I wish I could talk to you more But I forget the words to say Beyond inane pleasantry Engage pleasant insanity
Sometimes forgetting what words are for We grumble and grunt away You know me, I know you At least we both think we do
We tried to share together Get to the nitty gritty Broken formal etiquette Just easier to forget
Now we just discuss the weather That seems like such a pity Communicate turn by turn Connections we must relearn
In Two Minds
I am in control Of the thoughts In my black hole On a roll Or out of sorts Searching for my soul
It’s in my mind Dual thinking Both are blind I cannot find Slowly sinking A life resigned
Truth
Your truth is sitting on that hill Mine elsewhere, a bitter pill But let’s consider, understand And work together, hand in hand
Tokyo*
I wanted to go to Japan But in the end I couldn’t go So I bought a little dog instead And named that good girl Tokyo
*True story of Gui, the owner of my regular coffee shop House
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful to be able to buy and try cheap shoes on Lazada. This morning I received a nice pair which will replace some of my tatty old ones. I still need to find some good inexpensive ones for school though. I don’t wear shoes much here but need good support when I do. I am lucky to be able to try so many different ones.
Record of the week: UK Decay – For Madmen Only LP, Disorder – Under The Scalpel Blade, Chaotic Dischord – 12″
24th September 1984 Watched telly in evening. It’s getting winterier. A definite chill in the air.
25th September 1984 Put in bike for service. Got it back at five. Bloke said I looked after it quite well. Really. It only cost £18 odd. Watched Silent Movie – good. Write a good song. IN TWO MINDS. Waited for the right time to write SHE’S SO BEAUTIFUL….
27th September 1984 Had a go at Jasper for picking on Martin.
28th September 1984 Fuck all happened. Found out Conflict is next Sunday.
He’s the king of his problems He’s on top of it all But for a man so high The chances are he’ll fall Coming home from his work To a refreshing cup of tea He’s drifting into deep sleep From which he’ll wake to a new reality
In two minds – in your home With two minds – you’re never alone In two minds – you’re annoyed With two minds – you’re a schizoid
Wiping the grime from his eyes He’s sure not himself he stands on his two new feet And realises he’s someone else He’s become hyperactive And starts to act like a child Now he’s scared of all around Like the prey of a hungry animal wild
The doctor has been called On the electronic phone And the trap is neatly sprung To entice him to his home And as the doctor inspects The change in his patient’s head A knife is raised With which to strike the doctor dead
And so to the courtroom How do you plead? ‘Madness’ And so he gets away With his acts of badness But his lawyer is dead The jury are too And he’s in two minds About what to do
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