Game Over – 7th February 2022

Sat in slumber with a bent neck
Focused on the flashing lights
Like waiting for the three sevens to appear
Many hours passed the only movement, eyes

And twitching thumbs
Manipulating an avatar
Somewhat to my will
Game over for body
Game over for brain

The creaks and aches remind me
Reality is only virtually the same

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The ones who thrive long term are those who understand the real world is a never ending chain of absurdity, confusions, messy relationships and imperfect people.

Morgan Housel

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Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for this delicious-smelling skin cream that I bought 2 or 3 years ago and use sparingly. Today is not special but it smells special now.

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Yesterday sure was excellently relaxing. I even played some Forza Horizon on Xbox which was really enjoyable. I didn’t even make it to my room, so didn’t push myself to play keyboard or guitar. Still don’t feel drawn to that room and I’m not sure why. Perhaps I’m more drawn to it when Amy is here in the house. I don’t mean in a ‘get away’ kind of way but with the house empty, I can sprawl around inside. Maybe I should bring everything inside. That would be a pain in the ass but also a reasonable option. I may as well make the house mine while I can.

Yesterday’s weather was interesting. A storm forecast for Saturday brought rain and a little thunder but nothing out of the ordinary. Sunday morning was still cloudy but warmer. Around 4pm, I called and talked with Amy and it started raining again and then I noticed it getting louder but it wasn’t heavy rain but big chunks of ice, some almost golf ball-sized. All the cats ran to hide and I showed Amy the chunks of ice which she had never seen in Chiang Rai before. Before we’d finished talking, suddenly the sun came out. Weird and cool.

This week is Scout Week at school and in typical Thai style, our coordinator advised us that there was nothing for us to do with our students and that we should go to Primary and help there. When I went there I was told we have to help in Mathayom. So, this week, nothing to do! My students are already messaging me at 9 am, saying they are totally bored.

I’m sitting in the cafe next door and Dylan is at home, so I figure I might just come and show my face in the mornings and then go home again!