Mother, you’re so good to me I’m just how you wanted me Mother how I love you so It would break my heart to go
Mother, you are such a pain I never want to see you again Mother how I hate you so I think I’ll just fuck off and go Goodbye Mum
The Week That Was
Record of the week: Peter Gabriel – The Intruder/No Self Control/Games Without Frontiers/Biko, Husker Du – Data Control/New Day Rising LP, VA – PEACE comp, Conflict 7″
25th March 1985 Started at Corfe Mullen. Worked alone.
27th March 1985 Went to Y.C. Possibly set up Young Band competition.
28th March 1985 Got £34 off Mr Ashby. Got £34 off DHSS.
29th March 1985 Finished at Corfe Mullen. Lady game me mirror and Peter Gabriel tape. Went to Y.C.
30th March 1985 Spent £5. Put £10 in Building Society.
31st March 1985 Went up Uddens. Had a good laugh on rhododendrons. Bust my wrist though.
Blotched and ragged Rough and jagged You want to trade this one in For a new skin
Plastic and tough And it’s flexible enough To take everything Your new skin
The Week That Was
Record of the week: False Prophets – Banana Split Republic, Husker Du – New Day Rising LP, Atrox – Loose (live)
11th March 1985 Got up at 11.30. Went to Careers Office, told them I’ve got a job. Couldn’t draw any more money out. Only just managed to get some fags from Gaunts. Bennett didn’t get any dope. He says it was white (?). Stayed in tonight. Thunderbolt and Lightfoot was on again. It’s still good. 6
12th March 1985 Got up at 11.45. Had a bath. Got dirty! Hah! Sorry, but I’m not gonna fill this out properly, OK? 5
13th March 1985 Signed off. Came home. Found letter. Said I wasn’t accepted for job. Careers Office rang and said it was going again so I rang back and start on Monday. Y.C. is being supervised now. 5
14th March 1985 Paul came over to stay. Had a good time. Stereo wouldn’t tape properly. Got my PEACE compilation which is so-so. 7
15th March 1985 Travelled around all day. Got Husker Du’s New Day Rising LP. Went down Dorchester. Said I could sing for Atrox. It was fuckin’ brilliant. Most fun I’ve had for ages. Charlie looked a bit shitty though. Came home same night. 9.5
16th March 1985 Can’t get over yesterday. Went to town. Went down Bournemouth. Gig didn’t look like being on so came back. Saw Burd on the bus. Went up to see Void gig instead. Came home. (Found Mothers Day card on bus) 7
17th March 1985 Went down Gaunts. Had a mud fight. Crabby got shitty. Dean got his nut cracked open. Stayed in tonight. 6
Every road you travel There’s a traffic jam They put roadworks Everywhere they can When you’re in a hurry The roadworks are always there The lights are always red You end up in despair
The Week That Was
Record of the week: Mud – Dynamite (?), Smiths – Nowhere Fast, Mass of Black (live), Atrox – Short Songs (live)
11th February 1985 Had a good laugh at work. Gave the showroom all their stuff off bulk as quickly as possible. They were quite pissed off. Mike is fucking me off cos he thinks I can’t so anything on my own. Started cassette to give to Wayne when he gives me the other one back. 6
12th February 1985 Mike’s getting even worse. I’m actually glad I’ll be at college tomorrow. Mum wouldn’t take me in today cos I ran out of petrol – she went and got some instead. Finished off cassette. The Howling is on telly tonight. Last night there was a question prog on TV from Wimborne but I only recognised two people. 6
13th February 1985 Got school bus. Got late bus to Poole. Steve Collins was on there. Got to college. Plumbing was crap. Ian went home. I beat him at pool. English was crap. Carpentry was crap. Wayne wasn’t on bus so I couldn’t give hime the tape. Got school bus home. Saw Dandy, who’s more beautiful than ever. Went down YC – was pretty boring. Jasper thought it was hard to punch a hole in the door. 6
14th February 1985 Work was slow. Bulk didn’t turn up til the afternoon. Big Brian was doing it – he was being all right this week. Ian was getting pissed off. Mike was pissing me off. Dandy’s gone to Italy – skiing. Don’t stop thinking about her. I WISH…. 5
15th February 1985 Was in warehouse in morning and upstairs doing courses in afternoon. Came back – went to track, chain came off – pushed it to Muz’s. Took half an hour fixing it. Went on then came off again and was totally fucked – it even snapped. Two blokes helped me get it home. Mum took me to YC. Was pretty boring except that me, Crabb, Muz and Jas could take over soon. Crabb’s old dear brought me home. 5
16th February 1985 Got up at 11. Mum took me into town at 1.30. Bought 10 Manitou 7″s. Me and Fog got talking to some Christian propagandists. Met Piwi. Went round town with Ian and Fog. Went up to Shep’s place. Caught bus to Bournemouth. Got in free. Atrox were ok. General Belgrano went ok. Mass of Black were pretty good. Mad Are Sane were good too. Got bus back. Mum brought me home. 7
17th February 1985 Got up at 12. Went down Gaunts. Went up track which has iced over. Came home on Crabby’s bike. Went back out. Pissed around. Had ice fight up at the track. Went down behind Muz’s. Got wet. Came back. Bloke out of Josh and John rung me up. Tired to organise something for them – maybe at Gillingham with The Void. 7
Everything in order Everything on time Such a perfect thing This wonderful life of mine
I’m on schedule I looked at my schedule
Don’t know when I’ll die I haven’t planned it yet But I’ll tell everyone So they don’t get upset
I’m on schedule I looked at my schedule
The Week That Was
Record of the week: Flux of Pink Indians – Punk Sucks
4th February 1985 Started work in the warehouse. Quite a good laugh but fuckin’ knackering. Went down Gaunts after. Chased Perry, Burt and Muz around Gaunts cos they wanted me to. Talked for a while. Came back. Fuckin’ fell asleep. Kinky dream about Lisa. 7
5th February 1985 Fuckin’ had hundreds of fuckin’ deliveries. 20 pallets of Carcases, 2 orders of Key Terrain. We didn’t have time to do it all. Had a good laugh around Gaunts. Maybe do Stumps t-shirts, have an initiation. Talked to Muz for a while. 8
6th February 1985 Pissed around on the bus in the morning. Fucked around in college. Got bus back. Wayne was on there. Had a good laugh. Got school bus. Good laugh again. Fixed drums. Got 11 people in phone box down YC. Pissed around down there. 8
7th February 1985 Don’t remember much about today. Don’t think we had a lot to do at work. Big Brian was doing the bulk lorry – he’s a cunt. Muz wasn’t coming out so stayed in. Quite a few things on telly. Something about some bikers which was OK. 5
8th February 1985 Still not a lot to do at work. Planned to leaflet the Void gig and not do a poster cos it doesn’t photocopy very well. Came home. Pissed around as usual. Went down YC – wasn’t very interesting. I think they’ve sussed out that we fiddle the pool table. Couldn’t stay awake to watch the film 6
9th February 1985 Went to Wimborne. Met Bernice. Went for pizza with Fog and Maggie. Came home. Pissed around on drums. Went down Gaunts. Sharon was there so we pissed her off. Went to Bernice’s at 7. Caught bus to Bournemouth. Went to gig. Atrox played pretty well. Then fuckin’ Bad Noise were fuckin’ around. During Disorder a couple fo fights started. Taff electrocuted himself. Got bus back. 5
10th February 1985 Can’t remember a lot about what happened today. It was fuckin’ cold. I went down Gaunts. Came back. Went back. Pissed around at the woods behind Murray’s. Dean was even there. First time for fuckin’ ages. Didn’t go out tonight cos it was too cold. Spitting Image was OK. 6
Wild child, well out of order People couldn’t afford her Over the top, loaded to the hilt She destroyed everything you built Built you up, pushed you down No one pushed her around Wild child met her maker Paid a visit to the undertaker
The Week That Was
Record of the week: Wasted Youth – Gone Midnight, Flux of Pink Indians – The Fucking Cunts Treat Us Like Pricks
21st January 1985 M: Took me ages to get to work. Chain kept coming off. Rung 3 Cross, get a service on Wednesday. Morning passed pretty quickly. A: Afternoon passed pretty quickly too. Went long way home. Should be going to Ferndown with Dandy and Vicky. Hope Dandy gets the message. E: Went to Ferndown. Bought some fags but left them at the Sports Centre. Saw Eric Coombes who is doing ok after his accident on Friday. 7
22nd January 1985 M: Couldn’t go in on bike so mum had to take me in. Got very pissed off after only a while. Feel like crying. A: Afternoon got a little better but not much. It’s been a bad day all round. E: Even the evening. Went to Shirl’s, talked with Dandy, Beki and Shirl. I don’t think Dandy wants to get the message. 3
23rd January 1985 M: Got bus to Wimborne. Got bus to Poole. Went to college. Wasn’t too bad. Went to Sloop at lunchtime and beat some bloke at pool. A: Mr Andrews – our YTS bloke – was in college so me and Ian gave him shit. Saw Wayne on bus back – had a laugh. E: Went down Youth Club. Played free pool all night. Fell asleep. 7
24th January 1985 M: Didn’t get up til 8. Feeling really tired. Had a laugh unloading fibreglass over in the yard. Martin (?) went to hospital about his arm. A: Didn’t do much this afternoon – I want to move around departments. Janeen’s back and on a fucking full wage. E: Went to Matt’s because I thought Dandy would be there. Had a laugh on his synth. 6
25th January 1985 M: Feeling pretty good today. Ian’s got an interview in Southampton. Doing lots of work. Bought a donkey jacket. A: Didn’t do much again this afternoon – we’re just too good. Went for job interview at J.T. Lowe’s. Came home. E: Went to Y.C. Fixed the pool table so we could get it free. Eraserhead tonight. 8
26th January 1985 M: Went to town. Got bus to Poole. Went to snooker club with Scott and Bennett. Scott’s friend Richard came along. Played a bit of snooker. A: Went back to Richard’s in the back of his van and he’s a mental driver. Took a trials bike to the heath. I went on the back which was fucking excellent. Walked back to Wimborne. E: Toni took me down Bournemouth. Gig was shit. Left with Paul and others. Went to nightclub where Bernice was. Got lift back. 8
27th January 1985 M: Got up at 10. Couldn’t piss around at Matt’s cos it’s Sunday. Came back, got bored. Rung Dandy who said she didn’t want to go see Frankie. A: Cancelled tickets for Frankie. Pissed around on drums. Took dog. Stayed in and got cheesed off. Thinking about last night. Punk sucks. E: Had a bath. 4
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha I’m not insane Ho ho ho ho ho ho ho ho I’m not bad Hee hee hee hee hee hee hee hee It’s not me brain Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha I’m just mad Ha ho hee ha
The Week That Was 1984 diary
Photo: original import sticker from Black Flag’s Damaged album on Unicorn
31st December 1984 See next diary
Live groups of 1984 Confessions of Sin Cult Maniax Subhumans Self Abuse Conflict
Live songs of 1984 Self Abuse – Loose Confessions of Sin – Loose (esp. at Capones)
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Phone numbers Julie Roberts Paul Chambers Andy Anderson Justin Butler Simon Bradbury Dave Brown Amanda Brown Jane Seabright Kathryn Smith Zoe Liz Jennison
The Week That Was 1985 diary
Allergies: DEATH
Records of the week: Ruts – Staring at the Rude Boys, Subhumans – Rats Last song of the year: Cult Maniax – Morphine Mary
31st December 1984 Built a new reception area. Mr. Grainger’s being a cunt but I went at 4. Went to Houldey’s. Dandy and Beki weren’t there 5
1st January 1985 Got up 12. Not much on TV. Not done anything in particular. Cat’s still scared to come in my room. 5
2nd January 1985 Cleaned out the Mezz floor. Fucking knackering day at work. Went to Youth Club. Stayed by myself most of the time. Getting better at darts. 4
3rd January 1985 Cleaned out the Mezz floor. Ringo Chubb are playing on the 11th in Poole. Could’ve fallen asleep at work. Went to Houldey’s. Dandy didn’t seem to notice that I’ve changed for her. 6
4th January 1985 Cleaned out the Mezz floor. Fucking knackered. Moved all shit from Mezz floor. No Youth Club. Went to Muz’s. He’s still being a shit. 5
5th January 1985 Went to town with Mum. Saw Burdett but didn’t say anything to the cunt. He’s still one of the lads. Track’s iced over slightly. 5
6th January 1985 Got up 12.30. Did this and that. Hoovered my room. Went out – no one about. 5
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