Just desserts – 20th December 2019

Today I found one of the students guiltily copying work of another student. He puts a lot of effort into avoiding working and running around finding someone to copy. That effort could just go into thinking.

When I told the teacher who was teaching them they just shrugged it off as if it didn’t matter and I noticed this made me feel a little miffed and I’m considering why.

I have something against this student due to his laziness and maybe I just wanted him to be punished. On the other hand, maybe the teacher has the right attitude. If the student can only learn to copy then he will discover the appropriate reward in his future.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for the things that made me smile this week. Mostly it was the students, sometimes the cats, always Amy and sometimes myself. I smiled because of the simple things in my life that make me happy.

To-do list

  • Compliment a teacher and the students
  • Clear more emails and tabs!
  • Do something nice for someone.
  • Write to Jochen – same idea as with Aaron.
  • Study some more Thai.
  • Can you meditate today?

Did it list

  • Positive encouragement for students.
  • Stayed calm – only raised voice to be heard.
  • 10,000 steps without realising.
  • Under 81kg today.
  • 30 squats and 30 weightless shoulder presses.
  • Tried to be positive when talking with Boyan.
  • Took time to play with students.
  • Wrote to Jochen.
  • Called and encouraged Ellen.
  • Tried to call Echo.
  • Wrote some more relevant thoughts to Lachlan.
  • Read more online, closed some tabs but opened many more!
  • Cleared many emails.
  • Finished watching Happy!
  • Sorted new music files.
  • Studied a little Thai.

Today I tried really hard to be mindful of the things that I wanted to do. I wasn’t able to achieve all these things but having them in the front of my mind was a good exercise and something I will continue to practice. I gave quite a few students verbal compliments and confidence boosters and it was nice to get some positive feedback from them too. 
I might have to consider streamlining some email lists I’m on as I’m starting to get a little overwhelmed with so many things that I would like to explore.

Delilah – 10th February 1999

Email with TLJ:

T: That reminds me – haven’t seen This Life for ages, but people at work were talking about it last week, and I didn’t know it was on last night (repeats though).

S: I saw a bit of it last night but turned it off as it is crap really! Even though it’s better than most.

T: Anyway, looked at WebTrends again – and it kept not responding then running then not responding again – and CPU usage was very uneven. I copied the log files across to the server – and I think it’s running more smoothly now. I left a report running on it – I’ll check it later – I hope that was the problem.

S: Sounds good. But why would it be a problem across the network. It would be slower but not that slow. Would it be an issue in future? ie will it HAVE to run across the network? If so, then that should be the real test.

T: I’m sooo stupid, Geoff asked if the problem was the processor speed etc, or the fact that it’s running on NT Server, and I stupidly said it could’ve been the fact that it was running on NT Server when I knew darn well that wasn’t it – HOW STUPID AM I??????????????????????

S: It doesn’t matter – knocking Microsoft products is standard practice anyway! What do you think it is then?

T: Anyway, I feel soo stupid now, and now he must think I’m an absolute idiot.

S: I’m sure he thinks you’re damn cute…..

T: But if copying the files across doesn’t speed up the application, then I don’t know what to try next.

S: Let me know what happens….

T: Anyway, I’m kinda hungry and waiting for lunch – I want to go to the Art Gallery again, but not if it’s too wet.

S: I nearly got caught in the rain…..

T:Don’t feel much like having a late night or going out tonight, but will anyway.

S: You don’t have to go – you can just say your night got cancelled and go home if you want? I’m really tired even though i went to bed pretty soon after talking to you.

T: Hope Yvette or Steph don’t ring up tonight – I’m supposed to be out with them. I stupidly forgot – I should’ve said I was going out with uni people, cause they are going to the movies tonight. I’ll see……….

S: Look, don’t worry – just go home – I’ll see you some other time when you are not feeling so tired….

T: Catch ya, Hope work is going well.

S: Work is cool – but my back and necka nd arm are sore…oh and my knee! there’s a place that does massage for ten bucks – I might check it out after I get paid. Not much else here baby. Love ya sweety!
Shauny