“Everything that needs to be said has already been said. But, since no one was listening, everything must be said again.” – Andre Gide
I’ve learned in my own particular spiritual walk that no expectations is the way to accomplish everything in the world.
Father Michael Lopez
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful that I was able to come home early from school and relax at home yesterday. Nice!
This is my time, I’m gonna own it
Make it happen, make it count
No slave to bosses or obsessions
Our time is of finite amount
Never a minute wasted now
I won’t let them be taken away
When you’re dead, you’re dead forever
And I’ve got things to do today
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful for the experience of eating lunch sitting under our passionfruit vine on a clear blue-skied afternoon, to read in my hammock and just enjoy the day.
I am so happy and grateful to have had the chance to sit quietly in the cafe doing work. Today I won’t be able to do that and I will miss it.
Naturally, last night I went over things in my head many times. I thought about many different questions and defences for my work but by the morning, I decided not to meet and talk more with Kru Nu. I’m certain that any parents’ complaints are just from lazy students and the only reason they complained is because I told them their children are lazy.
I’m still annoyed that the school didn’t support me without finding out any information but that’s the way it is. So, simple solution – don’t tell the parents!
I was hoping that by telling them that it would encourage them to push their kids a little when they are not at school. Maybe it worked for some but others are perhaps convinced that their little princes and princesses can do no wrong. Maybe they even believe the grades they get!
So, I will carry on as is, perhaps making things a little easier of simpler but I will push on with pushing them on. As I told Champ, I’m not really teaching English. Their understanding of English will occur naturally once they see the rewards of work and practice through thinking.
I am so happy and grateful for all the apps I use in the morning. Home Workout, Samsung Health, Yoga and Smiling Mind. How easy is it now to find and follow information for health benefits? We used to have to go to a GP who would just tell you you need to exercise more. I am so lucky to have these tools available to help my life.
Two weeks into March already and I haven’t been back here to write. Have I been busy? Obviously – but with what, it’s difficult to say.
Dylan and Champ asked me how my weekend was this morning and what did I do? I told them that I played with a dog, looked at the sky and watched a tree. They chuckled but I was semi-serious.
Of course, I could’ve told them we took the cats to the vet and had lunch with my in-laws but really that mundane stuff says nothing. When I mentioned watching a tree it sparked thoughts and minor conversation as to its purpose. I said trees are important, to which all agreed but, to watch one?
To be honest, I don’t believe I did watch a tree though I did look at quite a few – some nice gum trees at the cafe where we had lunch. But now I’ve mentioned it I think I will watch a tree and see what I can figure out from it.
The best thing that happened today was talking to some grade 8 students in the canteen and getting them to stop being scared to try to speak English. I also talked with Alice and Kam about next semester’s classes and it was interesting to see how more confident they are since I was teaching them a year and a half ago.
It’s very relaxing at school at the moment as this is the final week for students and no one is seriously teaching. Both students and teachers are very relaxed and happy.
I am so happy and grateful for the cool temperature this morning. Sitting by the river is a nice way to start the day.
This week there’s music from Volcano Suns, Universal Totem Orchestra, The Controllers, The Piranhas, The Hollywood Squares, Rhun, Off Band, The Stains, Dead Milkmen, Ex Models, Dexys Midnight Runners, Dino Valenti, Unknown and Goblin.
Gratitude Journal
I am so happy and grateful for my man cave. Last night we had a problem with our electricity so had to sleep in my room which was cooler and still had aircon.
To-do list
Another easy and pleasant day. I feel like I could do the things listed but didn’t fully invest myself in them.
*Amy interrupted my writing and I didn’t get back to it in the end – so, now it’s Monday.
With nothing to do at work now it’s becoming challenging to stay focused. Still, we’re getting paid and not being asked to work. It’s okay for now; enjoy it while you can.
Sleepy day at work after drinking two beers last evening. Probably not eating enough at the moment either. Would like to stay under 80kg if possible but think I may need to increase my calorie intake if I try to do much/any exercise. Should drink more water too. I never drink enough water.
Email with TLJ
S: Sweety, can you give me Ren’s number sometime so she can come over and have a look at this video equipment. When do you think I might get to meet Tom again too. He was gonna lend me Grateful Dead. Hope yr having a beautiful day. It would be much sweeter if you were here.
T: so you’re going to call her – or me? i’m sure she’ll wonder if you call her – and all my friends already think you’re a weirdo for mailing/icquing/ringing them out of the blue. you leave my friends out of this. joking babe.
good sleepy-pies to you, love and kisses, your fan Tracky-Dacks
S: You gonna explain about Saturday to me? I’ll call you anytime sweetheart. Do you think she will think it strange that I call her – do you wanna speak to her first? Have you spoken to Di – I haven’t heard from her since (whenever it was).
Oh, I’m still a weirdo I suppose. Look’s like the lab job may not happen – Damn.
Pash me baby
T: I’m really sorry about the lab job – truly. keep a look out though, cause i’m sure something will come up.
sorry babe, hope i can make you feel better – and i really do love you – 200% truthful.
S: It may still happen it’s just that Joe thinks they may be forced to take on two particular people – but it’s possible they may not want to take the job. We’ll have to wait and see. Something will come up – just gotta think positive. How’s Nat today? You do make me feel better – always. thanks
S: My masseur said she went to see that guitarist you went to see (I can’t remember his name – gregorian or something) She said she couldn’t enjoy it because he was trying too hard and didn’t look like he was enjoying himself – not until the encore did he relax.
Come massage me babe. I’m missing your tender hands.
T: i don’t know how hard it would be to relax playing as fast and as hard as he did – but i suppose a masseur would really notice those things. mail me babe, tlj
S: It was probably more that she couldn’t relax because she could feel that he wasn’t enjoying it because he had to work so hard? I’m missing you loads sweety. You still haven’t told me what’s happening Saturday. Are you going to Marty’s or to the girls? Explain me please – you gorgeous young filly!!!
We gotta catch up soon I’m dying for a hug!
Well today I’m tense as all hell. Muscles knotted up tighter than Rollins and his band. What to do to relieve the pressure?
To finish off yesterday’s summary, the party at Kerry’s soon degenerated into sombreness and I watched the football in the other room most of the time (me being sober too). After five months of not drinking Kerry really went for it but got pissed sad instead of pissed happy – I hope she learns from it that maybe drinking isn’t such a good idea all the time! She’s sensible though and I think she’ll work through all her sorrows (her dad recently departed) and not drink her way through them.
And Broni was shattered from working far too hard again. I took her down the park and watched her face light up excitedly when I let her drive the van, hence the continuation of tenseness.
This waiting period for us is very hard and I hope we will overcome any problems that arise easily and quickly and hope the change over to another country makes us happy (goddamn, all the mega changes in our life – happening in the next six months – only two and a bit months left now).
Must try to relax and let myself go a bit. I know this for fucks sake. More later.
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