I am so happy and grateful for the fantastic books I’m reading.
The haunting fear that other people are having a wonderful time.
The School of Life
To-do list
- Finish topics overview for Champ
- AirAsia and Agoda refunds
- Picture for Fern ½
- Talk with Bruce about cutting back
- Finish more Pocket articles
Feeling a little unmotivated at the moment. I think may be due to the uncertainty of the future because of the virus.
The air quality is also putting me off from even going to work in my room – just want to sit in the one room with the air purifier and watch TV or read books. So tired and lazy, I fell asleep at around 10pm. I should be doing the things listed above but I don’t feel the urgency.
Amy is also talking more about her inability to live in Thailand anymore so our longer-term plans may involved a big move back to Australia. I feel a little disappointed with this but don’t want to keep Amy here if she can’t be happy. Her positive attitude has been slowly dissolved by her experience here over the last two years – not just with society in general but also with her parents and family.
As I’m feeling older and less inclined to be working, Thailand, despite its faults, feels like a better option to me. Amy is younger and still has the energy to work hard but our finances will be back to survival levels in Australia. I can live anywhere though so it’s not as important for me.
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