River Of Sorrow – 10th February 2024

When the bottle was empty of pills
There’s no time left to grow
Amongst so many ills
It’s the bitterest one to swallow

When the son takes the rope
Believing there’s no place to go
Those left now to cope
Traverse the river of sorrow

When attention wasn’t sought
And she suddenly became the show
Life is no longer a thought
Slipped into the undertow

So pass the many hours
That survivors will never know
And drift away the flowers
Along the river of sorrow


Today I’m feeling:

Fuzzy and weird. After a delicious afternoon nap yesterday I got into reading comics so much in the evening that I was up just past midnight. I shoved down some medicine in the hope of waking up flu-free and slept reasonably well until 11. I do feel better but fuzzy around the edges, eyes unable to focus 100%.

Today I’m grateful for:

Matt for buying me a drink and giving me half a pack of tramadol after running across to Central.

The best thing about today was:

Seeing live music in Chiang Rai. Punk, hardcore, metal! Who’d’ve thought?

Something I learned today?

A Wall Street Journal report says Iran is having trouble reining in “Iran-backed militias” and offers one reason why: The US killed the guy who was good at reining them in!

I took this picture because this was the venue for the show before dark. The sound inside wasn’t fantastic due to the stage being shoved in the corner which is circular. This made for some wild and interesting sound distortions from the guitars though.

Survivors – 28th May 1988

*Woke up this morning, rubbed the dust from my eyes
Had to live again the life I despise
No use pretending I was born free
I was given eyes, but they’re not to see
Drew back the curtains to view the outside
And to my disbelief, I realised the world had died
Couldn’t understand why I was alive
And there was no one to hear my fear-fraught cry*

Been through pain and back again
We’ll survive to the end
Seen the hate confronting me
I will not concede

You’ll feel alive if you can survive

What you always wanted to be
Too hard to believe
Take your chance to be free
You will achieve

You just can’t convince me now
I have the right to feel so proud
You just can’t control my mind
I’m taking back what was always mine

*These lyrics were originally written by someone in Atrox (possibly Charlie Mason) for the song Is This Tomorrow…?