Singles of 83 Conflict – To A Nation Of Animal Lovers Conflict – The Serenade Is Dead
All-Time Single Theatre of Hate – Legion/Original Sin
LPs of 83 MDC – Millions of Dead Cops VA – Son of Oi! Kraut – An Adjustment To Society Black Flag – Everything Went Black VA – Rat Music For Rat People
All-Time LP Black Flag – Damaged
Tracks of 83 MDC – American Achievements Newtown Neurotics/Attila – Mindless Violence/Andy’s A Corporatist Red Alert – Industrial Slide Social Distortion – Moral Threat Conflict – Berkshire Cunt
Don’t wanna watch The Sound of Music Cos real horror makes me sick
Living zombies of blood and gore A schizophrenic rotten to the core Coming after you with a Texas chainsaw All the kids shout ‘We want more’
A mad axe killer on your TV A family film for all to see His guts squirming from his belly Falling out like fresh set jelly
Oh no they’ve raided the local shop They’ve put our fetish to a stop There’s no place that ain’t had the chop No more films! Over the top!
I need to see blood so I walk the street Hammer raised ready for someone to beat Poke out their eyes and cut off their feet This horror nasty is really neat
Don’t wanna do the sounds of music Cos real horror makes me sick
Killer bee stings me Rash comes up very nasty Going to town but I’m going crazy Sit back and die, too lazy Nasty me, lazy crazy
20th May 2023 – I’ve only ever been stung by bees one time as I was walking off the paths in the woods at the common near home. I knew almost every inch of the woods, paths, bracken and streams. I didn’t notice these bees though and I don’t know if I did anything to upset them without knowing but I suddenly noticed them buzzing around and then felt two stings on my arms under my shirt which I immediately ripped off. My white school shirt. Why do I remember that detail? Anyway, it wasn’t a pleasant experience and possibly inspired this poem. I’ve since been bitten and stung by a host of other nasties but no more bees or wasps so far.
Records of the week: Minor Threat – Out of Step, MDC – Multi Death Corporations, Social Distortion – Mommy’s Little Monster
26th December 1983 Woke up 8 – Couldn’t sleep. Feeling terrible – bad gut. Watching Bugs Bunny at the moment. Going to Lorna’s soon. Nice relaxing day. Sharon, Ken, Mungo and Kim were there as well. Got slightly tipsy – so to speak.
27th December 1983 Woke up 9. Listening to Minor Threat and Social Distortion – not done much really. Got a box to put my LPs in. Been thinking mostly – about this and that. Finished reading The Fog – good.
28th December 1983 Carrie’s on tonight. Met Muz down at Gaunts – bought some fags. Not been doing much again. Reading my Naff Guide. Eddie Waring is ill. Rupert and Sue came over – they gave me some talc.
Eddie Waring
29th December 1983 Went to Poole with Mum. Can’t go to see Zoe – no busses. Got photocopying of the group done. Bought 3 books – Psychlone, The Satanist and Time Enough For Love. Zoe called – had to explain I couldn’t see her. Anarchy in the UK isn’t No. 1 in the Festive 50. (Blue Monday). Started reading The Dark.
30th December 1983 Not much happening today. Watching Battlestar Galactica at the moment. Got a pair of slippers – at last. Trying to arrange meeting – should be on Monday at Justin’s. Cat’s here at the moment. There’s nothing else to fill this space up.
31st December 1983 Went in the afternoon to Poole. Put another £2 on the Youth Brigade LP. Saw the Frantix EP £2.49. Doesn’t look much but it’s probably good. Got a bottle of Merrydown which I’m slurping now. Theatre of Blood is on tonight – it’s good.
1st January 1984 Cat slept with me last night. I got a bit drunk last night. Woke up at 12 again. Went out on the common for a laugh. Was reading most of the day. Not a lot else happened. Had a game of poker with Mum, Granny and Grandad.
25th December 1983 Well, it’s Christmas. The cat slept with me. Forgot to make my mum a cup of tea – was so tired as I didn’t get to sleep til 2. Had 2 and a half bottles of Merrydown so was very merry all day. Zoe called me and talked for one and a half hours. Cat slept with me again. Social Distortion – Mommy’s Little Monster Minor Threat – Out of Step MDC – Multi Death Corporations Menstrual Cycles – Skin/Punx
26th December 1983 See next diary
28th December 1983 Carrie’s on
Forward Engagements 6th January 1984 – Subhumans/Self Abuse/(maybe us)
SATAN’S CHILDREN SONGS Lyrics: BE DAMNED DECAY ENTER THE PIT POLYTECHNIC SONG IT DOESN’T MATTER HOW MANY REAGANS YOU SHOOT YOU”RE THE DEVIL NOW DOGSHIT DANGER GAS MASK DANCE BAUHAUS SATAN’S CHILDREN ABBATOIRS GOD AND LIGHT DICKHEADS ANONYMOUS DULCE ET DECORUM EST HALLSBALLS
Music and Lyrics: DOCTOR MARTEN BOOTS POLYTECHNIC SONG LOUIE LOUIE SATAN’S CHILDREN ABBATOIRS
Practices: 1
21 Dec 1983 Jan 83 – Simon sacked from Species Jun 83 – Species split Me, Justin, Simon got together and the idea born – Violent Rubbish Justin’s friend Paul Reid said he may be interested in playing guitar Aug 83 – Justin, Simon, Paul and Rick had a practice while I was on holiday. Sep 83 – Kenty persuaded Paul to leave 2nd Butcher gig at Capones – got Andy to be our guitarist Oct 83 – Had a practice at Herbert Carter Nov 83 – Tried to play at Cult Maniax gig – Andy had diabetes attack – changed name to Satan’s Children Dec 83 – Gig planned with Subhumans and Self Abuse – Jan Cliff may be joining
28th Jul 2024 – Mum and me in my bedroom at Forest Cottage. I’m not sure why Mum let me graffiti the walls but I did, and my friends did, along with some painting and various other decorations. The writing on the right was WASTED which was my imaginary band at the time.
Her old Sony Trinitron was how I remember watching TV in those days. I think she had upgraded to a newer Sony Trinitron, happy with the quality. Those things used to last and the rate of improvement of technology was much slower then.
My room wasn’t much wider than this. My single bed fit perfectly across the width and the length was perhaps a little shorter than two bed lengths.
The three-piece suit was an Oxfam buy that was a bit of a fuck you to the traditional punk clothing that everyone was wearing and also helped me get lifts to Poole when hitchhiking there.
28th Jul 2024 – Sometime around October, I had bleached my hair and a week before the Christmas holiday started I got the sides cut to give me a nice wide blonde mohawk. The school were having none of it though and suspended me from school unless it was off or dyed black. So much for the Christmas spirit! Fucking school!
I thought that my Mum wouldn’t be that bothered about me missing the last few days of school but I was wrong and she insisted that I do something about it. So I got most of it cut and the tuft at the front I had to cover in boot polish until the end of the week. Ugh.
This picture was taken in the dining room where my grandparents would spend their time, the chair behind us belonged to our dog, Jenny, a springer spaniel that my mum overfed over time and eventually was unable to lift herself up there.
It’s not who you know, it’s what you know It’s not why you do, it’s what you show It’s not where you do it, it’s where you go If anyone says different they’d better lie low
Reported knowledge retorted friend I’ve got an A Level in Latin What job do you wanna do? I wouldn’t mind being a chef I laughed That’s what he learnt False
19th May 2023 – The best way to dissuade a child from religion is to send them to Catholic school.
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