When the things you own
Start to own you
It’s time to head to the river
And watch it all float away
Say goodbye to safety
Burn everything that belongs
No thieves can come to spoil
To steal away the heart
When the wind blows away the nest
Or the wolves knock down
All the walls you thought you owned
You see the splendour in new bricks

inspired by the line from Fight Club ‘The things you used to own, now they own you’

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Today I’m feeling:

Relaxed and tired. I enjoyed a sleep-in and feel like I may not make it through the day without a nap but I also feel like my body is recovering faster each Saturday now. I’m grateful for the rest day though more thoughts are coming now about doing exercise because I know more about the benefits through experience. I’m still not quite ready and the holiday will surely set me back but I think it will come one day.

Today I’m grateful for:

My last weed gummy that I bought months ago. I heard that the government has banned weed again though I don’t know how well it will be enforced. All the folks who have invested in it surely won’t switch to another product for a while so I’m guessing it will still be available. While I sometimes like the effects of ingesting weed I’m less bothered about it these days. 

The best thing about today was:

I caved to the nap and it was great! Almost three hours.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

When I got back from Utopia, the sun was poking out so I decided to stick the washing on and hope for the best with the weather. As I hopped into bed for a nap the pitter-patter of raindrops could be heard hitting the tin roof outside. It wasn’t enough to stir me though and a couple of minutes later it had become a deluge and I handled it by falling asleep dreamily to calming sounds.

Something I learned today?

Art will go for a walk up to the Hill Tribe village past the Nang Lae waterfall tomorrow at 6.30 a.m. He invited me, which I’m grateful for, but I prefer to catch up on relaxing the weekend away after my 6 a.m. weekday starts.

What were the highlights of this past month?

I always find these questions difficult because I’m not really seeking highlights but consistent contentment and so if I think back over this month it has been steadily positive and happy. 

My various interactions with my students are foremost in my enjoyment but they come thick and easy during the work days.