More Alone – 18th February 2024

Everyone has gotten access
All the words ever written
Pictures painted, songs sung
Fifty bazillion millisecond process
No bugs to be bug bitten
The shutdown has begun

Standing in the matrix queue
A beta-meta icon version
Presses three after the tone
There’s nothing left to do
In this world’s perversion
Except to feel more alone

inspired by this post (before finishing reading) at Spinning Visions
2nd May 2024 – Submitted to FOWC with Fandango — Alone


Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good and upbeat.  

Got up soon after my alarm, grabbed coffees and then spent a good few hours in my room, adding blog entries, reading and playing guitar.  

I was glad to go out and do something different yesterday though I wasn’t particularly excited being at the balloon festival.  

I’m not particularly excited by much these days to be honest but I am happy and that’s more important.

Today I’m grateful for:

Air quality being better than this time last year.  It’s still not great but can only hope that it doesn’t get worse.  

The next week will tell the tale as temperatures rise up to 37 degrees again.

The best thing about today was:

Not taking a nap and having a feeling of not wasting a weekend day.  It was pretty relaxed but I got some stuff done so I’m pretty happy with everything.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Not something that was out of my control but it was midday before I remembered that I hadn’t taken my medicine today.  As I was in my room I figured I’d take it when I got back inside but forgot again.  

By mid-afternoon, I felt a little dizzy when I got up from my chair but figured that I’d made it this far without the medicine that I’d just skip it for today.  

Dizziness is the main side effect of not taking it and it’s not like I will drop into a funk just by missing one day.

Something I learned today?

Hayden is in New York.  He and his girlfriend were driven down through snow from Canada for 6-7 hours to get there.  

They are wrapped up and enjoying New York pizza.

Review your acts, and then for vile deeds chide yourself, for good be glad. — Discourses 3.10

I sent a message to Baipad this morning offering to come and teach her today if she wanted.  I didn’t get a reply but I would’ve been happy to if she would have liked.

I was reminded of Baipad later in the evening when reading some blog post about inspiring self-confidence in children helps make them happier adults.  In these days of mobile devices as parent substitutes, I wonder what will inspire self-confidence?

I took this picture because this is Tangmo. The dog’s bollocks.

The Real Secret – 29th January 2023

Six million years of work went into this
I know it seems weird to explain
There’s no magical shortcut or formula
To access the power within your brain

inspired by Robert Greene’s Daily Laws


Today I’m feeling:

A little more clear-headed and positive.

Today I’m grateful for:

My hairdresser and her Kim Chi lookalike cat, that rolled and rubbed whilst I waited my turn. The hairdresser cuts my hair as I ask no matter how stupid it seems to her. I can fix it with gel and time as I like. I’m glad she tidies up the back and sides and even trims the hair in my ears, which does make it difficult to pull them out whilst I’m waiting in traffic but never mind, I still appreciate it.

The best thing about today was:

Watching a Chinese movie called Better Days which was pretty good and I’m glad of the fact that I was able to watch it all in one go which I’ve been finding difficult recently as I find myself getting bored more quickly with things these days perhaps victim of the TikTok quick hits of dopamine that the youth are enjoying.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

The dirty floor is out of control and I’ve handled it by ignoring it. Next weekend Aing and Now will come and stay on Sunday so I know I will have to clean on Saturday so I’m waiting until then if I can bear it.

Something I learned today?

I watched Jordan Peterson talking about his employer asking him to attend social media reeducation classes which sounds a little odd. He’s a health expert ( I can’t remember exactly what) and sometimes posts online about things unrelated to his job such as politics.

I suppose the things he says could impact his employer by association if they were some form of hate speech and it seems like there are some folks out there who are so easily offended these days that that is what they think it is. It seems gone are the days of differing ideas and opinions.

Since the Twin Towers were destroyed you are either with us or against us, no matter what. Bin Laden has achieved exactly what he wanted as Western capitalist democracies eat themselves from the inside with this attitude.

I try to be sensitive to everyone’s opinion unless I really do find it hateful but most people’s ideas are born from ignorance or circumstance.

What is my biggest dream for the year ahead?

A lot of this type of question in January. My biggest dream is to live to see next January. A lot can happen in a year. Dream? I don’t know. I’m comfortable, I have all I need.

I took this picture because I heard Kim growling whilst I was reading in bed. It’s unusual for her to growl so I got up and found this. I don’t know who brought it in. From nose to tail, this ex-rat was longer than Kim’s body.