Tag: lazy

Not My Business – 7th July 2024

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Your opinion of me, it could hurt
You can only teach if I wish to learn
Keep kicking it along in the dirt
Your opinion of me is not my concern

To take offence is to give offence
An ever-decreasing circle of pain
I’ll not give you satisfaction at my expense
Or even bother to explain

First attempt at an 8-line poem about what offends me. Nothing offends me, not personally.

Today I’m feeling:

Lazy.  I didn’t intend to. Though I didn’t have any other intention either.

My energy has returned but motivation has gone missing. Part of this is due to knowing that I will have lots of spare time this coming week.

Today I’m grateful for:

The freedom to be lazy today. 

The best thing about today was:

Clearing a bunch of videos out of my ‘watch later’ queue.

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

Everything was in my control, I just made the laziest choices!

Something I learned today?

I finished watching the Idles documentary and enjoyed it a lot. I like their music but usually only in small doses. I can appreciate their appeal as genuine human beings and that makes me like them more.

I took this picture because I wanted to send it to Noey. I told her that Utopia is boys only now (now that there are no female staff). Save also said that she had told him that she wanted to stay in the USA, so I messaged her to find herself a boyfriend while she’s there.

On The Menu – 27th April 2024

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Making happy when choosing
Easier said than done!
No kilograms losing
Until breakfast is gone

Mindful of lunch already
Even started snacking
Nervous and unsteady
Usual vitamins lacking

More dinners and dessert
Every dish a discovery
No longer feeling alert
Undergoing recovery

Shared with Weekly Prompts Wednesday Challenge – Menu and NaPoMo
16th Nov 2024 – Shared with Ragtag Daily Prompt – discovery

Today I’m feeling:

A bit weird after forcing myself out of bed at 8 am.  I kinda expected to get things done today but after coffee I ended up vegging on the sofa and wrote off the day.  

I think I felt like I had achieved my aim for the day by getting up that I didn’t bother with anything else.

Today I’m grateful for:

Amy coming up with the idea to go for a bike ride at around 5 pm.  It was good to get up and out.

The best thing about today was:

That bike ride was good but probably the best thing was tucking into coconut ice cream a couple of times.

Something I learned today?

In one day US cops arrested more protesters (protesting their country’s involvement in the genocide of Palestinians in Gaza) than China has in a year or even longer.  And that is with China having at least 500 protests around the country every day.  Different ways of dealing with things….

Did you do something difficult or challenging today?

Getting up early was a little challenging considering my holiday-mode but I gotta start preparing myself for getting up at 6 am again.  Not much else has been difficult today hence no entries for good/bad deeds or things out of control.

I took this picture as we said goodbye to the sun until tomorrow.

Splinters – 17th April 2024

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With the few words I write
There’s just a chance you might
Catch a splinter of me
To guess my personality

But to draw conclusions
From these brief allusions
Would only go to show
How little we both know

Yet every little simple rhyme
Pieced together over time
Forms a picture in your mind
Tell me what it is you find

Today I’m feeling:

Average.  Not good or bad, a little tired but not unenthusiastic.  A little bored and out of sync.  Missing routine and unable to manufacture my own.

(I got lazy for the rest of the day, savouring reading, eating and watching TV)

Today I’m grateful for:

(The idea that the cream puff guy usually sells at the market, which inspired me to get out of the house in search of him. He wasn’t there but I was still glad to get out.)

The best thing about today was:

(Being lazy and not caring!)

What was out of your control today and how did you handle it?

(See above)

Something I learned today?

(At the time, the English thought that though Australians were strong they were not brave and cut out to be soldier material, during the fighting in Gallipoli during the First World War.  I found this odd as Australians still celebrate the bravery of the soldiers there. History can be shaped in any way necessary.)

Review your acts, and then for vile deeds chide yourself, for good be glad. — Discourses 3.10

(Continuing support for Anchan and Baipad, though I’m starting to feel a little helpless. They both must feel terrible.)

When do I feel most connected to others?

I feel weirdly connected with everyone that I know as if I saw them again after many years then nothing would have changed.  This might be a problem as obviously everything has changed in that time.

It’s one of the reasons that I don’t contact people often (I’m quite happy by myself) though I do recognise that others won’t feel the same way.

I’m most connected with my students these days, again understanding that they are not connected with me in the same way. Talking and playing with students is when I feel most connected.

The Out-Group – 4th November 2022

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There are no two ways about it
When you’re swimming in the soup
There’s no chance to doubt it
You are in – in the out-group

There can be nothing left to nuance
No greys amongst white and black
Every side gets what it wants
And there’s no turning back

Journalists need experts as badly as experts need journalists.

from Freakonomics

Today I’m feeling:
Happy and lazy
Today I’m grateful for:
Thinking that the power adaptor I had to buy was 1600 baht but turned out to be 1200 baht which made me feel better about still having to spend this large amount of money.
The best thing about today was:
Feeling good being in classes and around my students. They bring me joy and frustration and I love them all. What a privilege to watch these boys and girls slowly adapt themselves as they develop into young men and women.
What relationships have you let go of?
The ones that take up too much of my energy. I know my tribe and who they are or even will be when I meet them. At times I’ve had to make acquaintances outside my tribe but trying to make them into deeper friendships doesn’t work out for me. I choose not to adapt to ways I find dismal and accepted as the norm. And from within my tribe, there are people of all different varieties and those that weren’t of a genuine nature were left behind also.

I took this picture because I went to the weed shop to buy some gummies for tomorrow’s bike ride

The Party – 14th October 2022

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Temporary swarms buzz and circle
Conversations bend or disappear
Nests break and reconfigure
With new formations becoming clear
An idler on the roof above
Monitors the party in motion
Follows every dip and rise
As if floating on the ocean
Plans discussed, pleasantries exchanged
Jokes told to absurd laughter
Approaches made, compliments fired
And plans afoot for what comes after

a scene from Titus Alone by Mervyn Peake

To live is to war with trolls in heart and soul. To write is to sit in judgement on oneself.

Henrik Ibsen

Today I’m feeling:
Content and lazy
Today I’m grateful for:
Being able to easily buy snacks and treats for myself at shops nearby and having the money to do it. I’m far away from any major commerce but through the effort of 1000s of people, I can buy yoghurt, blue cheese, chips and toilet paper at stores just a 10-minute drive away.
The best thing about today was:
Listening to Kurws. Great band making interesting music for a decade or so. Today has been a very lazy day after returning from shopping at 10am. I haven’t done much of what I normally do but I’m fine with it. I’m getting used to this quiet life and not having a frenzy in my head of having to do things out of obligation, though I do recognise and appreciate that driving force at times. I know I will get that feeling back in a week or two when school starts again so in the meantime I’m enjoying the freedom to listen to as much music as I can.

I took this picture because… come on, how cute is that! This is from a couple of months ago but I’ve been so lazy to go anywhere and take any interesting pictures today. Even in the garden. I suppose I could have found something beautiful at the shops… Pictures are not usually on my mind when shopping though, usually just want to get in and out as quick as possible.

Both Worlds – 19th July 2021

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A lazy day with thundery skies
The temperature for Netflix and chill
In between episodes, look out the window
To see the clouds descend the hill
The bang and crash as lightning strikes
I can’t believe my good luck
But suddenly the power goes out
And now it’s Netflix and fuck!
Wait for the rains to stop again
And electricians to earn their pay
So we can get back to our series
And watch until the finale
Weirdly, there’s top-speed internet
Yet intermittent electricity
Nowhere has the best of both worlds
Neither this country nor city

Letts Association Football Diary 1979 – 30th December 1978

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful to have had a lazy day yesterday – even forgetting to write here. The busy week makes me tired on the weekend and I enjoy being home with the cats, our surrogate dog and crazy Amy.

Go back to sleep, I didn’t say anything – 13th August 2020

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Slept a lot yesterday – did not feel good. Do I feel good today? I’m not sure yet. Still tired and feel lazy and a little lacking in self-confidence.

Am I tired because of my lack of self-confidence or is my lack of self-confidence making me tired? Over exercise? Overthinking?

Be quiet today if you can – say things that you mean and nothing else.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful that I can understand when I am not feeling well and know that I will feel better again soon.

We got that attitude! – 2nd July 2020

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Tired but had a good sleep. Lazy to work out this morning just stretch instead okay. The clouds – remember about clouds – oh yeah – best cloud of the day award – make a day of awards – will be fun and make you happy. I need to clean my room. Are my teeth okay? Feel better but need them to stay okay forever. Smell cat pee. Could just be damp humid air.

Learning Thai words but no chance to use really and when I do have chance someone Thai will usually say it first! The struggles of a language learner.

Walked KhaoThang home yesterday and jogged back. I have no stamina – had to rest many times! It’s okay though – felt good. My feet suck though. Knees too. Core too – haha! My body is slowly starting to know more about exercise again. I remember a time when I was filled with energy and stamina before my body grew into its twisted adult shape.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful to the person in the bank who gave me what I need for my visa.

To-do list

  • Compliment someone and give silent good wishes ✅
  • ‘Thank you’ mantra ✅
  • Record more blog posts and edit drafts ✅
  • Post more TCRAH to blog ✅

Missed out on writing last night as we went out to eat with Aing and her friend. I had a couple of beers and went straight to be when I got home.

And tonight it’s already late and I’m lazy. I’m not concerned though. Things are going in the right direction for me.

We got that attitude! – 26th March 2020

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I am so happy and grateful for the fruit and vegetables still growing in our garden.

Across the far-flung kingdom, religious practice helped manage the loyalty and production of the peasantry.

The King Never Smiles

To-do list

  • Record and plan new TCRAH ½
  • Sort some CDs ✅
  • Use new book to plan lessons ✅
  • Meditate

Now is Sunday. Time and effort have dissolved. I finally managed to start putting together lessons – now that the deadline has passed! Inspirations have to be followed at the appropriate time.

We got that attitude! – 25th March 2020

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I am so happy and grateful for our clean terrace this morning.

You do not have to lead an interesting life in order to understand how atoms move, but perhaps you do need it to understand what moves humans.

Branko Milanovic

To-do list

  • Record and plan more TCRAH
  • Sort some CDs
  • Write one lesson plan
  • Get back to squats and meditation ½

A lazy beery day. I’m still not really enjoying alcohol much these days – it interferes with my ability to read, write and watch (and follow) TV. I should just drink at social occasions but of course, there are none of those currently. So, anyway, I didn’t get much of anything done today.