laughed and she was being good-humoured too.

Later in the afternoon, she started working out how much they cost to make and what she could sell them for.

I took this picture because our neighbours were chilling this morning.

One Time Phenomenon – 4th January 2023

Unique DNA makes you
What you are
Primal inclinations
Forces within
Moved to action
Mind grows
A seed planted
One time phenomenon

Inspired and borrowed from The Daily Laws by Robert Greene


Today I’m feeling:

Tired but happy and satisfied.

Today I’m grateful for:

The pizza oven at Bruno and Nut’s for quickly baking delicious pizza for me, Amy, mum and dad. Nut had prepared the dough and ingredients and we made our own pizza toppings. Bruno enjoyed talking with Amy’s dad and got us all invited to their home for a Chinese New Year celebration in a few weeks time.

The best thing about today was:

Seeing Tangmo and his friend running, playing and rolling around on our lawn as I was eating breakfast. It made me smile, these stupid crazy dogs having fun at our house. Just a few seconds later they were gone and I saw them running up the street in the distance.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

The way I structured my last class of the day meant many students could take advantage and do as little work as they wanted but they needed to be ready when they were called. As it was the end of the day some students were keen to leave early and eventually when I called the next student they weren’t there, even though the class wasn’t over. I was a little disappointed but not surprised anymore. I was able to get some useful work out of maybe 60% of them and that would have to be as good as it was going to get. I need to think about a better way to keep the ‘free’ students occupied whilst I’m busy with others. I’m still a work in progress myself. Always learning.

Something I learned today?

Nut had prepared an Akha herb that I’d never tried before. It looked a little like a mini-sized mint and tasted a little like rocket with a hint of something which I’m not quite sure of. It was nice to munch on and add to the top of the pizza.

List three of your “greatest hits” from last year.

Greatest hits….? Hmm… In fact, a quick reflection doesn’t seem to generate any greatest hits particularly and I think that is a better place to be in. Having hits or highs would also mean having lows and I’d much prefer not to have those these days. But at a push…

  1. Riding around the rice fields behind the airport was nice, especially at golden hour. I did a few trips there during the October holiday and really felt serene.
  2. Another bike ride around the same time of year, this time with Bruno and across many mountains to the Burmese border and hanging out at a country school there.
  3. Meeting, befriending and watching my new groups of students. Seeing them learn and grow even a little was very rewarding.
I took this picture because Fon brought her handmade cookies last night but I only saw them today. This is a great one of me from a picture taken just a couple of days ago. I bet I taste good too.

Amy and I went to Bruno and Nut’s for pizza dinner and Amy’s mum and dad joined too, Bruno’s invite. Despite being tired from lack of sleep I was in a good mood, even joking with Amy’s dad a little. It was quite noticeable to me that I felt different to usual and I couldn’t be too sure why?

It was a lively evening of talk, Bruno and I talking a little about European politics which I really don’t know so much about. I felt it was nice to be away from all that where we can just casually chat about things that don’t affect us directly like they used to.

Dog tired at home and into bed and wonderful vivid dreams, I woke up to pee at one point, happy knowing that I could enjoy some more lucid dreaming again before falling back into a deeper sleep. That’s one way to be positive about broken sleep I suppose!

Tonight is Amy’s last night here before heading back to Australia and I likely won’t see her again for six months. I’ll miss her but we are both happy and love each other. Time is nothing.

Ozma – 27th November 2021

The hungry tiger had dead babies on his conscience
The more he wondered, the hungrier he got
Why was it so, that he should be born this way?
Which crazy god made this the hungry tiger’s lot?

21st Sep 2024 – Submitted to Ragtag Daily Prompt – ferocious


Leopold – The Wreck of Hope
CD on Total Annihilation Records
I’m always checking out new music, mostly through Bandcamp pages. This album was mentioned on the You Don’t Know Mojack podcast, which is going through the SST catalogue. At the beginning of each episode, the hosts (Brant and Ryan) talk about other items of interest that they’ve been listening to. Brant leans more on the metal side of things whilst Ryan is more in the noise rock direction so my ears prick up when he mentions something he likes and so it was with Leopold. I had a quick listen on their Bandcamp page and liked it enough to contact them about buying the CD.

Usually, I’m fine with just a digital copy but I think I was feeling comfortable with my bank account balance at the time that I shot off an email to find out how much it would cost to get a copy sent to Thailand. It was ridiculously expensive, the shipping costing one and a half times more than the actual CD. But having made the enquiry I felt obligated to buy it and in the end, glad that I did.


Quebradita Num. 4
This pummelling intro has me hooked already. Jesus Lizard-like, before a change of pace into a chugging bassline and some screeching guitars that have a wonderfully sharp tone. And here’s the riff, which has a nice Drive Like Jehu melody and timbre. The vocals are reminding me of my good friends from When Chimps Attack. I think this could have been what attracted me to buy this CD. I still wish the Chimps had made 10 more albums, so this is a nice addition to my album collection. Some nice high-neck guitar action breaks into the melodies and then there’s this funky Iron Maiden break. Er…perhaps funky isn’t the right word. It’s great!

Yes My Love
Oh, some skronking sax! Excellent. Great off-kilter rhythms that swell to a wicked bouncing chorus, if it could be called a chorus. Air punching, floor punching good stuff. Followed by a spacious guitar to let the bass and drums flow. Nice dynamics. Now chilling…is it going to stop? It feels like a wind-down. And that’s it.

Junior Perkins
Jesus – it’s the Ace of Spades warped into a noise rock blur with buried vocals trying to punch their way out of a sleeping bag. The guitar tone is sharp and piercing, just the way I like it. Doubled vocals make me want to sing along but all I can make out is ‘get me out of here.’ I think I would like these lyrics. And it’s over as quick as you like.

(Another Killer In) Texas
A nice switch of pace after the previous frenzy but the whole band soon gets busy again, pulling everything together into a ferocious pounding force. Sinister and foreboding the song lurches forward, stalking the listener down the darkened streets. Suddenly cornered and roaring, the killer pounces, your guts are twisting, head exploding. Here it comes again. You’re dead.

Bag
A galloping pace, this one jumps out of the gate and feels like it won’t let up. A break comes a couple of minutes in which allows some breathing space before the anticipated relaunch. A great drum-rolling finale puts the final full stop in the sentence. The bag is broken.

The Wreck of Hope
Is this the opus rock-epic title track? This reverbing intro could go anywhere. Thankfully it dives into a gripping riff-heavy verse and staccato chorus and post bridge these soaring guitars are taking my mind off to faraway places. I’m back now.

Kentucky Nurse
A no-wave guitar freak-out leads this off before we get back to the brutality with an epic guitar sliding riff, flying off a cliff into some dark air. This is bringing me back to the best Chimps’ work.

Lovingstick
Holy ripping intros of death, Batman! Some exceptional noise rocking noise rock, all too brief but nailing each idea to the wall and screaming ‘THIS IS IT’

When Cousins Marry
A creeping pace with some Yow-like whispers, from Jack Brewer no less, before a lovely sax (?) riff gets added to the mix. No chords in sight so far….oh wait – here they are and we’re off, rolling down the freeway, overtaking the Tar Babies on the inside lane, skronking off the turnpike, heading nowhere in particular and without a care. Damn, that drummer is tight, holding the falling bumpers together. Train coming!

Brick Full of Tables
The rhythm section is freaking exceptional I realise by now, having paid too much attention to the guitar tone at first. Ah, this one has a buried chorus I would like to scream into the faces of all the idiots who’ve wronged me. I’ve no idea what they are saying but I’m absorbing the passion. More freak-out guitar before coming together for the chorus again. Time is flying along and I want the songs to last forever. But now we’ve disintegrated together and I’m spent.

There’s lots of great noise rock out there and I can’t quite put my finger on what sets this apart from many of its contemporaries. But, apart it stands.

Favourite songs on this listen: Junior Perkins and Brick Full of Tables.


Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful to go to Game’s new cafe, fulfil, and try new coffee and his wife’s cookies and talked a little to Didi who dropped in. More good coffee in Chiang Rai.


It’s been a good Saturday so far; exercise, coffee, reading more about Slash’s childhood, blogging more poems, a nice drive to a cafe/restaurant for lunch, listening and reviewing the Leopold CD.

The morning sun has disappeared and a grey doldrum has set in that wants me to get out of my room. I still feel content but my mood has deflated. I was going to call Hayden but I don’t have the feeling now. I must do it tomorrow morning.

Co-op – 12th June 2021

The kids are back in school today
Happy to see their friends and play
Looking at their personal screens
Is this what playing together means?

Is co-op play really that social
Why not run around a park that’s local?
But if this is how the future’s set
It’s the best education a kid can get


My random playlist is better than your random playlist

Well, this made for a pleasant afternoon, sometimes listening in the background as I swung in the hammock reading through more Infinite Jest, other times blasting out loudly to shaking fists and sing-a-longs “Our society – what a drag!”

Mother #2 Omoide Hatoba The Public Bath Singles Collection
Forever Government Issue Complete History Vol. 2
Altitude Lake Slift Ummon
Tarpit Dinosaur Jr. You’re Living All Over Me
Mind For Sea (Disc GO: GO Vol. 1) Various Artists Bibliotheque Exotique Volume 4: Musique du “Voo-Doo”
Traum von der goldenen Zukunft (Theme) Kosmischer Läufer       The Secret Cosmic Music of the East German Olympic Program 1972-83: Volume Three
Bright Lights The Pogues Pogue Mahone
Drop Dead Pussy Galore Historia De La Musica Rock
I Spread My Wings Towards You COH     Above Air
Society Subhumans
Another Victory Cypress Hill Skulls And Bones
Midnight Train (demo) The Monkees Missing Links Vol 3
Balladen Om Björnbär Och Nätmelon Kebnekaise Kebnekaise III
God Bows To Math The Bugs Know Best Project Fake: A Tribute to The Minutemen
Dusk Caroliner Rainbow Stewed Angel Skins I’m Armed With Quarts Of Blood
Of Schlagenheim black midi   Schlagenheim
Maailmantekijät Oksennus   Valkoinen jättiläinen
Blitzkrieg Bop (Original Mono, Single Version) Ramones Ramones 40th Anniversary Deluxe Edition
Obsession The Stills Beyond The River
Feeding Evil Sebadoh Freed Weed
Predecessors Expire Secretary So Diabolical
Piledriver Z-Rock Hawaii Z-Rock Hawaii
Crazy Ass Shit Beastie Boys Hot Sauce Committee Part 2
Rebel Truth-Dreams of a Boy Various Artists Charred Remains
Doom Jean Louis Morse
Set Of Crayons Motor Totemist Guild Archive Two
I Don’t Go Back All, The Prae Kraut Pandaemonium 
The Way She Smiled Max Ryan & Where Were You At Lunch     Before We Lose Each Other Again
His is the Acetate Scepter Gapeseed       Project 64
Mummy Wheat Mark Stanley & Farquhar Meadow Full Of Serpents
On a Roll Wipers Silver Sail
Mercy of Slumber Rudimentary Peni Archaic
Sensitive Plant Burnin’ Red Ivanhoe M144
Another Piece VERMINES Killed By Death #100
Nervous Duy Tuxedomoon Scream With A View 12”
These Hands The Damned Machine Gun Etiquette
Song #1 Fugazi 3 Songs EP
Game Over Antelope S/T
Show Me DENNY WARD L.A. In 1979
Leland Shatner’s Bassoon Aquatic Ape Privilege
Heavy [Remix] The Jon Spencer Blues Explosion 1999 – Xtra-Acme USA
Tijuana 3/28/96 Smart Went Crazy Con Art
Pet Dub (Live) Pell Mell The Bumper Crop
No More – Blood And Flowers V German Punk and Wave 1978-1984
Klonopina Jenny Fatale y Los Degolladores Bloodstains Across Puerto Rico
Six and Change (live) Pagans Pink Album Plus!
This Little Girl Hombres Coloured Sights & Sounds – Vol 4
Crack In The Concrete Fred Frith Gravity
(crazy) love beam automatic supper & rabb2 Usagi-Chang Superstar
ud uSSSy Ud
V’Shamru Jon Madof Rashanim
Time Unrest Lisa Carol Freemont
Super ape BLONDnewHALF CLEAN
Opuscul PoiL     L’ire des papes
Three Heads Lindsay Cooper Rarities
مرصد سمرقند كاسيت التاجر التجريبي الأول
Bro. Bill Cactus LP
It’s Not Imagination Gentle Giant Civilian
Forget That Girl [Mix #4] The Monkees Miscellaneous Trax
No Home ZEAHORSE Torana Dreamin
World Looks Red (Live at The Kitchen 1982) Sonic Youth
Savage Sea The Pop Group Y (Rhino Reissue)
Once I Had A Woman Jimi Hendrix
Telethon Archbishop Kebab Beyond Ma Ken
Duchess Barzula Phleg Camp Repeat Until Change
CinChiller’s Over Listen CinChiller Music For Maniacs – Nugglets vol 1
Monday Night Native Orthodox
Chinese White The Incredible String Band The 5000 Spirits Or The Layers of The Onion
The Dungeon Next Life Electric Violence
Big Jesus Trash Can Lozenge Mishap
Les Bonnes Chansons Single Bullet Theory Artifacts/yclept Necroscopix Addenda
Ammunition Train Swell Maps International Rescue
Finger on the Pulse My Dad Is Dead The Engine of Commerce
Rock Around The Clock Cardiac Arrest Eric’s, Liverpool – 13 November 1979
Apples From Eden Creeps on Candy Wonders of Giardia
Last Man The Deviants Disposable
Junk NoMeansNo Small Parts Isolated And Destroyed
Follies Fat Day My Name Is I Hate You
Seethruskin Jawbreaker Unfun
Getting Over You (Spirit) Coffee House Blues Debris Vol. 21 (Various Wimps From The Sixties And Seventies!)
Dance The Night Away Cream Disraeli Gears
Mount Celestia Rolo Tomassi Eternal Youth


Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for this delicious cookie in my mouth that is making my mouth water. Full of butter and macadamias and some fruit I don’t know. I can’t stop eating them and afraid I’m going to fatten up again. Amy is a great chef and I appreciate that very much.