I am so happy and grateful for this book and pen – I can write down my thoughts, feelings and gratitude. Thank you to the shop I bought them from, the people who made them, the people who delivered them. I wonder how many miles they had to travel from start to finish and how many hands they touched around the world.

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Weirdly happy today. Many things to do and I did them easily (maybe I’ve forgotten something) but everything just felt easy today. Is this what ‘normal’ feels like?

I did a few different random acts of kindness. I watched Infinitely Polar Bear yesterday and it was ok – interesting story – it made me think about my own mental health and how some days are good and others bad without any obvious reason.

Today was perhaps and up day but I want it to be a normal average day. Any difficulties that arose I could handle – I’m just confused about what it is I need to do to keep feeling good like this.

I finished my second run through Notes From Underground and really loved the last chapter of The Dream of a Ridiculous Man this time.

I think I forgot to mention yesterday reading an amazing chapter from The Infinite Jest – all about trying and failing to give up smoking pot. It seemed the author could tap into every single thought a person in this position might have. Paragraphs lasted whole pages – it looked intimidating but made perfect sense.

This morning started off with a smile as I tried and failed to shepherd the neighbour’s dog, Tangmo, out of our garden. That dog is so happy and playful.

I also managed to do a couple of sketches for my gratitude cards and whilst not perfect I’m pretty happy with them. All right – good!

To-do list

• Carry on!