The Fallen City – 27th August 2021

This forbidden love wasn’t designed to last
We both realise that now it’s gone
The savage betrayals, a reflection
As the threads of hope all come undone

It’s a timeless story, always repeated
Because passions cannot be denied
Dreams of forever just fall apart
Ever quicker the more it’s tried

The victims suffer the recognition
As their cities of dreams are burned
Eyes open to once blinding mistakes
A war from which much was learned


Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful to my mother who somehow managed to instil in me an interest in reading, which I fought against for many years – not on purpose but just interested in other things instead.


Starting writing in a fresh new book is a nice feeling. As was finishing up on the last page of the previous book.

Life feels somewhat in a holding pattern at the moment. Maybe time to get myself into doing something different in my spare time, which really just means adding more things to do and having less and less spare time, but that is my privileged status that I need to learn to enjoy.

It was great to see Amy happy, busy and productive yesterday as she has found a quiet niche for baking cinnamon scrolls that look and taste amazing. As soon as pictures went on Facebook, people started asking to order. I think it’s better for her to be concentrating on this whilst it’s fresh for people and can inspire her on to more for future cooking endeavours.

As we both always say, we are lucky to have many different options available to us.

Look! – 17th February 1999

Email with TLJ:

TLJ: Thanks for the html stuff babes.

S: Hosemobile weren’t playing last night in the end! Drum fucked up the dates.
TLJ: So when are they playing – sat and sun? and with the same bands??? same venues??

S: They’re playing tonight at the Iron Duke and Sunday at the Globe. I’ll probably go to the Globe on Sunday. Not sure who’s supporting – it just says Special Guests.
Luckily we found out before going. The girl Craig is practicing with, Bronwyn, was there and her boyfriend Troy. They’ve only been here since Jan 4th – from Virginia, USA.

TLJ: What does the girl do? is she the guitarist/singer – have you heard her? is she good?

S: She plays guitar – it’s just guitar and drums -no bass – sounds interesting. Not sure if she sings – maybe. We could ask them tomorrow.

TLJ: Yuri rang – his birthday dinner is 20th Feb (i hope we haven’t planned anything that day).

S: Are you taking the 19th off?

TLJ: Started to read Kabuki last night but I’d better start from the beginning – so you’ll have to lend me them ok?

S: Did it look good? I’ll lend you them for sure – you know that babes. I know you’ll look after them.

TLJ: Oh, and Laura gets back this morning – so i’m planning on meeting Mich after work – I was supposed to go to see “Shakespeare in love” with school friends, but if laura’s coming over for dinner tonight (her parents are coming), then i’ll skip the movie and see if mich wants to come home with me and laura, mich and I can catch up.

Sound like a good plan?? Sounds like a great plan. I’ll be catching up on some ZZ’s tonight. Hey – I saw fireworks at Darling Harbour last night – was near chinatown – was kinda difficult to see – I was driving past – but may have been to do with CNY.

TLJ: So i probably won’t see you tonight – i thought you may be going to that gig but i guess not.

S: I’ll miss you babes – I wanna pour more water over you!

TLJ: mail me

S: No – oh all right!

TLJ: There was this real dickhead, sleazy guy on the train who thought he was sooo cool, and he was trying to chat up this girl and her friends whom I think he met yesterday (well, that’s what i figured from my eavesdropping – it wasn’t really eavesdropping though, he was speaking so loud, i’m sure he wanted everyone to hear him). He wanted to go out with one of them, but he already knew one of them. He was sooo pathetic – got to tell you all about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

S: Chinese New Year Celebrations sounds like next weekend – I’m not sure. I’ll go down on Saturday anyway. I’m stuffing myself with last nights dinner – it’s delicious – gets better after a day in the fridge! I’m so tired – i can’t wait to go to physio and have a nap!
Love you angel breath

S: I got here at 7.10 and there’s no parking spots and I swiped a barrier and dented my car!!!!
And just as I was writing that – my boss comes and asaks what I’m doing around March 7th for a week – I’m thinking oh shit what’s all this??? Anyway BMC who make the product I work with are offering to pay for me to go and get some training in Houston Texas!!!!!
Oh man………

S: I can’t get that song Crossbone Style out of my head…..AAARRRGGGHHHHH
“I have seen some unbelievable things……”
Man -I’m shitty about my car……but stoked about Houston! You got any money…….?

TLJ: Don’t have any money – but you still got to do some Duty Free shopping ok? Oh yeah – should I get myself a camera? I guess i’ll miss you. Not too many asian girls in houston though. will you cope?? Tracs

S: I’ll miss you like crazy baby!!!! Can you come with me???? I’ll be calling you…..