One day I’ll go so fast I’ll disappear, I’ll leave a trail of dust behind me – 26th December 2002

Jervis Bay, raining – it looks sad but the rain is good.

But the rain bothered me too. What made me turn around – the nagging doubt of having a good time? The comforts of home? The beer in the fridge? Anyway, the rain is enough of a dampener to truncate this little trip.

14th Mar 2022 – Christmas was never a great time for me when I was living on my own. No one else was around to do things with even though everyone was on holiday. In fact, if I could, I preferred to be working through these holidays, especially if it paid double. Christmas 2002 though I think I spent alone and I decided that on Boxing Day I would go a long drive, seeing if I could get down the coast as far as Victoria.

It was an attempt to dispel the dark within but on this day I couldn’t run far enough before being sucked back to my own familiar comforting hell. Rain played its part and whatever music I had loaded up in the portable CD player wasn’t enough to brighten my mood to continue. So, to home, I returned after a 6 or 7-hour turnaround.

I was hoping to get down to the bottom of this map – but didn’t even make it halfway!

*Nice dreams – 8th June 1998

Email to TLJ:

TLJ
I hope you had nice dreams last night and not an SM nightmare. Are you all finished now? Happy with your work? It was hard to getup and out of bed this morning, just felt like laying in bed and reading comics and drinking cups of tea while the rain beat down on the window…..if I think about it hard enough I’m there. Maybe I’ll use up some more of those sick days. Toodle-oo
Shauny

I know, it can’t stop, I wonder – 25th December 1994

It’s still raining, which everyone is telling us is kind of unusual but at least it’s making the temperature a little more bearable.

We’re picked up by the Smith clan to head the few k’s up to sister C_’s (she’s not a nun, Broni’s sister you fool!). Joel’s running around like crazy showing us all his new toys that got he this morning – he knows it’s Christmas that’s for sure.

I don’t remember too much about today ‘cept I had a romantic time with Broni because I love her to pieces and we both wanted to show and share our love for each other which we haven’t had time enough for over the last couple of weeks,

We start to feel settled again – kind of!