A Happy Fat Cat – 20th November 2023

This project is almost over
Say your farewells and let me go
I’m tired of these waking hours
It’s time I slept
Don’t shed tears, it’s not failure
But a circuit complete
I dream one day to be an eagle
Or a happy fat cat
But now we must let it be

You’re welcome to say a prayer
But save it for yourself
Whisper it to your own ear
And listen to that breath


Today I’m feeling:

Well enough to exercise again but I’m coughing up lots of phlegm and although my throat isn’t too sore from coughing its giving me a headache.

I’m pretty tired after my first class and could easily sleep. At least I finish at 2.30 and can get home and relax for a while.

Today I’m grateful for:

My grade 8 class students slowly maturing, advancing their skills and understanding what I require of them. I’m starting to like them again, despite loving and loathing them!

The best thing about today was:

Finishing writing up two books to blog posts. Now there’s a bit of space in my bag again though there’s plenty more books to go yet.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

My broken tooth is starting to get sensitive and its fricking painful to drink anything cold. My other dodgy teeth seem to also be coming out in sympathy pain too.

I go to the dentist in a couple of days but I don’t think that they will fix it there and then (unless they have a go at pulling it out, which maybe the best option in the end)

Something I learned today?

There’s a lot of volcanic activity in the world at the moment so it seems though perhaps it is just that I’m seeing more of that type of information presented to me. In the same manner it seems to be flooding everywhere that is usually a desert.

Our perceptions are so easily manipulated.

Hey, all is quiet down our street.

Review your acts, and then for vile deeds chide yourself, for good be glad. — Discourses 3.10

I tried to get over my dislike of one of my students by involving him in the class a little more and trying to be firm and consistent when he acts up.

In another class I supported a couple of the struggling readers with some one-on-one time and also tried to broker peace in a quarrel that they were having. 

Amy ordered a new shoe rack which I duly put together with little complaint even though there were other things I wanted to do.

I believe there were no vile deeds today (as per most days now).

What are some of the sources of stress in my life right now?

Not having a visa currently us a little stressful, though in the process of getting sorted out. 

The possibility of not getting paid next month is also stressful especially as I have a few things that require some extra cash, such as getting my teeth fixed again.

Beyond that things are pretty cruisy.

Me and Tulip being stupid last week.Screenshot

A Brief Interest, Fleeting – 13th July 2023

I’ve learned not to fall in love
With each racing of my heart
Each small attention to detail
No longer makes me fall apart

With the little time we have
There’s all the time in the world
I’ll learn to love that first
Before the loving of boys and girls

Inspired, again, by the real-life story of other people via Spinning Visions


Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good in general. Amy flies tomorrow and we will see each other so long as she can make the connecting flight in time.

My day started off well, forcing myself up despite wanting to sleep more and once I got going things all fell into place making for a calm and relaxing day of classes for a change. Sometimes I know the attitude I bring has an effect on how the classes go. Likewise, all the students bring their attitudes too so we throw it all into the stew and sometimes it tastes good and other times not. Because it is Japan Day tomorrow I’ve just been teaching about Japan and the kids already have a lot of exposure and interest so they were mostly engaged with it. 

Today I’m grateful for:

The paper and scissors that were available to my classes that enabled the students to make origami hearts and other origami figures. Luckily many of the teachers were doing the same things so there were lots of items available. Sometimes it can be difficult to scratch around for certain resources.

The best thing about today was:

When the students were making origami hearts I asked them to write inside the name of who they wanted to give it to. I suggested boy/girlfriends and mums and dads but I was happy to find some to teacher Shaun. The 12/13 year-olds can be adorable when they are not being little shits!

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Thailand tried to vote for a PM today but predictably the process has been derailed to try and exclude the one MP that the people of the country voted for. I don’t see it as that much of an issue so long as the government can still be managed more by the party that people voted for but the system here is still dominated by military-appointed members which makes any progress here extremely slow going.

However, I knew this was going to upset Amy and she would see it as another negative point to be upset about. When the subject came up we soon decided not to talk more about it at this time.  

Something I learned today?

In a laughable irony, the UK has passed a more draconian national security law than Hong Kong has. Hong Kong, a place the UK and US have criticised for its strict national security law. The US security law also allows for targeted killings of US citizens in other countries! It is ironic that the paid protesters in Hong Kong have been allowed safe haven in the UK and US where they are now subject to stricter security laws than the ones they were protesting.

What do I like most about myself?

I don’t know how to answer this. The most? The fact that I’m alive? That’s quite enjoyable! 

Maybe that I can connect with kids easily. I don’t consider myself to be a particularly good teacher but feel like I’m a good human for the kids I meet. For most of them that is enough.

Maybe another thing is that I have gained wisdom as I’ve gotten older and I like the current version of me more than the younger version.

I took this picture because my student Tulip enjoyed looking ridiculous, covered in talcum powder and posing for a picture. Playing with powder and water seems to be a thing and it is a little annoying in class but at least it smells nice!