Closer – 14th July 2025

all that’s left to us is hanging here

as a shadowplay to be decoded

an isolation of the atmosphere

the novelty of these days eroded


as another new dawn fades away

the eternal insight is taking shape

a digital transmission on repeat play

divided from joy, we seek our escape


all that’s left to us is hanging here

divided from joy, we seek our escape

I recently listened to the No Dogs In Space podcast’s four-part series on the band Joy Division and though this poem is shared for the W3 prompt of ‘scape’, I couldn’t get away from the word ‘escape’. The first line popped into my head (in reference to lead singer Ian Curtis’ suicide) and then Joy Division song titles flowed forth to fill in much of the rest of the poem. The title is taken from the second and final Joy Division album of the same name and can be understood in either way, to be near something or the end of something.

These pleasures a wayward distraction – 25th June 2020

Quick one because want to do longer meditation. Woke up at 4:30 – hard to sleep. Tired now. Rub my stomach – left-hand side tender. Happy.

Hayden wants a face tattoo. Why? Will further isolate himself. Hope he doesn’t do that. Ugh.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful to have the opportunity to sit and enjoy conversations with people I like.

To-do list

  • Film story in canteen – have fun ✅
  • Silent wishes – compliments – savour ✅
  • ‘Thank you’ mantra and meditation exercises ½
  • Edit and schedule two blog posts ½
  • Plan tenzenmen Google site?

I enjoyed today though have been worrying about Hayden a little as he was talking about getting a face tattoo! Now, in theory, I have no objection to this but I think he cannot reasonably justify doing such a thing. Of course, he tried to justify it but it’s not reasonable. He is low in confidence and self-esteem and wants to push everything away from him.

It’s one thing to say that people shouldn’t judge you by your looks and if they do then they’re not worth knowing – but that is also a judgement back on those people. It would immediately cut off so many future possibilities.

I felt good again and had fun with the student teachers making a small video and planned for some more audio recording tomorrow. It was an entertaining and happy day.