I don’t know what I believe anymore
The fence gets more comfortable every day
The Holocaust, massacres and genocides
Did they really happen that way?

Is it all a facade, my own Truman Show?
Is the grass actually greener over there?
To discover my world was built on lies
I wish to remain blissfully unaware

Now reality assaults me at every turn
Left guilty and helpless at the pain
Paralysed by the bystander syndrome
The fence is where I choose to remain

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Today I’m feeling:

Pretty good, though not enough sleep as we were up and in a rush to get to Chiang Mai.

Almost 1pm and only now getting my first coffee! I’m a little tired and thirsty and it’s sticky hot.

(Later) The coffee and Kao Soi lunch (not a good taste combo) kicked my ass and I felt great as we drove around and then up to the Doi Suthep temple, where we took photos and wandered around.

After that, though we all felt heat-tired and we drove to our hotel for a quick air-conditioned break before heading out to the night market.

Health:

Physical: 7
Mental: 7

Today I’m grateful for:

A safe journey from home to Chiang Mai despite all the roadworks and dodgy roads. Amy treated Almy to a wash just after we picked up her old flatmate, Crisia, from the airport.

The best thing about today was:

Feeling happy and playful with Amy after the coffee kick and then driving up the mountain to get a view all across Chiang Mai.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Amy complained and whined a lot as we were driving this morning and it was just about things that she had no control over, so I didn’t feel inclined to say anything and just felt amused.

Something I learned today?

Lanna means ‘a million farms’. This made me realise that it is a good way to remember that ‘lan’ is the word for million (not that I have much use for this word!)

Review your acts, Good and bad.

I’m sorry to the lady who tried to help me at Tops with the self-serve machine. There were so many steps to be able to pay by QR code and it was only 36 baht, that I decided not to bother buying anything. I wasn’t upset or anything but Amy said that I should at least say ‘Thanks for helping and don’t worry about it’ to the staff. She was right.