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We got that attitude! – 10th July 2020

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I am so happy and grateful that we are having fun making videos today.

To-do list

  • Finish TCRAH episode tonight ½
  • Compliment someone – anyone! ✅
  • Silent positive wishes and mantra ✅
  • Call Hayden ✅
  • Have fun with making videos ✅

So, as you can see, my routine has got a bit out of whack and I haven’t been writing here as much. But I’m fine with that at the moment. In general, I’m feeling well and happy and have been thinking about thinking a little less and trying to put good habits into practice.

Some days, I still have fears and doubts but mostly everything has been going very well. I have been mostly on the ball during the week and not really doing much on the weekends so I can definitely feel the benefit of the weekly routine but also happy to break with it for the sake of variety.

I’m grateful that I have so many options available that I don’t get too bored. I will continue the practices that I note here until they become more and more ingrained. It’s a struggle but worthwhile.

British boys’ minds in a whirl – 9th July 2020

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Painkillers fog my brain – body feels relaxed but thinking gets mega tiring. Have to stay positive. George always positive – even if not inside. He’s too much sometimes – even though he’s right about many things – it puts me off depending on how I’m feeling.

Anyway – exercise this morning kicks me out of my laziness a little. I think I prefer my head to be straighter these days. Things I get to do can only be done when feeling straight. Beep beep – message. Amy crying out in her dream a lot last night.

What am I gonna talk about today? What can I achieve today? What are you thinking? Now or later? Now light sweat, aching thumbs – things begging to be done – but for what end. A sense of achievement? Purpose? Happiness? Trying to stay positive.

Will record some video today. Let’s see how I handle things. Stay positive.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful to be making videos again today. Sitting around doing nothing at work is ok for a while but gets boring.

To-do list

  • Post last two TCRAH ✅
  • Find more ‘school’ items ✅
  • Compliment someone – anyone! ✅
  • Silent positive wishes and ‘thank you’ mantra ✅
  • Record ‘Golden Age’ for Bruce if at home

We got that attitude! – 2nd July 2020

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Tired but had a good sleep. Lazy to work out this morning just stretch instead okay. The clouds – remember about clouds – oh yeah – best cloud of the day award – make a day of awards – will be fun and make you happy. I need to clean my room. Are my teeth okay? Feel better but need them to stay okay forever. Smell cat pee. Could just be damp humid air.

Learning Thai words but no chance to use really and when I do have chance someone Thai will usually say it first! The struggles of a language learner.

Walked KhaoThang home yesterday and jogged back. I have no stamina – had to rest many times! It’s okay though – felt good. My feet suck though. Knees too. Core too – haha! My body is slowly starting to know more about exercise again. I remember a time when I was filled with energy and stamina before my body grew into its twisted adult shape.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful to the person in the bank who gave me what I need for my visa.

To-do list

  • Compliment someone and give silent good wishes ✅
  • ‘Thank you’ mantra ✅
  • Record more blog posts and edit drafts ✅
  • Post more TCRAH to blog ✅

Missed out on writing last night as we went out to eat with Aing and her friend. I had a couple of beers and went straight to be when I got home.

And tonight it’s already late and I’m lazy. I’m not concerned though. Things are going in the right direction for me.

There’s a big sky out tonight and it’s never been this big before – 18th June 2020

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The mountains at the back of our house run in valleys, sometimes into the distance or in parallel ridges. In this picture, a valley running off towards the west, and its surrounding mountains were bathed in sunshine, the bright greens bouncing into the sky.

Scanning to the left, the air turns thicker and a battle is brewing for territorial dominance. The clouds are too heavy to keep their water and it drops onto the leafy jungle, turning into wisps of mist. Dark rolls around the skies, dragging the clouds down from above, stirring a big soup with deep rumbles and sudden flashes.

This one will deliver.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful to be surrounded by caring people that can help need realise my potential.

Brain dump

Drain pipe fell out – who will fix? I can try but I think needs glue – we don’t have.

Social Distortion on mental jukebox for no reason other than it matched my rhythm of lifting weights. What else can I get out of my head this morning? Noisy frogs – but none outside our entertainment area now – have snakes gone – maybe?

Sore butt sitting here yesterday for too long – back – a little ache lower left – arm feel well used.

Now! Now! Now! Not the before, not five minutes – breakfast, school, videos – but now?! Surrounded by things I love – even snakes and frogs. Beautiful grey sky! Rain rain rain – not like UK. Beeping from UPS – what happened – who knows? Okay – Thai and meditation because I don’t know what’s in my head at the moment really.

To-do list

  • Compliment – silent wishes – smile ½
  • Laugh and enjoy making videos again ✅
  • Squats/exercise/stretch ✅
  • Remind yourself about listening ½
  • Keep up with learning Thai ✅

A bit more activity at school today as we did the video in the morning and that was fun compared with the past week or so of just sitting around and reading.

George was, to my mind, quite overbearing this morning, when he said he thought I should exercise more and that he was only saying these things because he cares about me so much. He sounded sincere in his words but I felt a little negative about it. George feels like a father figure and he speaks with authority but sometimes it has the opposite effect – as he has experienced with Bee too – and it can make people just want to be stubborn and do the opposite – or just to think ‘Stop telling me what to do’.

But I recognised these thoughts and feelings and wondered why I was so negative towards them. Just thinking about this for a while actually took away the negativity. George can be right in what he is saying and it is still ok for me to not accept his advice about it.

I also think it wasn’t completely justified as I feel quite fit and healthy these days and don’t feel the need to be really pushing myself too hard with lifting weights and working out in such a determined manner as he does.

Anyway I was proud of myself to not let it effect the rest of my day at all and was curious about my feelings.

We got that attitude! – 12th June 2020

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I am so happy and grateful that I got access back to our Westpac bank account today!

3rd Aug 2022 – Both Amy and I hadn’t been able to access our Australia account with our phone app, although we were still able to use our debit cards. We tried calling the bank in Oz and whilst they were helpful there was information that we couldn’t quite remember so that they could confirm we were who we were saying we were! For me, I couldn’t remember the address I had in Adelaide, or even if I had updated it with the bank. It was frustrating for us but I can totally understand the bank not giving access.

And then – I remembered the correct password! Woohoo. We couldn’t get Amy’s access back though but all was right with mine, enough to even get a new debit card sent to Thailand.

To-do list

  • Positive-smile-compliment-wish-body scan ½
  • Scan pictures in the evening
  • Sort pictures to print
  • More Thai study – don’t stop! ½
  • Speak less – listen more

We got that attitude! – 5th June 2020

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I am so happy and grateful to be able to drive the truck today. I can see the traffic coming now.

To-do list

  • Savour something ✅
  • Perform a random act of kindness
  • Smile and think positive wishes ½
  • Compliment everyone about anything ½
  • No negative jokes ½
  • Go to Bangkok Bank and Kasikorn ✅

Another very chill and relaxed day with no work to do. Getting paid for a full month was a fabulous bonus too. I was so happy that I hung out in my room pottering and reading and just feeling great in general.

Amy is really happy at the moment too. What she has done with the entertainment area has really pleased us both. Our house is getting even more like a home. I love it here so much.

It’s hot again and drops of sweat are blurring the pages as I write. Thanks for aircon!

We got that attitude! – 24th May 2020

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I am so happy and grateful for taking the opportunity to learn a little about video editing. It was time-consuming but fun.

To-do list

  • Record TCRAH ✅
  • Warm-up video and exercise when you get up ✅
  • Double check lessons and organisation of them ½

Doing a warm-up and some weights this morning definitely seemed to put me in a productive mood. I feel like I managed to do so much today – even with three hours or so spent doing a jigsaw.

I was still energised as it cooled in the early evening and moved a lot of blocks and shovelled some stones. I’m pretty beat now but still feeling happy and positive. I will keep this positive feeling going into the work week.

The Chiang Rai Alternative Hour #39 – 23rd May 2020

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Music from Pregnant Neck, The Fugs, 35mm Dreams, Tsushimamire, Skurge, Mudhoney, George Duke, Electric Light Orchestra, Lightning Bolt, Unknown, Thinking Fellers Union Local 282, Dennis Brown, Wild Youth, Vibrato Fetish, Spanish Dogs, beNt, Cockney Rejects and The Temptations.

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for my shower in the morning, to cool and refresh, and prepare for the day.

To-do list

  • Continue video editing ✅
  • Enjoy Baew’s birthday party ✅
  • Record TCRAH if time
  • Find warm up video and then exercise
  • Read some more – I want to finish this book! ✅

I enjoyed learning the video editing software today. Amy was obviously in her monthly bad mood so it was good to be out of the way. She was baking cakes too. I find it hard to deal with her when she’s in these moods and even she knows that she is not herself.

She was happy when we got to Baew’s though and we started eating and drinking. I had to stop after a little bit though because I was tired and I ended up sleeping for a couple of hours!

Tomorrow – get up and go again.

We got that attitude! – 22nd May 2020

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I am so happy and grateful for my little man cave where I can sit and meditate, work, play, read and sleep. My own little private space to enjoy.

To-do list

  • Listen, think, assert gently ✅
  • Offer more help to other teachers – build trust ✅
  • Enjoy filming ✅
  • Exercise, meditate, write in the morning ½
  • Write more blog posts ✅

Very happy with today. I still made some minor blunders but overall everything was good. I have offered to help Kru Tongjai with editing my video so that kept me busy for most of the afternoon and most of the evening too, but it’s been enjoyable learning the process.

Drank some beers this evening, so happy and lazy to write!

We got that attitude! – 12th May 2020

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I am so happy and grateful to be working and getting paid but also having time to spend sitting by the river in the morning.

To-do list

  • Send card to Fern ✅
  • Speak even less today ½
  • Pick up a gift for the student teachers

At the intersection where I planned to pick up a gift, the lights were out so no one was out selling! I’ll try again tomorrow.

At times during today, I felt very tired and unable to think of things to add to conversations. At other times, I noticed when talking about my experiences in the school, then I think I was saying too much.