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*The Week That Was – 16th July 1984

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Record of the week: Subhumans – Apathy (live) Heroes (live), Atrox (live), Self Abuse – Loose (live)

16th July 1984
Got up. Had to go to town cos Mum wants me to get some shoes. Saw (?). Shopped around. Came back. Mum said I got wrong shoes. Jez came over. Did PCH stuff. He went on. Went to Greg’s. My bike got stolen but he’s gonna pay for it anyway. Got £10. Came back. Finished PCH for tomorrow.

17th July 1984
Jez woke me up. He’s skiving work. He’s got the day off but hasn’t told Dragon. Mum took me to town. Jez came in on his bike. Went to school. Came back. Got clothes and all sorts. Went to Job Centre. Got PCH done. Came back. Went to Jez’s, had a game of snooker at club. Went to Holloway’s. Came back. Don’t know.

18th July 1984
Went for a job at 10. Came back. Bloke rung at 12 said I hadn’t got it. Can’t remember a bloody thing. I think I talked to Dandy for a while. We’re getting on all right. Hope something comes of it. Apart from that, god knows what happened.

19th July 1984
Can’t remember any of today. I think I went to town for some reason. Went to see Void last night who were quite good. No one danced much though. Got some (?) today. Went home. Having a piss-up tomorrow. Down at the wood.

20th July 1984
Jez came over. We went up to school. Got chucked out by Doc Farthing. What a wanker. Went down town. Got PCH done. Put one in Square Records. Went to Poole. Got some photos. Came back and put another on a fence. Came back. Went to Wimborne twice to get all booze. Had a fuckin’ rave-up. Came back at 2.30.

21st July 1984
Got up at 9.30. Went out without breakfast. Had a fucking laugh with everyone. We fed Martin all sorts of shit for a fag. Came back at 4. Had breakfast and tea. Went out again. We went to Houldey’s. Had a laugh. Beki was in a good mood for a change. Went to Greg’s. Came back.

22nd July 1984
Got up 10.30. Ben may not be coming tonight. Looks like Jez may not be as well. Pissed around all day. Not doing anything. Rung Jim. Went to his place. Picked up Wayne, Dodds and Vince. Went down and got some booze. Jim and Roo turned up. Got in. A version of The Mad Are Sane played. Atrox were good. Self Abuse were good. Subhumans were magic. Came back. 5 people died in a car accident yesterday near Horton.

*The Week That Was – 9th July 1984

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Record of the week: Organised Chaos (live), Cult Maniax – No More Beach Boys

9th July 1984
Got up. Went to school. Took the books back. Saw a few teachers there. Went down to Wimborne. Went to careers shit crap. Saw Jim. He’s coming over on Wednesday. Burd came over. We eventually found someone with some booze. Me and Muz got absolutely smashed.

10th July 1984
Went to Sharon’s. Not doing painting which pissed me off. Put dirt in a wheelbarrow and took it down garden. Rubbing down a couple of posts. Came back. Got ticket for Friday if it’s on. Met Jez, went to Ben’s. Did some taping. I came back. Watching a shit film.

11th July 1984
Got up. Jim came round. Listened to records for a while. Took dog. Went down shop. Then back. Jim rode my bike around. Went to Murray’s. I went and got a video. Watched it at Muz’s. American Werewolf in London. Jim went on. I had tea. Went to see Bernice. Came back. Don’t know what else I done. Suppose I went to sleep.

12th July 1984
Went to Sharon’s. Did this and that. Got wet. Sharon had a moan. I felt like telling her to piss off. Did more odd jobs in the afternoon. Came back. Started typing up PCH booklet. Did that all fuckin’ night. Can’t remember anything else. Whether anything happened or not I don’t know.

13th July 1984
Got up. Went to town. Got photocopying done of lyrics and some photos. Went down Poole. Left bike at Justin’s. Got coach. Got to Warminster. Got drunk on the way. Gig was an hour late. Self Abuse – good. Organised Chaos – excellent. Cult Maniax – good. Didn’t see much of the Subhumans cos had to catch coach. Walked up to Justin’s, rode home. Got back about 3.

14th July 1984
Malcolm Owen d. 1980. Got up. Felt fuckin’ knackered. Lounged around all day. Decided to go at 6. Went to Bernice’s. Went down pub cos there was some do on. John Lines bought me a drink. We then got 4 cans. Lines only wanted one. I went to Holloways. Got some photos. Had a drink. Came back. Was dark. That’s life.

15th July 1984
Got up. Lounged around again. Jez came over. I told him about my idea for a fanzine – he says he’ll help. He’s coming over tomorrow. He went on. Talked to Muz for a while. Came back. Doing PCH booklet. Went to sleep. Good weekend really.

*The Week That Was –11th June 1984

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Records of the week: Big Fat Beast – Roses are Red…, Pregnant Combine Harvesters – SDC rip-off job

11th June 1984
Got my mum’s record player yesterday – plays records at right speed now. Went into Wimborne. Saw Hatchard – the cunt. Saw Simon. He got me some fags. Came back. Went down track. Came round then Hinton Martell. Saw Carly who nicked some fags for me. Called for James S. Had a chat. Said I’ll buy Greg’s bike. Me and James went for a ride around. Still got back in time for Hill Street Blues.

12th June 1984
Got up at 10.30. Didn’t do much as usual. In fact, all I can remember is going over Jez’s. Went for game of snooker in which I won haha. Came back to watch the Young Ones which was pretty good. After that, I did practically fuck all but I must fill up these spaces, mustn’t I?

13th June 1984
Fucking alarm shocked me out of sleep. Fuckin’ maths exam. Piss boring. Managed to write six poems in front of Granny Gray. Came back. Had a bath. Took dog. Went down track. Filling in bits now, making it better. Came back for tea and went down again. Built a fucking massive fire and burnt some of the rubbish down there. England 0-2 Uruguay

14th June 1984
Got up, pissed around. Me and Jez were running around looking for Ben. Jez came over. We loaded stuff into car and mum took us over to Dominic’s. Left stuff there. Me and Jez walked to Verwood. I got slightly drunk on the way. Went to Goober’s. His mum took us back, started practicing. Went out, came back. Went in pub, got something to drink. Mum collected us and told me I had a job tomorrow.

15th June 1984
Got up at 6.15. Went to Lorna’s. Me and Stewart went to a house. Stripped a couple of windows. Ate sandwiches with Bob (?). He took us to Verwood where I was shifting blocks. Got 6 quid off Bob. Got 3 off Stewart. Came back. Went down to see James. We decided not to go and see Vicki so I stayed there and watched Class of 1984 which was ok. I’m sure Jello Biafra was in it. Also saw Airplane II.

16th June 1984
Got up 11.30. Went to Wimborne. Got the Entity which I’ll watch at James’ tonight. Took it to their place. Had a chat. Came back. Took dog. Went back to Wimborne. Got Sounds. Had a chat with some people. Roggo(?) got a tattoo. Came back. Watched telly til 8.15. Went down to Gaunts. Went to James’. Took us about an hour to get the video to work. Watched the Entity which was good.

17th June 1984
Got up 11.30. Fuckin’ knackered for some reason. Rung Jez. He came over. Rang Ben twice but he wasn’t there. Went down to Winton. Vince, (?), Dodds, Jim, Roo, Jez and me went. Self Abuse played bloody good. Madmass were bloody good as well. Cult Maniax also good. I didn’t stop dancing. Rupert was being a big fuckin’ prick. Came back. Took Vince back. He says he’ll drum for us.

*The Week That Was – 21st May 1984

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Record of the week: Confessions of Sin – Confession, Self Abuse – Loose, PCH – (This is not) Call The Cops
Record of the month – Subhumans LP, Confessions of Sin (live)

21st May 1984
Was going to start The Scar last night but started it today instead. Read half of it then watched film – which was ok. Had a bath. Then went to Houldey’s. They were setting up their new suite. Came back. Rang Paul. Talked for a while. Found out Zoe rang, said she’d ring again tomorrow. Watched Hill Street Blues. Read some more then went to sleep.

22nd May 1984
Decided not to go to school. When I woke up I started reading book. Finished it at 4 o’clock. It was a good book. Haven’t been doing anything otherwise. Went to Houldey’s. Found out Kathryn will go out with me when she’s finished with whoever. Zoe rang and apologised for Saturday. Dunno what else I did. Drew In Execlsis on my wall. Went to sleep.

23rd May 1984
Woke up early for some reason. Jez came round at about 10. Jim came at 10.30. Drew things on wall. Decided to do some PCH. Went to Houldey’s. Only Beki was there. I came back and got some sugar. Took our tape back and played it. Came back and did some more PCH. Came in. Jim and Jez went. I went to Houdley’s. Went to get some petrol. Came back. Came back. Went to Jez’s. Had a shit game of snooker. JC was there – cunt. Went to Ben’s. Went to a barn (?) on my bike. Came back. Spurs won UEFA Cup on penalties. Film was shit.

24th May 1984
Woke up about 10.30. Took dog. Went to Wimborne. Saw Liz eh. Got haircut. Bought some paints and gel. Came back. Went to Houldey’s. Had a chat with Beki. Came back. Wrote some of book. Didn’t do fuck all. Went to Jez’s. We went to Ben’s, spent ages trying to find him. He was with Harrison. Recorded tape to tape – stuff for Crass. We left at 10. I got back at 10.30. Dunno what I did but it must’ve been good.

25th May 1984
Woke up. Got letter from Zoe. Photos returned – so I decided to take them back to Bernice. Went to Wimborne – she weren’t home. Went round town. Saw a few old faces but not Bernice. Went to Jim’s. They’d just left to go to Poole. Left photos at Jim’s. Came home. Went to Jez’s to get money he owed me. Went to Houldey’s. Good news. Kathryn will go out with me. I think I was supposed to ring her but I’m not sure. Came home. Rang Paul and Andy. There’s a gig tomorrow at the squat but I can’t go. Went to sleep.

26th May 1984
Woke up. Watched TV. Was going to go to Wimborne but couldn’t be fucked – too wet. Got petrol and paper. Finished another book – Tarotown. Watched England V Scotland (1-1). Started Beast on my wall. Went to Houdley’s, no one there apart from Mr. H. Came back. Started painting the Beast’s head. Finished at about 11.20 – looks fuckin’s superb. Pissed off cos I can’t get Kathryn’s phone number. Watched film – Harry In Your Pocket – good.

27th May 1984
Woke up 12.10. Did fuck all. Had a bath. (?) went to get cat for Lorna. Stewart gave my mum a fiver – I had £2. Ben came over. His mum took us to Jim’s. Jum’s old man took us down to Winton. Pissed around for an hour. Got tickets off Andy. Cinema was a pit. Takano – ok. COF – fuckin’ brilliant. Self Abuse – brilliant. Got chucked out of a pub. Mum collected us. Took Jim back. Ben stayed the night.

*The Week That Was – 23rd April 1984

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Records of the week: The Damned – Curtain Call, Minutemen – Politics of Time LP, Self Abuse – EP

23rd April 1984
Woke up. Got bored. Roo came round. Played records. Took dog (for a walk). Went to Houldey’s. Went to track. Met everyone. Came off bike, did the steering in. Came back. Rang Zoe – she wasn’t home. Roo went home. I went out. Went down BMX track again. Bought some fags for them lot. Went back to Houldey’s and played pool. Mini – Beki’s boyfriend came round. Came back – watched Hill Street Blues. Read book. Had a wank. Fell asleep.

24th April 1984
Can’t remember a lot of what happened today. Had to take their dinner in. Took dog. Went down BMX track, pissed around, came back. Zoe rang – chatted for a while. Went down club. Burd beat me at snooker. Watched this and that. Fell asleep.

25th April 1984
Got up. Rang Burd. He came over. Took both bikes down the BMX track, had a laugh on them. Went to Houldey’s. Came back. Went to Burd’s. Got bottle of milk and petrol. Went to club. Got fags and crisps. Went to Gussage. Went to sexy Sue’s. (Ron’s them Goobers??). Went to Hinton Martell. Saw James. Went to a barn. Wimborne Football Club. Couldn’t sleep anywhere.

26th April 1984
Went to Rec. Went to barn near Rupert’s. Built walls of hay. At about 3 am we started building a roof. Went to sleep at 4 am. Woke up at 5 am. Went out for a fag. Went back in, plugged all the holes up and sat in the dark. Heard noises so scarpered. Went to Rupe’s – broke a gate. Went to Witchampton bus shelter. Burd went home. So did I. Went to sleep at 10 am. Woke up at 6 pm. Burd rang. Zoe rang.

27th April 1984
Woke up. Pissed around. Went down track. Burt and Jasp came down. Then Scott. Then Jamie. Four of us went to Stanbridge. Met Carly and Priscilla. Got some fags for Priscilla. Came back. Went back to BMX track. Came back. Rung Burd. He came over and decided to stay. Went to Houldey’s, had a game of pool. They went for a walk so we chased them. Went down to the BMX track in dark. Came back. Rang Zoe earlier. Had a chat. Pissed around in my room. Got to sleep about 2 am.

28th April 1984
Woke up at 9. Burd wouldn’t let me sleep. He went at 10. Took dog. Went to BMX track. Watched Holt lose 5-0 or something. Came back. Zoe rang – talked for an hour. She’s finished with Andy. Watched telly all night whilst pissed around with Art. Been pretty depressed today. Must be missing Zoe.

29th April 1984
Not cheered up much. Went down to track. Started a new bit of track round the back. Came back. When I went to ring Zoe, kept getting a number in Coventry. Managed to get through by the operator. Had a chat with Zoe. Can’t remember owt else. Did more on the wall.

*The Week That Was – 16th April 1984

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Record of the week: Ian Dury – Sweet Gene Vincent, The Mob – Let The Tribe Increase LP, Self Abuse – Soldier, Sex Gang Children – Mauritia Mayer

16th April 1984
Couldn’t get to sleep. Only about 3 hours. Mum had a laugh at us sleeping together, stayed in bed with Zoe most of the day. We went to Wimborne and both spent her money. Met Jim who was looking for Bernice. Came back on bus. Zoe didn’t feel too well. Got back into bed. Jim came round. Took some photos. Sat and talked. Me and Zoe got up to things while Jim was singing the Jam. Still couldn’t get to sleep. Eventually did.

17th April 1984
Got 7 hours sleep. Mum came up to wake us up. Huh. Got up. Burd came round. Did some songs with drums. Rupe came along. Took some photos. Jim went. Came back in. Did this and that. Jim came back. Muz came round. Me and Zoe went into other bedroom. Them lot came in doing moonies. Zoe weren’t feeling too well again. Went down the rubbish dump – ‘ad a laugh. All sorts happened – some too rude to mention. Put on DOA.

18th April 1984
Got 4 hours sleep. Woke up Rupe. Watched breakfast TV. Woke Jim and Burd up who slept in the other room. Went out, took some photos. Took Zoe down to Bournemouth. She got on bus. Went back to Wimborne. Met Jim, Burd and Rupe. Jim went on. We went to Dan’s. Bernice ill. Met Jim again. Went to Dan’s. Went round Wimborne. Met this girl who fancied Roo. Hung a tampon on a tree. Pissed around (?) Rupert to this girl. Came back on bus. Really missing Zoe. Still got a buzz from the last couple of days. Had a chat to Zoe on the phone – both unhappy.

19th April 1984
Woke up 11. Played Zoe’s favourite records. Had an apple. Can’t stop thinking about Zoe. Took dog (for a walk). Did some art for my exam. Drew Zoe. Wrote a decent poem. Waiting for Zoe to ring at 6. 6.30 – she hadn’t rung so I rang her. She wasn’t there. Went out to play drums. Zoe rang. We talked for about 50 minutes. I was glad to hear her voice. Went to Burd’s. Roo was there. Went down bus shelter. Talked about the party. Rung Roo’s girl up – had a laugh. Came home. Played Mauritia Mayer and Christian Death.

20th April 1984
Woke up. Gave my mum card and presents. Read book. Ate food. Went to Houldey’s. They gave me some wine. Came back. Dandy and Becky came in. Then went. Zoe rang – thank god. I’m really missing her. Talked for a while. Went to Houldey’s later again. It was Mr H’s birthday today as well. Came back, put on Christian Death with strobe and Mauritia Mayer.

21st April 1984
Got up. Fucked around. Decided to go to Poole. So went to see Pam who’s doing alright. Saw Dusty. Went down Poole. Saw Justin. Saw Lisa and her mate – went to park to drink cider. Came back. Zoe rang. Had a chat. Can’t stop thinking about her. Went to Houldey’s I think, I dunno. Came back. Watched Woody Allen – fucking good film. Can’t remember anything else.

22nd April 1984
Got up – practised drums. Ate food. Rang Zoe – had a nice chat. Had a bath – I was smelling a bit, and went to Houldey’s – took Mauritia Mayer. Went down BMX track. Met Jamie and Burty. Went back to Houldey’s. Came home. Went back – cleaned Beki’s window. Took record back. Went down BMX – had a laugh. Bought some fags. Went to Houldey’s. Came back. Watched film. Made semolina. Went to bed.