There’s treasure in the gaps
The white space of waiting
Suddenly an idea snaps
Into the place of creating
Here’s the room for thinking
Running between two places
Eyes open, no blinking
Look into the empty spaces
Removed from daily disarray
The thoughts now flow free
Consider all to do and say
Use the tools to think and see
All these things are at hand
To keep tidy the mess of the mind
So when things don’t go as planned
Peace is still easy to find
inspired by various posts by David Elikwu
Today I’m feeling:
Uncertain. I was having great interesting dreams all night and a 7.30 alarm was upsetting but here we are again with the get up and go. We had to come to the city as Dad has his first day of chemo. We had to run around a bit and take his dog for a walk. I had to go to immigration too, where they told me to go to the head office in Mae Sai or go over to Laos to re-apply for a visa. It’s so annoying but I’m trying to apply my practice of going with the flow.
I can understand that reality changes for us all the time and now I’m in a new reality where I have to do a certain set of actions to move forward. That’s all this is. It’s up to me if I choose to be frustrated and annoyed.
If I can keep thinking like this then these days will be smooth. I also need to counter Amy’s complaining about this and other things in general. She’s already light-heartedly talking about going back to Australia!
I usually don’t react too much to her complaints but things can build up.
Breathe. Calm. Practice.
Today I’m grateful for:
My agent Nancy, who clarified for me what I need to do next to reinstate my visa. I’ll still have to mess about getting an extension to my now-current tourist visa and possibly have to go out of the country and back one time, but that’s what will have to be done. Nancy offered to do a working visa through her but it will take just as much effort as us doing the spouse visa again. I just sent her a thank you message as I was writing this.
The best thing about today was:
Playing with the neighbour’s kids for a few minutes. They were waiting in our entertainment area even though Amy told them I was sleeping. I wasn’t actually sleeping but just chilling in the air-conditioned bedroom. They were so noisy though that I roused myself and played with them and communicated with them as best I could. There are two boys and one girl.
The boys are pushy and chatty, the girl, quieter and more respectful. They like to be lifted up to hang on my gym rings though I have to make sure I catch them when they want to let go. Yesterday the girl said she was too scared to try it but I told her she could do anything that the boys could and today she did and was proud of herself.
A few minutes later, through visual cues, she understood that I wanted to catch the smaller boy and turn him upside down. I couldn’t get close enough but she coaxed him over until he was within reach. She was thrilled and they were all giggling. Smart girl.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
The visa situation could’ve gotten out of hand with Amy already a little stressed about having to run around for Mum and Dad but ultimately things settled down as we got on with everyday things.
Something I learned today?
The colour orange was named after the fruit. In English, at least, I suppose.
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