Is it safe to sit on old memories? The musty heat binds spells The hint of all possibilities Returned to through dusted smells
The tales all began right here The crossroads of the village meeting Cherished moments soon disappear Disruptions thankfully fleeting
Why did these histories not repeat? They were where legends made One or two remain on this street But nothing else has stayed
Who now will push the swing, Laugh at the falling from the tree? To sit in the light the moon will bring And who will remember me?
Submitted to the above picture at this week’s No Theme Thursday which brought to mind Polvo’s Light of the Moon (hence the penultimate line). The picture makes me nostalgic for my childhood village life, where legends were absolutely made, yet not repeated by the following generations.
What is it? What is that? It seems like an oversized cat Sniffing and lurching as a pet And yet….
Fear arose at eyes meeting Ears pound with heart beating Comes the rush of approach I lay down my body, defeating Please! No eating!
A sniff, a purr, a tentative pat Mutual understanding of where we’re at A roll and a push, off excited I too, soon alighted
Whisper at your feral fears Into the eyes, through the tears Roll over as if to submit Here where the big cats sit
inspired by a dream of meeting an unknown type of big cat in a park
Today I’m feeling:
Happy, relaxed, maybe even bored!
Today I’m grateful for:
Febreeze and its feeble attempts at masking the still-rank cat pee smell on my mattress. It’s doing its best.
The best thing about today was:
Testing out the Quizizz lesson I put together yesterday with Ploy and Praewa. They enjoyed it and I learned a few things from practising it with them. I need to add a little more detail and tweak a few things.
However, the concept may be good but I think the level is too high for my M1 classes. I will look for easier lessons to put together in the same way over the holidays.
What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?
Still dark, lost in a dream world, a thud and a scream sit me bolt upright as Cap and Tigger, a ball of furry yin and yang roll over me, their combined weight slamming down at my hip.
I grab the darker fury but cannot pull them apart, interlocked they are in a vicious grip. A second pull and a broken claw embeds itself in my finger and finally, they are separated and I fling the fuming ball across the bed but this doesn’t stop them and they reassume attack positions in the living room.
Good morning, Shaun, it’s a lovely day though there’s no daylight apparent.
Finally, the fighters back down and I return to my soft bed hot and awake. I check the time. 4 minutes until my alarm. I get up and shake the doona back into place and clumps of fur float through the still air.
Ok, let’s go.
Something I learned today?
Some private chats with a couple of my students helped me to learn a little more about their situations. With there being no classes and fewer kids around school everyone is a little more relaxed and open these last few days.
What is my favourite memory from childhood?
I’m going to say it was the common spirit we village kids had.
Forced together by location we went through all the usual ups and downs a group of teenagers would. Being out in the sticks with little street lighting, we entertained ourselves with endless hours of mischief, fire and explosions.
There’s not one specific memory that stands out but as I bring those thoughts to mind many more flood back and the joy of that childhood camaraderie remains special to me.
I took this picture because I was lazily reading in my hammock when these neighbours’ kids appeared and started blah blah blahing in Thai at me. They usually come in around this time every day adding our garden as part of their playground. If I’m watering I’ll spray them to hear their screams and laughter.
Gaunts Common was a quiet rustic village in Dorset, the heart of the south of England. It’s only shop, Gaunt’s Common Post Office, closed down in 1985 due to lack of funds and use. No more would the children be able to gather outside its window in the small parking area perturbing customers and neighbours alike.
17th Apr 2021 – The picture above is all that is left to remind me there was once a post office here. The traditional red public phone box has gone too.
The village school still thrived though, taking in the five to eight-year-olds from many surrounding areas. Morning and afternoon would be the busiest time of day as parents ferried their offspring to the South end of the village, packing the car park with their vehicles and causing quiet traffic jams. Some of the luckier pupils need only walk across the road and into the school.
17th Apr 2021 – I seem to remember more foliage around the front and being able to run around all sides of the school as we would often play ‘flashlight’ here at night time.
The community was mainly a farming one, though several of the newer houses were built specifically for their rich owners who travelled into Wimborne Minster, the nearest town, about four miles away. So, slowly the community was diversifying though tractors were as frequent on the roads as buses or taxis, leaving behind them great clumps of mud from the sodden fields. Everyone knew by name the farmers who ploughed the land and looked after the cattle.
17th Apr 2021 – Occasionally we would steal one of these hay rolls and roll it down the road until we got bored, or roll it into the woods where we were hidden from view, set light to it and talk shit with each other whilst throwing asbestos into the flames to hear it crackle and pop.
There were several riding stables in the village and surrounding area, riders taking advantage of the woodlands which began at the top of the hill and spread out to the Northeast towards Holt and Holtwood (more woodland areas). Cars were often required to slow down driving through the village as they waited behind a troop of horses and riders on their way to the woods for a healthy gallop.
By night time, after the small of rush of cars carrying people on their way home from work, the village became quiet except for one or two of the noisier children who would gather at the bottom of the school field, away from the prying eyes of their parents. The focus would then turn to the football club about a quarter of a mile south of the village where people were welcomed by friendly faces to share a beer, a game of darts or pool or, most importantly, to catch up on the latest gossip.
17th Apr 2021 – On the left, the ‘impenetrable’ woods where, as kids, we built a BMX track, camps, fires, war zones and get drunk before we were of age, at which time we migrated to the Football Club, on the right.
Blotched and ragged Rough and jagged You want to trade this one in For a new skin
Plastic and tough And it’s flexible enough To take everything Your new skin
The Week That Was
Record of the week: False Prophets – Banana Split Republic, Husker Du – New Day Rising LP, Atrox – Loose (live)
11th March 1985 Got up at 11.30. Went to Careers Office, told them I’ve got a job. Couldn’t draw any more money out. Only just managed to get some fags from Gaunts. Bennett didn’t get any dope. He says it was white (?). Stayed in tonight. Thunderbolt and Lightfoot was on again. It’s still good. 6
12th March 1985 Got up at 11.45. Had a bath. Got dirty! Hah! Sorry, but I’m not gonna fill this out properly, OK? 5
13th March 1985 Signed off. Came home. Found letter. Said I wasn’t accepted for job. Careers Office rang and said it was going again so I rang back and start on Monday. Y.C. is being supervised now. 5
14th March 1985 Paul came over to stay. Had a good time. Stereo wouldn’t tape properly. Got my PEACE compilation which is so-so. 7
15th March 1985 Travelled around all day. Got Husker Du’s New Day Rising LP. Went down Dorchester. Said I could sing for Atrox. It was fuckin’ brilliant. Most fun I’ve had for ages. Charlie looked a bit shitty though. Came home same night. 9.5
16th March 1985 Can’t get over yesterday. Went to town. Went down Bournemouth. Gig didn’t look like being on so came back. Saw Burd on the bus. Went up to see Void gig instead. Came home. (Found Mothers Day card on bus) 7
17th March 1985 Went down Gaunts. Had a mud fight. Crabby got shitty. Dean got his nut cracked open. Stayed in tonight. 6
Record of the week: Atrox – Screaming At Deaf Ears demo, Manitou – Something Happened (live)
25th February 1985 Work was pretty boring. Mike’s back but I’m not talking to him and he’s getting the message. Pulled a muscle in my back. Got home, watched Grange Hill. Rode down to Bournemouth. Managed to find The Academy. Saw a Brighton group called The Cat – ok. Manitou – good (had a laser show). Sold two singles. Fucking foggy. 7
26th February 1985 Only slept 5 and a half hours last night. Cos I started talking to Mike he’s fucking following me again. He nearly started crying cos he fucked up an order. Had a good game of football. Not going to Salisbury tonight. Some timber course or something. Came home. Don’t remember what I did tonight. Went to sleep at 9.30. 5
27th February 1985 Woke up at 6.30. Decided not to go to college. Went back to sleep. Didn’t get up til 3.30. (Slept 18 hours!) Felt pretty dizzy and tired. Drum kits falling apart. Went down Youth Club. Felt like I was pissed. Had a go at Bennett cos he pissed around on my bike on Sunday. He said he didn’t but he finally admitted it, so I had another go and went and told his mum. Came home. 3
28th February 1985 Went to work today. Can’t remember a lot of what happened today. I can remember what happened tonight though. Me, Muz and Crabb had a laugh around Gaunts. Took the piss out of Jasper. Went back to Muz’s. Recorded some shit. It was as well. 5
1st March 1985 Went to work. Left at ten to go to Winton for Sales Training. Mr Andrews was there, I said I wasn’t going to be there in the afternoon. So Mr Andrews chucked me off the scheme cos I walked out. Told MJ. Went to Job Centre. Came home. Went to sleep. Made appointment for interview tomorrow. Spent an hour looking for everyone. They raided Dumpton. Jasper, the twat, nicked a fire extinguisher. 6
2nd March 1985 Got up late. Went down Gaunts. Everyone was pissed off with each other. Went home. Went to Wimborne. Had interview at 4. Sounds like good work – hope I get it. Came back after an hour. Scott was gonna get some videos but didn’t, so had a game of Spotlight. Took the piss out of Crabby. Came home. Film last night – Mean Streets. 7
3rd March 1985 Got up at 10. Rode down to Wareham. Got train to Dorchester. My singing was pretty bad so Paul said. Didn’t do a lot otherwise. Came back. Borrowed Young Ones book and Toy Dolls LP and demo. Came back. I think I stayed in this evening. Young Ones book is good too. 6
Industrious and hard They get everywhere They’ll float on your drink They’ll get in your hair Armies of ants Coming from their nest I wish I was an ant I think ants are best
The Week That Was
Record of the week: Protectors – Macintosh Man (live), Spizzles – Scared
18th February 1985 Went to work. Was all right. Mike’s not here – good. Beat Ian at darts. Found out Subhumans is on Frinday – same as Void. Tried to organise getting up there. Alan (J+J) told me about rooftop Hotel gig on April 9. Went out but no one was about. Have to give out leaflets at YC (Wimborne) if I see Subhumans. 6
19th February 1985 Got up and pulled a muscle in neck. Went to work for morning but comae back at lunch time – it’ll have to get better soon. Went to sleep for about half an hour. Stayed in tonight. Can’t remember anything else about today. 5
20th February 1985 Didn’t go to college but went to Wimborne. Drew some money out. Tired to find Wayne. Didn’t. Went to Poole. Won 6 quid at amusements. Went to Setchfields. Bought 6 LPs, 1 12″ and 1 7″ for 4 quid. Went to Our Price – got a couple more records. Got bus back. Mum brought me home. Sung for a while. Scott came in while doing so. Went to YC. Vicki Hiscock was there and not with Jasper. 7
21st February 1985 Went to work. Brian was doing bulk. Fucking lifting off GGL-4 windows on me fuckin’ own. Day went by without anything happening. Piwi went home cos he’s ill. Went down Gaunts at night. Me and Muz and Burt thought we saw a burglar. So me and Muz looked about. Jasper came out. Saw some weird lights and shotgun noises. Pretty weird. 6
22nd February 1985 Today was pretty boring. Did a fucking hard test. Piwi wasn’t here. Martin and Largey went home. Rung around to find out if gig was on tonight. Got bike back at last. Went to Wimborne. Void aren’t playing. Met Ian – went down town.Wayne Lovell threatened to beat me up. Went to Football Club. Protectors were ok. Sold 2 singles – which weren’t bad. Simon Toms joined Royal Marines. 6
23rd February 1985 Went to town with tape recorder. Put couple of posters up. Drew money out. Wayne had had an accident so I still ain’t seen him. Got 2 videos out. Came back. Pissed around down Gaunts for a while. Played tennisn with Jamie and Bennett. Went down Muz’s. Got money back for videos by charging everyone who came in. Warriors – good. Quadrophenia (seen it before). Fuckin’ foggy tonight. 7
24th February 1985 Took videos back to Wimborne. Went down Gaunts. Japser’s being a shit. Bennett’s been fucking around on my bike so I’m gonna get him. Pissed around up at the common. Got done for being on private land. Went back to Gaunts. Jasper came out but just stood around. We pissed around though. Came back at 5.30. Had a bath. Invasion of the Body Snatchers is on tongiht but fell asleep. 7
Everything in order Everything on time Such a perfect thing This wonderful life of mine
I’m on schedule I looked at my schedule
Don’t know when I’ll die I haven’t planned it yet But I’ll tell everyone So they don’t get upset
I’m on schedule I looked at my schedule
The Week That Was
Record of the week: Flux of Pink Indians – Punk Sucks
4th February 1985 Started work in the warehouse. Quite a good laugh but fuckin’ knackering. Went down Gaunts after. Chased Perry, Burt and Muz around Gaunts cos they wanted me to. Talked for a while. Came back. Fuckin’ fell asleep. Kinky dream about Lisa. 7
5th February 1985 Fuckin’ had hundreds of fuckin’ deliveries. 20 pallets of Carcases, 2 orders of Key Terrain. We didn’t have time to do it all. Had a good laugh around Gaunts. Maybe do Stumps t-shirts, have an initiation. Talked to Muz for a while. 8
6th February 1985 Pissed around on the bus in the morning. Fucked around in college. Got bus back. Wayne was on there. Had a good laugh. Got school bus. Good laugh again. Fixed drums. Got 11 people in phone box down YC. Pissed around down there. 8
7th February 1985 Don’t remember much about today. Don’t think we had a lot to do at work. Big Brian was doing the bulk lorry – he’s a cunt. Muz wasn’t coming out so stayed in. Quite a few things on telly. Something about some bikers which was OK. 5
8th February 1985 Still not a lot to do at work. Planned to leaflet the Void gig and not do a poster cos it doesn’t photocopy very well. Came home. Pissed around as usual. Went down YC – wasn’t very interesting. I think they’ve sussed out that we fiddle the pool table. Couldn’t stay awake to watch the film 6
9th February 1985 Went to Wimborne. Met Bernice. Went for pizza with Fog and Maggie. Came home. Pissed around on drums. Went down Gaunts. Sharon was there so we pissed her off. Went to Bernice’s at 7. Caught bus to Bournemouth. Went to gig. Atrox played pretty well. Then fuckin’ Bad Noise were fuckin’ around. During Disorder a couple fo fights started. Taff electrocuted himself. Got bus back. 5
10th February 1985 Can’t remember a lot about what happened today. It was fuckin’ cold. I went down Gaunts. Came back. Went back. Pissed around at the woods behind Murray’s. Dean was even there. First time for fuckin’ ages. Didn’t go out tonight cos it was too cold. Spitting Image was OK. 6
Diana is divine Katie is so clean Claire is my sweet Julie is so keen Lovely angels, broken wings No one told me of these things Angela is my angel Susan is my dream Lisa is so lovely But Jane just makes me scream They’re my lovely angels, broken wings Now I know of these things
The Week That Was
Record of the week: Husker Du – Metal Circus, Manitou – 7″, Manitou – Live (Waiting For My Girl, Something Happened, Nervous Breakdown)
28th January 1985 M: Went to work. Went to Careers at 9. Drew £70 from Building Society. Paid £5 fine. Went back to work. Rest of the morning went fairly quick. A: Afternoon went as quick as morning. Me and Ian are swapping over next Monday. Ian’s joining Navy in March. E: Did Postal Course stuff. Continuing doing the Void art – I hope they use it. Manitou on Thursday. 7
9th Feb 2024 – An image of Ian jumped into my memory as I was writing this today. Yesterday I wasn’t even sure who he was! He was a Weebly-looking kid, a round body and round head, no neck and freckles. He certainly had the look of someone in the Navy.
29th January 1985 M: Feeling fucking tired. This morning took a long time to get over with – especially having to count Key Terrain. A: Afternoon was OK. Only 4 tickets to book which can’t be bad – for me at least. Got back – rung Paul up. Atrox 16th Feb. Prac. on Sunday. E: Went to Matt’s. He said that my lyrics were good. Got records back. 5
30th January 1985 M: Got on bus.Chucked till roll out of back. Went down college. Got bored during plumbing. A: Acid rain!? Carpentry – oh wow. Wayne wasn’t on bus. Got school bus back again. E: Went to YC. Went to Wimborne YC. Ulterior Motive played very well. Matt passed his test. 7
31st January 1985 M: Went to work. Can’t remember what I did but it went quick anyway. A: Afternoon went ok. Looking forward to tonight. Fuck all to do at work really. E: Went to see Manitou – they were absolutely fucking brilliant. 8
1st February 1985 M: Decided not to go to work. A: Woke up about 12. Stayed in just resting. E: Went to YC. Had plenty of free games of pool. Took Lee home 6
2nd February 1985 M: Went to Wimborne. Couldn’t get DM’s. Came back. Pissed around Gaunts for a while. Sharon came down so we got on her nerves. A: Went to gravel pits on the heath. Fucked around there for a while. Came back. E: Went to Muz’s. Played computer til about 1.30. Left at 2.30 8
3rd February 1985 M: Went to Paul’s. Got train to Dorchester. A: Atrox practice was pretty boring but their demo sounds quite good. Got in at 7. Had a bath. E: Don’t feel too good. Bad back, legs, arms, chest and got a cold. 5
Dream? Or was it? It climbed into the closet Shooting unearthly discharges The nightmare enlarges Open up the door It’s there for sure But something is wrong The creature has gone A mirage or a dream Things aren’t what they seem The whiskey, somehow Is empty now
The Week That Was
Record of the week: Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds – Who’ll Build a Box for Black Paul?, Wasted Youth – Paris, France, Inca Babies – The Judge
14th January 1985 M: Got shit from Dave Gilby for not going to college. Feeling really tired. Did the usual things. A: Piwi won’t be at work tomorrow so fuck knows what’s going to happen with just me and Martin there. E: Went to Muz’s who’s being a shit again. Went to H’s. Dandy is one of my erogenous zones. 6
15th January 1985 M: Gilby reckons he’ll dock a day’s pay for not going to college. Having trouble with fucking hundreds of shortages. A: Not much to do this afternoon. Wrote a good poem called ‘The Day The Apples Turned to Poison.’ Haven’t quite stopped smoking. E: Had a bath. Missed the Old Grey Whistle Test. Pretty tired, 9.00. 5
16th January 1985 M: Got school bus. Had a laugh on there. Got bus to Poole. Got to plumbing an hour late. Pretty boring. A: Had English (?!). Finished at 12.35. Had carpentry at 1.30. Managed to get out in time for the bus. Wayne wasn’t on. Caught bus from school. Dandy reckoned I could go swimming one day. E: Pissed around singing. Went down Youth Club. Lost darts. Fuckin’ lost pool – played shit. Came back 6
17th January 1985 M: Fucked off with everything this morning. Dunno why. Seems like everyone’s getting on at me. A: Things getting better this afternoon. Wrote some more poems at lunchtime. Fuckin’ cold on way home. E: Gonna have bath. Had one. Night Court was on. 5
18th January 1985 M: Woke up 6.30. Snowing like fuck. Rung up work – said I wasn’t going. Went down Gaunts – came back when everyone got in a mood. A: Went to Wimborne with mum. Pretty dangerous on the road. Got loads of sweets in town and some underarm spray. E: Went out. Doddy and Scott came down my place. Did some pretty funny taping. Night Court was great. 5
19th January 1985 M:Got up 10. Went down Gaunts. Went down Sandpits with everyone. Fuckin’ good laugh going along the snow. A: Came back at 1.30. Chain came off and got stuck. Pushed it back. Didn’t get in til 3. Had lots of food. Nearly fell asleep. Really tired. E: Went to see The Void. Not very good. Ian got sick and cut his hand. Need a new chain for bike. 7
20th January 1985 M: Missed the morning. Got up at 12. A: Had dinner. Went out. Went down Sandpit Hill. Fuckin’s till good down there. Met Dandy on the way. Managed to get a kiss from her. E: Could hardly fuckin’ sleep. Couldn’t sleep thinking of Dandy. What can we do? 9
19th December 1984 Went to disco at (Holtwood) Youth Club. Managed to get in for nothing. Was quite boring.
20th December 1984 Went to court – got landed for £150.
21st December 1984 Won a bottle of whiskey at work. Got given a vegeburger mix and lentil soup as a present. Got a couple of diaries and a couple of calendars. Went to (Hinton Martell) Youth Club.
22nd December 1984 Went to Wimborne. Met Ratty. He bought a toaster. Wandered around selling (trying to sell) tickets. I could be on the door next Saturday. Bought myself a necklace. Gave Houldey’s their present.