We got that attitude! – 10th February 2021

I am so happy and grateful for all the free health apps on my phone that give me suggestions for different workouts each day so I can work off some of my alcohol belly fat. I feel much better these days and much happier.


Weirdly tired this afternoon. Maybe a reflection of the fact that I am at my lowest weight in about 15 years and have not eaten enough and/or exercised a little too much.

Anyway, I still had an enjoyable day – in the morning I wrote some fun and funny haikus about some of the teachers. I’m trying to do one for each. It’s a fun challenge and I’m enjoying the brevity of this poetry.

The best thing which happened today was talking with some of the students in my M1/10 (grade 7) class. I didn’t bother with a structured lesson and just sat round the table with a few students at a time and was able to have a few discussions with them – even finding out they could sing some songs in English, even if they didn’t really understand the words. Everyone was happy.

Go on out, get some more – 1st February 2021

Some vague hints of dreams. Thoughts about how you would live your last 24 hours. Imagining today is my last – all the things unfinished – but every life is left unfinished. Wingsuit riders living life to the fullest. Not sure I could do that. My thrills are different. This old man likes reading books. What a joke. I should’ve gained this wisdom as a young man. But here I am and I gotta live.

This weekend I found many lurking memories and thrilled to return to them but life is not just about the past. What of my future? I don’t want to spend my future just documenting my past I want to add to my memories where I can.

Fatman report

Weight: 77.6kg
Resting heart rate: 49

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for a week off from the kids, this week being Scout week, whatever that means. I still have to do some things with them but at least it’s not another week in the classroom.
I am so happy and grateful for the cool foggy morning. Fog like God’s breath over the jungle.Thankful for another day of breath of my own. I want to keep breathing for as long as I can.


Scout week at school means lots of free time, though, of course, I have filled up all my free time enjoying reading, writing, sketching and thinking.

I enjoyed the weekend though it could have been a couple of days longer. I started off in a blaze and kinda ran out of energy by Sunday afternoon, though listened to podcasts whilst dozing, keeping information flowing.

I finished Notes From Underground and immediately started reading it again – this time underlining passages of interest. I also really dug Eleven Minutes which inspired some writing on Saturday moring.

Started on The Infinite Jest – feels like it may be a slog but I’ll give it a shot.

Have been doing things from my list bit by bit. Feeling good about what I’m doing.

To-do list

  • Give away everything you sketch ½
  • Continue gratitude letters ✅
  • Do something for Amy ½
  • Another remix
  • Contact Benjii again ✅

Some say it’s the beginning of the end – 1st December 2020

Weight: 78.0kg
Resting heart rate: 45

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for all the technology I am able to use these days. They make life much easier and can simplify boring tasks.
I am so happy and grateful for the sickness that has knocked me on my ass. I slept almost all day yesterday. I still have a bad stomach but feel better today. It reminds me that I’m not immune to getting sick. This is my first illness since last December.

The Chiang Rai Alternative Hour #62 – Hot Burning Billions – 1st November 2020

The hottest pile of burning money on the internet as voted by everyone, everywhere. Hotter than the POTUS on fire.

Highly curated, carefully selected and specifically ordered* for your listening edification by world-renowned DJtenzenmen, who has over 500 years of experience in this business.

This week there’s music from No Babies, My Dad Is Dead, Saccharine Trust, Neos, Charming Hostess, Landowner, The Fall, Art Bears, Jimi Hendrix, Pigment Vehicle, Andy Partridge, Renaldo and the Loaf, The Let Go!, Eat Avery’s Bones, Midori, Luff, Satanique Samba Trio and The Obits.

Intro and background music by Utotem, Phantom Tollbooth, Daniel Striped Tiger and someone else I forgot. Throw in some Hawkwind.
Incidentals taken from the Church of the Sub Genius Hour of Slack.

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Weight: 79.3kg

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for the opportunity to sit next to the pool overlooking the ocean and drink champagne. I still can’t get used to it when I think back to my past.

Get my kicks, feel alright -1st September 2020

Swipe away the ants.

Woke up early and thinking about school and teaching. Maybe I don’t need to push so hard – I don’t want to be thinking so much about it. But I enjoy it and get a kick out of watching kids grow and learn. Why I didn’t do that for Hayden? Guess I did what I could. Circumstances didn’t always help.

Fatman Report

Weight: 79.1kg
Resting heart rate: 54

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for access to YouTube to be able to watch interesting and thought-provoking videos. It’s my own private learning.