In confusion, a purpose in life, the choice, the problem – 20th January 2020

Morning ritual (habits)
– read Daily Stoic 365
– movement – the body should be treated more rigorously, that it may not be disobedient to the mind.
– mindfulness – meditation or stream-of-consciousness writing
– mastery – one person likes tending to his horse, another to his farm; I like to daily monitor my self-improvement.

What experiences can you invest in?
– go to school in the holidays and talk to the kids there
– arrange once-a-month free Friday learning in our classroom

Gratitude Journal

I am so happy and grateful for my new pillow. It seems to be doing the trick for my dodgy neck.

Make up your bed each morning. Studies show this simple act can make all the difference in your day.

ABC article

To-do list

  • More Science of Well Being Coursera ✅
  • Prepare/check next week’s lessons ✅
  • Get photo from when teaching for TLC ✅
  • Next read-to-lead step ✅
  • At home – continue dream decade sheet ✅

Today I found out that I will be put back to CRPAO in Mathayom (high school) next semester. Joe (TLC) said that it was because I refused to do their (Anuban’s) work on the weekend back at the beginning of the semester but I’m not sure if that’s true. I feel like Joe has other agendas that I don’t know about, and that’s ok, it’s just hard to place my trust in him totally.

Anyway, it’s something that is out of the way now, I don’t have to think about it anymore. I can start coming up with work ideas well ahead of time.

Although it’s not startling news, I reacted well. It’s not in my control where they would like me to work. In the past, I can imagine being upset at what could be considered a rejection from Anuban. I know I’m OK, I know I’m a good enough teacher so I have no need to feel down about these events.

I enjoyed my lessons today as they were very simple. I will miss some of these kids and would love to watch them grow. I guess that’s part of this job.

My self-control was not really tested today. The kids were their usual rowdy selves but I didn’t shout to strain my voice. I don’t recall complaining today either though it is still hard for me to recognise.

Tomorrow I will talk briefly with Kru Noon and let her know I won’t be there next semester – maybe she knows already. I’d like to find something to give her as a gift, though I’m not really sure what.

Tomorrow is the first day of English ‘camp’ which should be pretty cruisy for us. Hopefully, I’ll get some free time back in the classroom as there are always many things I want to read and learn about.

*Records of the Year – 31st December 1985

1980:
Damned – Machine Gun Etiquette
Dead Kennedys – Fresh Fruit For Rotting Vegetables

1981:
Restricted Code – First Night On
Nine Below Zero – Three Times Enough
Dead Kennedy’s – Too Drunk To Fuck
Crass – Penis Envy

1982:
Black Flag – Damaged

1983:
Social Distortion – Mommy’s Little Monster
Minor Threat – Out Of Step

1984:
Husker Du – Diane
DOA – Bloodied But Unbowed
Anti-Sect – In Darkness There Is No Choice
Subhumans – Cradle To The Grave
Black Flag – My War
UK Decay – Werewolf
Cult Maniax – Cold Love
Black Flag – Slip It In
Black Flag – Family Man
Subhumans – Rats
Wasted Youth – Wild and Wandering

Phone Numbers:
Paul Chambers
Andy Anderson
Justin Butler
Simon Bradbury
Dave Brown
Alan (Josh and John)

*The Week That Was – 24th September 1984

Record of the week: UK Decay – For Madmen Only LP, Disorder – Under The Scalpel Blade, Chaotic Dischord – 12″

24th September 1984
Watched telly in evening. It’s getting winterier. A definite chill in the air.

25th September 1984
Put in bike for service. Got it back at five. Bloke said I looked after it quite well. Really. It only cost £18 odd. Watched Silent Movie – good. Write a good song. IN TWO MINDS. Waited for the right time to write SHE’S SO BEAUTIFUL….

27th September 1984
Had a go at Jasper for picking on Martin.

28th September 1984
Fuck all happened. Found out Conflict is next Sunday.

*The Week That Was – 2nd July 1984

Record of the week: Christian Death – Deathwish LP, Catastrophe Ballet LP, UK Decay – Werewolf 12″

2nd July 1984
Got up at 9.15. Went to Sharon’s. Did some brass polishing in the morning. It was hard. Did some wallpapering. Had some lunch. Then did some more papering. came back at 4. Got £4. Took Maico down track – couldn’t get it going. Left it at Murray’s. Got my moped and went down again. Pissed around. Took Jasper’s jump out because it’s not (?). Came back. Watched Hill Street Blues.

3rd July 1984
Got up at 6.30. Went to Sharon’s and cleaned out her yard. Weeded their terrace. Had lunch. Finished all the wallpapering with a little difficulty. Got £9. Came back. Went down track. Jasper put his jump back in. Only Scott likes him now. Came back to Gaunts. When Jasp came back we went and took the jump out again. Talked to Muz til 11. Came back. Got to sleep at 12.

4th July 1984
Didn’t go to Sharon’s today. Can’t remember what the fuck I did. This is next Tuesday night (10th) at the moment. I think I went to the track. Scott and Paul and Mayo were there. I went on. This might have happened tomorrow, I can’t remember. We all went to the common and had a game of block because no one wants to go to the track. Apparently Paul Miller’s after me cos of what we did down at the track.

5th July 1984
Didn’t go to Sharon’s again. What I discussed yesterday happened today I think. So what the fuck am I going to write? I haven’t got a clue. I don’t know. Ahh. Me, Muz, Crabb took Maico back yesterday at 11. Just for something to do. Apart from that, I don’t fuckin’ know.

6th July 1984
Went to Sharon’s today. Got absolutely covered in the paint. Did that all day. Got £8. Came back. Don’t know what I did. We all went to Houldey’s and took the piss out of them. Don’t know what else we did. I think I watched telly all night and got bored – who cares and who gives a fuck?

7th July 1984
Went to Bernice’s. Found out she got assaulted last night. Me and Lee waited for her to come out of the police station. We’re both pissed off cos of what happened. Bernice decided not to go to Bournemouth but I did. I got 2 Christian Death LPs, UK Decay 12″, Faction and Lack of Knowledge. Came back. Went to Saunders’. He didn’t get a video so I came back and played records.

8th July 1984
Got up and pissed around. Can’t remember what I did. At night me and Muz went to Houldey’s cos we were bored. Beki was in a right shit. Me and Muz went back to his place and tried to get his computer going but couldn’t so I came back.

*The Week That Was – 15th June 1981

Single of the week: Bad Manners – Can Can, Splodgenessabounds – Cowpunk Medlum

15th June 1981
Not bad
Adam and the Ants

16th June 1981
Dead Kennedys out
oh well

17th June 1981
Haha
Frampton got hit on the head by a cricket ball
Haha

1st Feb 2023 – I remember this as being Jonathan Duncan, not Tim Frampton, either way, the sound of the ball hitting the side of his head was sickening and dropped him to the ground for a good few minutes. I wonder if there was any long-term effect from that?

18th June 1981
Did Adam and the Ants talk in music

19th June 1981
Farmer’s a creep
Creep creep

20th June 1981
Anti Pasti, UK Decay, Cure, Clash, Damned
That’s what I got

21st June 1981
I missed today out

This week’s chart-topper was: Faggy Robinson’s Barley Water – Bee’s With You

*The Week That Was – 9th March 1981

Singles of the week: UK Decay – Unexpected Guest, Vice Squad – Last Rockers, Nine Below Zero – Three Times Enough

9th March 1981
WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS

10th March 1981
Ipswich 1 – Forest 0

11th March 1981
My fuckin’ back Argh Ow

12th March 1981
Not much happened at home

13th March 1981
Look in other DIARY you prune

14th March 1981
Ipswich 3 – Tottenham 0 (2-0)
Mick Mills dislocates shoulder

15th March 1981
Kim Wilde No 6

This week’s chart-topper is: Roxy Music – Jealous Guy
Highest New Entry: Phil Collins – I Missed Again