I hope your day is grand
Goes as you have planned
It’s the thing to do
But I still don’t love you

It’s a past we shared
When once we cared
But yesterday is through
And I still don’t love you

I wrote a broken ode
Broke the unspoken code
I’m thinking of you
But still don’t love you

inspired, but not connected, by part of this post at Spinning Visions

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Today I’m feeling:

Happy again but a little tired now that I’m home and have eaten some food. I will try to sleep earlier tonight I think. I say that now but I often end up late again!

Today I’m grateful for:

The fruit-flavoured toffees that I can buy at Big C and no doubt fuck up my fillings. I will take a packet to Hayden so he can fuck up his fillings too.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Today I found out that one of my students, Feije, has been expelled from school. I could sense that something was up with her recently and tried to reach out to her but she said everything was fine. I saw her falling asleep in other classes and she would often skip mine with excuses that her friends said weren’t true.

Her friends were sad that she has gone. They told me that she had posted pictures on IG of herself drinking beer. I told them that she was stupid for doing that. Her friends wanted to protect her but they also knew that I was right.

Amongst all the kids in her class, there were plenty of others that I would’ve expected to have discipline issues first.

Something I learned today?

I read about Gregory Sadler who has 377 videos on YouTube about his reading of Hegel’s Phenomenology of Spirit. He started in 2015 and finished this week. He is also considering reading it again!

What do I remember about a recent dream I had?

Dreams are evasive when trying to force them back into memory. I know that I woke up last night needing to pee but whatever I was dreaming about had given me an erection that made it extremely difficult to point downwards into the bowl. It was still dark and I wanted to get back to sleep as soon as I could but had to wait and then bend it as much as possible. I’m not sure what the dream was but I seem to remember thinking that it was something affectionate rather than sexual. I didn’t have any trouble getting back to sleep but also don’t recall any new dreams that I might’ve had.